没意识。

I walk in the rain to hide my tears. My feelings are rather to be wash away as nobody seems to feel it anyway.

Its 7pm. Every worker in all part of singapore starts to rush home. Lucky for me, I am working at harbourfront. That's so great, as i will have seats to rest my feet from 1 end to another. Crowd after crowd filled the cubicle station after station. War will develop as space is limitted for everybody. Walkway disappear not long after a few station. There I am, happily and relieved to get a space with is not squeezy and do not need to fight bitterly to get some space to stand comfortably.

Was chatting on the phone, suddenly thought of no dinner came to my forgetful mind. I guess I take granted for my dinner to be fixed by my mama every evening. But i am glad to eat out as i can meet my dear for dinner, as I am MISSING HER ALOT. I was reaching potong pasir in a bout a minute, she was still hesistating whether to meet. I was rushing for an answer as i reached the station and the door had open. Just then she say ok and i squeeze all i can through the swarm of crowds. Yes, swarm. Everybody just stick together tightly and not even a rat can squeeze through. All i was apologizing as i squeeze through. People after people, they seems hard to understand "Excuse Me". I can't see that being polite can help me out in this situation. Just i about squeezing through and left few steps to the door, bell rang, door close, my heart sank deeply into the bottom of D (SAD).

I am sad and disappointed. I was blaming all the people that block my way, but i look at the reflection and feel i should say earlier anyway. What's more luck coming my way, i couldn't get any reception. or its the opposite. Feeling she will call me back, i wait. Wait for too long, i decided to message her as i thought maybe its not reception but her handphone battery were low like yesterday. Then she asking what happen, i told her what i experience but didn't know what i get was blaming me from not getting down. I try all i could just to know as long as you fail, you fail. There wont be 2nd chance, everybody will blame you, say you, hurt you, criticse you, won't understand how hard you put an effort to it.


I just couldn't bring myself to talk to someone that i have explain but i still get the blame. If you think i am lying, then its really no point.

NO POINT.