NSF

How does this 2 yrs going to change my life. It has been awhile since i blog cus I'm really been worn out by NS.. why is it so difficult for me to go through. Others can pass it normally or even enjoying it, for me, i can adapt but i cant change character to adapt it.

I don't aim high, i have no urgency, i don't lead, so how am I going to survive. and right now, days are getting more and more tough for me. I'm now an engineer which is quite a tough vocation. Just like the course i undergoing now, its just 2weeks and i am barely surviving it.

Sometimes, i am curious whether people are born to be selfish or they choose to be selfish. In army, is not surprising to find a handful of these fuckers. Yes, i use the word FUCKER cus i am really pissed with them.

Example: Tomorrow i need to wake up at 3am, and my rest of bunk mates wake up at 6 as they are not on course. There's a trend of playing magic cards now in the platoon and count myself unlucky to have 1 crazy addict that loves to play. He know i have to wake up at 3, but he still play his fucking card with his friends and talks, laughs loud. I mean its ok for me to sleep with lights on but its too much for me to take the noise level. So i went up and told them "do you know i need to wake up early tomorrow?" guess what they say, "Ya, i know, so you better don't wake me up." After that sentence, i fucking wanna slap his mouth till his tooth drop out. Damn asshole, thinking that he is a white horse, he can do anything he wants but that's too bad cus I really don't give a fuck about it. damn inconsiderate selfish.

I really don't understand, as we both are human, we both have mother and father, why is it so hard to spare a thoughts for your own bunkmtaes. anyway, fuck them.

Lets sleep.