Ha. Blog.

Couldnt really sleep back. 2 more hours i have to be someone alarm clock.

Sat on it.

I was super early at amk. I forget it was 1.45. i got about 30mins to spare. so i draw money 2 times. and spend it 1 time. pro. make way to my house and realise that chomp chomp have thai express. eat alot, got cheated by some bbq seafood shit. Fucking hell, not the same as the picture. Went over to my house. She sleeping i watching tv. Rush to the suntec, play few rounds of cooking master and photohunt.

I was quite angry with myself as i waste lots of time going home to take specs. And i tend to get irritate that i am very late. I am sorry that i let my anger out of control dear. Anyway, the chalet was a mess. First, the cab driver joker, then william another joker, 1 tell me this another tell me that. Fuck la. Drive me to golf club when i going chalet. When over, can't even saw 33, have to walk in abit. Thought i was lost. I saw william outside but i cant confirm as there are a huge group gather inside the living room. What the hell, all the relatives of his came and stay overnite. Wa, boring. When up, wa, all eat like. Only left me, teck sun and kah meng hungry.

So kah meng is the chef of the day. HO, then william forget to borrow bikes, then lip chung was so pissed and he ran off alone to the beach. Dont know how. Then they went bowling which is so lousy, jeffrey pull me to play pool. Kinda let him win, but we still draw. Ok, go play ground, back to chalet again. nothing to do, sleep. Sleep at the floor lor. So sian. Then went home at 10.25.

Sun rise,

Sleep whole day. Nice.

Alone and think, about something. You are always the one i love, i feel for, i need. I hope you will to accept the apologies of a bastard that is willing to change for the good and make you happy for the rest of your life. I going to army soon i guess. I hope that i will still able to have you to make me get leave everytime in the army.

Opportunity, take and learn.

Dear Blog,

I expected it and it came truth. I dislike the feeling but what can i do? Say badly, I am the cause. So I can only blame myself. From this very moment, i wont beg for forgiveness anymore. I will make up everything and let you forgive me eventually. Its hard its tough, since I am the cause, i will have to pay.

But what can i say is I Love You Dear. This is the word that will be keep in my heart forever and ever.

Everytime I see couples around, I feel sad. I feel like i gradually tear this relationship apart. Every night, I will sure have toss and turn and hate myself for it. I try to bring this relationship back, but it seems that everytime I fail. I just cant accept the things she say to me. I told my mama, she say "Its normal for girls. So live with it." Ya, i know, cause she's also have... Anyway, ya, i live with it, no matter how pain it is for me to hear it, let it be. What's important now is her feeling, mine can wait and i can settle myself.

End. (hope its the trouble)

Dear Blog,

My head is suffering from alot of pain. I am not sure that there's something happening inside. I am really not sure.

1 thing i am sure about is i love u dear.. i really love u alot dear.. my 1 and only dear, lim meiwern. i really love u.. please hear me out can? i will didnt expect this. i know i did something really wrong. i admit. i admit it, i admit i take pictures with other girl and i lie to u that i was in other place. i scared u will think otherwise tt's y i am not telling u. please dont leave me, i really holds highly on this relationship. u are really important to me than anything else. its pain to see u sad, it pains more to be the 1 causing it. i am guilty i am willing to give up anything to save this relationship. i dont really wanna end, i wanna be with u forever n ever.. i wanna grow old with u i wanna take care of u i wanna start a family with u..

i make a mistake, i broke ur heart, will u give me a chance to fix back ur heart? its a mistake, its really a stupid mistake tt i make, i dint did any unfaithful things. i really love u.. please dont leave me ok? i am sorry i dint be there for u, i really cant accept the fact that u kept reminding me of the incident. i really cant take it when i hear u kept saying it. it seems like to more u talk to me, the more u saw me, the more painful u live on. i really very sad.

i dont want this relationship to end. i true to u, i changed, u ask me to do wat i willing to do it. just dont leave me, i prepare to give u what u wat, i know i really know i will do whatever it takes to have u back in my arms and be happy tog.. i really want to make it happen.

Please forgive me please forget it. Please give me a chance. Please let me show u how i love u..

i was wrong, and i was wrong again. but this time, i wont make anymore mistakes. Not even a slight mistakes. just come back into my arms, i give u wat u need. jus forget my wrongdoings.

DEAR I NEED YOU. I CANT SPEND MY LIFE WITHOUT YOU. I CANT LIVE WITHOUT YOU.. I REALLY NEED YOU.. PLEASE TAKE A LOOK AT HOW LONG WE BEEN TOG. I REALLY LOVE YOU DEAR.. I DID MAKE A MISTAKE, LET ME FIX THE MISTAKE. PLEASE. DEAR, PLEASE.