Wrong.

Felt like im the bitch of the day. Everybody talk to me seems to hate me. What did i do to deserve this. I need some time to be alone. Jus myself will do. Nobody else but me. Maybe i should quarratine myself and hope i wont hurt anyone unkowningly.

I dont deserve to suffer like this. But who can i turn to except myself. Nobody seems to know me. Nobody seems to give in to me. 1 show me attitude, the other talk about somethings that i cant satisfy her. I get 80 a day, i spend the most 20 for my self and the other 60 is all on her. i never save a single cent. Even i work, my money will be gone. For her. If anybody see my stuff, they will just laugh. My bag is broken, i take another bag. That one is damn tagged and torn, but it's ok. My wallet, i've been saying for ages, but it's ok. My clothes, all repeated, no money buy new one, it's ok. My mp3 player, it's ok now i got n91. My shaving kit, i dont even own 1, have to borrow from my papa and sometimes if i wake up late. Ho sey(Great), i no need to shave cause thanks to my grandma, my mama start to lock doors.

I really wanna buy alot of things, but i'm just restricted. Even i'm hungry, i have to scrimp and save, calculate everything i buy. Sometimes i really hungry till i almost collaspe, i always try to tolerate. 1 can slim down, 2 can save money. Please somebody tell me what else can i still do. Now i got attachment, i cant work. If not i will always friday go work as flyers. Tell me how? I'm tight. Real tight.

Im so bothered, i cant even sleep.
I really hope that just anybody would give in to me and just treat me slightly better.

walking zombie to work.
sure thing tomorrow.

Wit's End

Who has actually listen to what i want? Who actually know what i want? Who actually understand what i seek? Is not i did not say, i say but nobody care.

Turn to blog cause i cant sleep. Never been sleeping since start of the week. Life has been going down day by day. I really could not take it. I have been tolerate for this whole week. Everytime i kept thinking tomorrow will be a better day but it end up worst. Think this is the down period of my life for this year. I really need to vent my anger at somewhere. But where to vent? All i can vent is myself. Without hurting others, its by torturing myself. In this way i will get distracted and anger will leave quietly off. This is my style of successfully clear my anger. Its not advisable but it perfectly work out. I love you forever and ever 1 and only. I never doubt your love or not trusting you, i just feel not secured. I just need something i can cling on so tightly and give me the confidence i need. I need something that will switch my focus to something that is optimistic.

I'm really tired. I'm worn out.
I cant take it anymore or again.
Cry myself to sleep
Cry myself to dream.

I only want you for all my life.
Serious.