This Chinese New Year its really not for me. It's boring, it's really not that happening after all. Everything just pass as per normal. Not really much mood to celebrate. Is it NS or is it everybody changing, who knows who cares. My birthday was the worst of everything. I have to book in, i was rushing, really not enough sleep. The most important thing was i didn't even enjoy just for a normal day. Hated my life.

I haven't been really lucky after.

Today is a bad day for me. Unlimited bad things just waiting for me to uncover, one by one make me sad. First, how can i be so that sway, have to do guard duty again after i pitiful completed 3. And the worst of all is during my block leave. Fuck, just don't let me enjoy at all. I really felt very down and angry. What's the worst was, there's this motherfucker, that laughed at me. Yeah, I'm that sway, but is that the permission for you to laugh at? Is not the first time bro, you have been laughing at me at Friday when i pathetically doing duty while others having half day off. This sucks and i gotta put an end to it.

But who can I depend on when I'm down?

From 08 to 09, thought it will be better in time.

Quarrel never ever stop. Quarrel over a ez-link card. Is it worth it to get both party to be angry with each other. I really Had Enough. It's not first time, it's not any last time. It's my fault, but its really a small matter. I know, probably I will get feedback that "Oh, you are just a guy, you wont know." But when you really think bout it, is it really worth to make a big whoo ha on it? I know you are angry with me for not listening to you but does this matter really important that it can really prove I will never listen to you anymore? And, have you really ever listen to me that is a surprise for me that my mama change me card?

Just when i thought things gonna be better tomorrow or tonight, guess I just think too much.

I am sorry for everything. Today it's really a bad day for me. Maybe I still sad bout my birthday. Or luck is just not with me this year, I am really tired.



Started trying to cheer up
Ended trying to keep it up