Re-vised.

just finish reading a post that cast a avalanche in my heart. what the hell. why past cant be buried and burn away? Does it really have to follow u to the rest of ur life? everybody have past, who dont? dont u have one too? the one u really love, those that love u? should i be compare to them too? I tried not to talk about it but what's the point of discover and "oh everybody is unhappy". Sometimes things that u have seen is not what u think. Onlookers will only have the cover of the situation and cover are always nice. and people change thru experience.

i used to be a consultant. People come to me problems, i will swee swee help them solve it. Any problems in this world, i can solve, i can console, i can do lots of things. But sometimes, life changes. I start to notice i cant solve my problem myself, its terrible. I start to cry, i start to learn to look things pessimistic. WHY? i fail, my family members fail, my love life fail, my frens fail too. i change, i admit i change. i change to disappoint ppl rather than i get disappointed, i rather do hurtful things before they can do it to me. i start to build tis kind of actions and its not something i can control. all the while i have not met a person like u.

the person like u i cherish. the person like u i adore so much. but it really hurts when u say y my past gets more than u why my past gets better than u. the fact is it did not happen. as i say onlookers may have only see the outlook of it, what's inside, is not said. u must understand me too, as my experiences is different from urs. u must understand i will do things somehow different of what u expected. but i already working hard to it. i really do. u mite not see it cus i dont do things infront of ppl, i do it silently. im not those tt like to get praise neither do i like critise. u may find me in different in last time, whatever is good or bad, its me. people change from time to time and im really changing myself to adapt this relationship.

you should have trust me. you should have see me working hard. please dont be sad. i dont like you to be tt way. i really working hard, when u say not enough i work again. but doesnt i should deserve a break for working so hard? sometimes u also have to treat me the way i should be treated. u should learn how to spare thots of me too. both of us have to work hard to build this relationship. we all have faults, u also always ask me wat u should do or wat. isnt tt not sincere already? there's somethings u should change too, just like me. we both have a part to play.

if u said that she's irreplacable, who i am holding hands with?

(please dont say things kind of hurtful things when im only true to u)

what's more than those times we have in the present. the fact is i love u forever and ever 1 and only. remember that. and i really wanna make u enjoy in this relationship. believe me ok?

love is not measure by weighing machine.
love is not measure by a ruler.
love is not measure by comparison.
love is measure by how truth i am to u.

and i can swear, i love u and give a lots more than what i did in the past.