Time won't stop, So are the troubles.

Hi Blog.

Today went out with Meiwern. Thought we will actually enjoy myself but ended up bad again. I felt that we always has ups and downs within a week. Last 2 days we did enjoy ourself, but today we ended up quarrel again.

I kinda wonder, is it because we can't meet up often cause we will ended up quarrel for the week. She always say I need to change or I never change. Well, seriously, I really change alot. I'm not used to be like this in the past. And for awhile, I finally realise what was the thing i should change. I should just change myself to accept what she was. Since she always says that she doesn't want to change, then that's the only option I will have to take.

But isn't accept her means i have to bear her everything? Then i'll be like a balloon keep taking in the unwanted things that she will give me and ended up what we are now. I don't know. I took alot of craps that she gave me already and there are really times that I feel like punching on the walls just to vent my anger. I control, I really did control. She says my temper is bad when i did this, but have she wonder how come I will ended up in this way? Let's just forget about that.

I just hope everything will just go smoothly for me. I love her so much. Really.






So Eugene, Just Accept Her.





Yes.





I will.





I Need A Hug.

Testing That Is This Blog Being Close?

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Haha. I'm Blind.

So many things in my head. Its about to explode.

So who's the real me? Nobody knows. Even I don't understand. Sometimes I lose myself. I lose control. People see me as crazy? Partner is embarassed to have me? That's not I need anyway. Everytime a serious relationship never get to last. Is it I'm not fated to have one? Or should I really have to act like a jerk then it will be ok?

My head is swollen. I guess there's blood.

Anyway I am contented. For what I have now. Other things, will have to wait and see. Lets nature take its course. Seriously, I really think that the outcome will be the same. Its so similar to what i experience in the past. Will we be together? I guess you will just find somebody better than me. I say this is to make who feel better? Me or you? If I ever told you I really love you only, will you believe? If I told you, you are the only person I wanna live with, will you believe? If i told you, i will change, will you believe?

Crying Makes my life worsen.

Suck it up Eugene,
It's the same old scene.