Enough.
I'm having enough of this bullshit. There's a saying jia you yi lao ru you yi bao. I think the person probably eat shit for breakfast. What the fuck is the meaning of that? I am sick of the lao in my home. By the way, i am the only child. I should have lots of freedom than any kids who have bro n sis. BUT NO. There's this lao, come stop me. Come cage me, Come tie me, Come guard me. I go where, she will go where. I sit down rest, here comes the nonsense conversation. When i say the MOTHERFUCKING RIGHT THING AND ITS DAMN RIGHT, IT'S JUST RIGHT, I DONT CARE WHAT THE FUCK YOU THINK IT'S WRONG, IT'S THE RIGHTEOUS RIGHT THING, she will say i oppose her or what the fuck that its not related. And she bug me to mop the floor, i mop, in a blink of an eye time, just a blink, REALLY, JUST 1 BLINK ONLY, she pick up the mop, and mop the floor again. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH HER? WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THE WORLD SHE'S LIVING IN? WHAT THE FUCK IS SHE EVER THINKING? SHE CAN BUG ME TILL I ALMOST BREAK HER NECK, AND LATER ON, SHE MOP THE FLOOR AGAIN. IT'S FUCKING DRIVE ME CRAZY. MONEY, I NEED MONEY, COME TOTO, COME 4D, COME HIGH PAY JOB, COME AND LOOK FOR ME. I WANNA MOVE OUT OF THIS HOUSE OR IS MOVE OUT OF HER VIEW. DAMN IT. WHAT'S WRONG WITH HER?
MIGHTY GOD,
GIVE ME THE POWER,
TO WIN MY FREEDOM BACK,
I AM ON THE VERGE OF BECOMING HULK.
Monday, March 26, 2007
Friday, March 16, 2007
Why.
Why there is so much things that doesnt go what i want today?
First thing first. My dear, why you wear till so exposed. You should know what's the area you are working and some more its a job interview. Please, No More Le Ok? I dont like those guys kept seeing you like the eyes almost drop out and mouth opening wide along with waterfall of saliva. I am not being uptight but till the day when you are ready, then i let you wear, no problem. Ok?
Secondly, why are you doing this to me? Even you are my kin, yet still got this thing as backstab you know. I know i am not being healthy to sleeping so late but what the fuck. Need to backstab ma? Secretly tell my papa say i sleep late and when i come to the table she was shocked with a stunned look. Then who dunno the next thing will be my papa saying me. Still pretend at there say, "dont say him la". I am not your audience and i am not your fans. I dont need you to act or perform your whatever things you are trying to do. Better eat with a small mouth then to open wide to talk behind backs. BOOO YOU FOR YOUR WRONGDOING. Also i'm having enough of your nonsense. I dunno what to say but i hope you know what you are doing.
Thirdly, the more i see my papa the more i feel that money is the best when you earn it yourself. Having to rely on people cant get you far. It's truth, and after my supp paper and hopefully i can really pass cus i really putting lots of effort, i go find a job and earn lots of money as fast as possible. I just got too many things to buy. And if getting your money is so difficult, i rather you keep it to yourself and spend on yourself to make everybody feel better.
Dog eat Dog World happen anywhere.
Why there is so much things that doesnt go what i want today?
First thing first. My dear, why you wear till so exposed. You should know what's the area you are working and some more its a job interview. Please, No More Le Ok? I dont like those guys kept seeing you like the eyes almost drop out and mouth opening wide along with waterfall of saliva. I am not being uptight but till the day when you are ready, then i let you wear, no problem. Ok?
Secondly, why are you doing this to me? Even you are my kin, yet still got this thing as backstab you know. I know i am not being healthy to sleeping so late but what the fuck. Need to backstab ma? Secretly tell my papa say i sleep late and when i come to the table she was shocked with a stunned look. Then who dunno the next thing will be my papa saying me. Still pretend at there say, "dont say him la". I am not your audience and i am not your fans. I dont need you to act or perform your whatever things you are trying to do. Better eat with a small mouth then to open wide to talk behind backs. BOOO YOU FOR YOUR WRONGDOING. Also i'm having enough of your nonsense. I dunno what to say but i hope you know what you are doing.
Thirdly, the more i see my papa the more i feel that money is the best when you earn it yourself. Having to rely on people cant get you far. It's truth, and after my supp paper and hopefully i can really pass cus i really putting lots of effort, i go find a job and earn lots of money as fast as possible. I just got too many things to buy. And if getting your money is so difficult, i rather you keep it to yourself and spend on yourself to make everybody feel better.
Dog eat Dog World happen anywhere.
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
Another.
It's another week of misfortune. I had enough I had worn-out. Things have not been good for me, maybe there's a reason. I feel useless and worthless at home. I dont wanna stay at home, its like there's no reason for me to stay. I wanna work, i wanna study, i wanna spend as much time as possible outside. Life at home is much worst than a dog eat dog world outside.
What worst than a non-stop nags. Its like a 7-11 nag store open at home. Even i'm sleeping, 8+am, must wake me up and tell me "I went out. You clean the house. What time your mama go out, remember to clean house." I never always get to sleep enough with a person around like this. I cant have a quiet time, everytime come in my room and nag nag nag, gossip gossip, talk talk talk, i really have enough.. Talk can, but kept repeating the same thing keeps me fed up. Some more, tell her to do things, she wont listen and later on leads to quarrel. Then say not her fault not her mistake nothing wrong. Is it old people tends to be this way? Therefore i never ever show my frustration.
Monday. Meet tommy and yanda and wee. So long sia. So long to have the 3 of us tog with yanda. But yanda go meet his kuku girl after 1 hour. Went over to wee house to bath then talk then go tiong bahru plaza cause he dont wanna spend money. We have a budget outing, just sit talk and home. Tommy doesnt look like last time, as in, he's more hip hop and always looking at his watch to get home early. Wee, he change to a carefully money spender. Doesnt look like what he used to be. So does me. Anyway, we end early so didnt really enjoy to the fullest. And fuck tommy, always so last minute.
Tuesday. Meet meiwern. What's there to be say. Is it every month of a week there will be mood swing? But its really too much of a mood swing. Its really hard for me to accept it. I already try but maybe for that day i got too much in my head. Thumbdrive, not enough sleep and so on. What's wrong with me. I am sorry dear, i am sorry for not understanding. Its my bad.
Today. Results cuts my mood into pieces. Im sorry. I wanna be alone. But i cant. Constantly there will be a person that follows me like my shadow around this house and talk and talk. Its driving me nuts and i am really tolerating towards my limit. But what can i say, its not her fault to live with us. I cant blame her. My life is like a tumour to me. Its getting worst after each day. What's happening. What have i done. I really wanna pause and take a break.
The worst happen
and its so sudden
It came un-prepare
right now i am despair.
It's another week of misfortune. I had enough I had worn-out. Things have not been good for me, maybe there's a reason. I feel useless and worthless at home. I dont wanna stay at home, its like there's no reason for me to stay. I wanna work, i wanna study, i wanna spend as much time as possible outside. Life at home is much worst than a dog eat dog world outside.
What worst than a non-stop nags. Its like a 7-11 nag store open at home. Even i'm sleeping, 8+am, must wake me up and tell me "I went out. You clean the house. What time your mama go out, remember to clean house." I never always get to sleep enough with a person around like this. I cant have a quiet time, everytime come in my room and nag nag nag, gossip gossip, talk talk talk, i really have enough.. Talk can, but kept repeating the same thing keeps me fed up. Some more, tell her to do things, she wont listen and later on leads to quarrel. Then say not her fault not her mistake nothing wrong. Is it old people tends to be this way? Therefore i never ever show my frustration.
Monday. Meet tommy and yanda and wee. So long sia. So long to have the 3 of us tog with yanda. But yanda go meet his kuku girl after 1 hour. Went over to wee house to bath then talk then go tiong bahru plaza cause he dont wanna spend money. We have a budget outing, just sit talk and home. Tommy doesnt look like last time, as in, he's more hip hop and always looking at his watch to get home early. Wee, he change to a carefully money spender. Doesnt look like what he used to be. So does me. Anyway, we end early so didnt really enjoy to the fullest. And fuck tommy, always so last minute.
Tuesday. Meet meiwern. What's there to be say. Is it every month of a week there will be mood swing? But its really too much of a mood swing. Its really hard for me to accept it. I already try but maybe for that day i got too much in my head. Thumbdrive, not enough sleep and so on. What's wrong with me. I am sorry dear, i am sorry for not understanding. Its my bad.
Today. Results cuts my mood into pieces. Im sorry. I wanna be alone. But i cant. Constantly there will be a person that follows me like my shadow around this house and talk and talk. Its driving me nuts and i am really tolerating towards my limit. But what can i say, its not her fault to live with us. I cant blame her. My life is like a tumour to me. Its getting worst after each day. What's happening. What have i done. I really wanna pause and take a break.
The worst happen
and its so sudden
It came un-prepare
right now i am despair.
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
All because of money.
working from 8 of march till 11 of march. Stupid IT fair. Damn no life and no good food over there. What can i say. It's free anyway. Stand from 11am onwards till 10pm. Stupid customer, so stupid till cannot read the poster say till 9pm, still mus dilly dally at the fair choosing here and there. Stand whole day, talk whole day, tired whole day. Persuade and persuade customer to buy the stupid laser printer. How to sell you tell me. Mostly come here to buy is for home use and laserjet is for offices or schools. Seldom people will buy and not really sellable. But still have to keep try and try. Damn it, Yanda get a pretty nice job selling ink cartridge. No need to promote no need to waste saliva, just customer kept coming and the commission just kept pouring in.
The job is quite flexible in terms like break you can set it yourself but you wont bear to do so. When you going for break, you will straight away consider will the customer come back and find you or will there still be customer coming to buy it. By the time you finish considering, the rice has turn cold, the fries is so soft, the tofu turns bad. First day the food still ok, then later day, got burger king. But is fucking beef', how can i eat. Cant help, stomach hungry have to eat. Then following day, the food turn bad lor. Sian, then last day, not enough food. But lucky manage to get a curry puff and a box of nasi lemak. Lol. Real sad.
I hope my commission will be alot. Have to persuade customer to buy is painstalking. They always use their favourite line, "i will come back later." what's this? being kind or? so stupid. if you not buying, then say not buying. Dont waste my potential got customer to buy time to wait for you to come back. But there's something worst in IT show. Is to pushing pram inside here. I dunno what's wrong with them. So squeezy still wanna bring their kids to the fair then jam the whole traffic. The job not bad, i get to know a TP student and he quite a good person. He always kept motivate me to get more customer as i tend to slack after i sell 10 sets. LOL.
Sad time.
I really get confused of what you want and what you need. I can give i already give, for those i never give enough, i already try hard to give you. Why is it not enough. Its not wrong to ask for more but.... Nvm, its hard to explain right now.
and its 5.53am. Couldnt sleep and stay up till now. Pain in my chest hurt in my heart. I am troubled i am sad. I'm so tired right now. Continue at next time.
working from 8 of march till 11 of march. Stupid IT fair. Damn no life and no good food over there. What can i say. It's free anyway. Stand from 11am onwards till 10pm. Stupid customer, so stupid till cannot read the poster say till 9pm, still mus dilly dally at the fair choosing here and there. Stand whole day, talk whole day, tired whole day. Persuade and persuade customer to buy the stupid laser printer. How to sell you tell me. Mostly come here to buy is for home use and laserjet is for offices or schools. Seldom people will buy and not really sellable. But still have to keep try and try. Damn it, Yanda get a pretty nice job selling ink cartridge. No need to promote no need to waste saliva, just customer kept coming and the commission just kept pouring in.
The job is quite flexible in terms like break you can set it yourself but you wont bear to do so. When you going for break, you will straight away consider will the customer come back and find you or will there still be customer coming to buy it. By the time you finish considering, the rice has turn cold, the fries is so soft, the tofu turns bad. First day the food still ok, then later day, got burger king. But is fucking beef', how can i eat. Cant help, stomach hungry have to eat. Then following day, the food turn bad lor. Sian, then last day, not enough food. But lucky manage to get a curry puff and a box of nasi lemak. Lol. Real sad.
I hope my commission will be alot. Have to persuade customer to buy is painstalking. They always use their favourite line, "i will come back later." what's this? being kind or? so stupid. if you not buying, then say not buying. Dont waste my potential got customer to buy time to wait for you to come back. But there's something worst in IT show. Is to pushing pram inside here. I dunno what's wrong with them. So squeezy still wanna bring their kids to the fair then jam the whole traffic. The job not bad, i get to know a TP student and he quite a good person. He always kept motivate me to get more customer as i tend to slack after i sell 10 sets. LOL.
Sad time.
I really get confused of what you want and what you need. I can give i already give, for those i never give enough, i already try hard to give you. Why is it not enough. Its not wrong to ask for more but.... Nvm, its hard to explain right now.
and its 5.53am. Couldnt sleep and stay up till now. Pain in my chest hurt in my heart. I am troubled i am sad. I'm so tired right now. Continue at next time.
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
Blame.
Who should be blame? A person that started and causing the trouble. Or should be a person that love to nag and nag and comment 'bout someone's action. Or should be a disrespectful and treated someone badly? Who's at fault? I dont know the answer 'cause it just leads 1 thing to another.
Anyway, being selfish is the worst thing in the world that a person should do. All you care is about yourself. And all the people living in this world have to abide your orders just the way you like it. I hate that. I hate to be living in the world of rules. I rather it should be bending the rules according to the situation. Some people just dont understand that due to the situation, what's the best choice. This is what selfish people are, they wont put themselves in your shoes and just blaming you for what you have done. BULLSHIT DICKHEADS.
Well, here's the reply for the complaint letter i wrote. Thanks to OrgCom. It did helps me in my life.
Our Ref:
2007/Feb/0681
Toll-free:
1800-287 2727
Mainline:
6284-8866
Fax:
6282-5204
Website:
6 March 2007
Mr Eugene Tan
Dear Mr Tan
Please refer to your feedback regarding Service 34.
2 We are sorry to learn of the inconvenience caused while waiting for this service.
3 The Manager has noted your concern on the frequency of the service and is monitoring the situation closely. Rest assured that, where it is within our control, we will ensure that buses arrive at regular intervals.
4 Bus captains have also been reminded to try their best to adhere strictly to their time schedules to ensure service reliability.
5 Thank you for your feedback.
Yours sincerely
Andrew Tan
for Deputy Director
Corporate Communications
SBS Transit Ltd
Who should be blame? A person that started and causing the trouble. Or should be a person that love to nag and nag and comment 'bout someone's action. Or should be a disrespectful and treated someone badly? Who's at fault? I dont know the answer 'cause it just leads 1 thing to another.
Anyway, being selfish is the worst thing in the world that a person should do. All you care is about yourself. And all the people living in this world have to abide your orders just the way you like it. I hate that. I hate to be living in the world of rules. I rather it should be bending the rules according to the situation. Some people just dont understand that due to the situation, what's the best choice. This is what selfish people are, they wont put themselves in your shoes and just blaming you for what you have done. BULLSHIT DICKHEADS.
Well, here's the reply for the complaint letter i wrote. Thanks to OrgCom. It did helps me in my life.
Our Ref:
2007/Feb/0681
Toll-free:
1800-287 2727
Mainline:
6284-8866
Fax:
6282-5204
Website:
6 March 2007
Mr Eugene Tan
Dear Mr Tan
Please refer to your feedback regarding Service 34.
2 We are sorry to learn of the inconvenience caused while waiting for this service.
3 The Manager has noted your concern on the frequency of the service and is monitoring the situation closely. Rest assured that, where it is within our control, we will ensure that buses arrive at regular intervals.
4 Bus captains have also been reminded to try their best to adhere strictly to their time schedules to ensure service reliability.
5 Thank you for your feedback.
Yours sincerely
Andrew Tan
for Deputy Director
Corporate Communications
SBS Transit Ltd
Sunday, March 04, 2007
Bitter Taste.
First post of new skin.
Doesnt know if its gd to have a gd start or bad start.. Whatever..
Sometimes, a person can change a life of 3. Yes, i am saying my papa. Due to some reason, my ah ma have to sell her flat and move over here with us. Well, he gain most of the advantages but not us. This is bullshit. I never feel how life is so rotten to be staying home and face endless nags or complains. Its just keep bothering me. You may say that, hey, she's old and you should give in. I tell you that i already give up long ago. So 1 came in, 2 headache. My mama, well, she's couldnt take it anymore. Wars have been raging since the day my ah ma came in. So, im the hostage. One of them pull me in, i have no choice but to give up. I have no weapons (which is money cus now i have to study) so that's not my war. And my papa, well, he dont even care. As long as staying out late and came back sleep. that's all. How a simple life. I now trying to get a job to escape this house as long as i can. My freedom has turn to ash in a blink of an eye.
Isnt love is accepting the past of someone. Why is it so hard for my gf to give up saying 'bout my past. I admit i made alot of wrong judgements, mistakes, moves, but right now, i am true to her. Isnt that enough? I really hate it when i heard that my past matter to her i mean, that's the past right. Look, before we get together, we have freedom of choices. You can swear that you choose me when you start know me? No right. You was actually indulge in another guy. But me, i jus dunno whether i should carry on or what. I know in between the duration, i did make a dick out of myself but what's done is done and it doesnt matter anymore. Cus right now, you with me, i with you, nothing gonna tore us apart. I am sorry as i undergoing a huge change in my lifestyle and my mood will be shaky as i havent adapt to it. Forgive me for this few days. After i get a job, i guess things will go much smoother.
How to save my life?
Doesnt know if its gd to have a gd start or bad start.. Whatever..
Sometimes, a person can change a life of 3. Yes, i am saying my papa. Due to some reason, my ah ma have to sell her flat and move over here with us. Well, he gain most of the advantages but not us. This is bullshit. I never feel how life is so rotten to be staying home and face endless nags or complains. Its just keep bothering me. You may say that, hey, she's old and you should give in. I tell you that i already give up long ago. So 1 came in, 2 headache. My mama, well, she's couldnt take it anymore. Wars have been raging since the day my ah ma came in. So, im the hostage. One of them pull me in, i have no choice but to give up. I have no weapons (which is money cus now i have to study) so that's not my war. And my papa, well, he dont even care. As long as staying out late and came back sleep. that's all. How a simple life. I now trying to get a job to escape this house as long as i can. My freedom has turn to ash in a blink of an eye.
Isnt love is accepting the past of someone. Why is it so hard for my gf to give up saying 'bout my past. I admit i made alot of wrong judgements, mistakes, moves, but right now, i am true to her. Isnt that enough? I really hate it when i heard that my past matter to her i mean, that's the past right. Look, before we get together, we have freedom of choices. You can swear that you choose me when you start know me? No right. You was actually indulge in another guy. But me, i jus dunno whether i should carry on or what. I know in between the duration, i did make a dick out of myself but what's done is done and it doesnt matter anymore. Cus right now, you with me, i with you, nothing gonna tore us apart. I am sorry as i undergoing a huge change in my lifestyle and my mood will be shaky as i havent adapt to it. Forgive me for this few days. After i get a job, i guess things will go much smoother.
How to save my life?
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