EscapE.
Couldnt wake up. Feeling so heavy and kept fall back to sleep. Finally woke up and its already late. But i still can make it, then its just that the feeling is so sian. Probably is the aftermath of yesterday. Nobody to blame but me. My heart or should i say i dont have a heart. I am heartless. Yea, tt's what i am. Sad to say sad to talk. Sad to do anything. Sad to the extreme sad to the merisable. Never expected that i fail as what i am in your eyes. I still thought that i am a guy that you always say you could hang on to, but i realise all those praises are lies. I really never going to be what i am i meant to be. Failures overcome my success and that just make me a loser of lovers. What the fuck have i become, sometimes i surprised myself.
Why must you compare
do you really think its unfair?
How can love be fare
i am hurt, do you really care?
Monday, February 12, 2007
Sunday, February 11, 2007
Re-vised.
just finish reading a post that cast a avalanche in my heart. what the hell. why past cant be buried and burn away? Does it really have to follow u to the rest of ur life? everybody have past, who dont? dont u have one too? the one u really love, those that love u? should i be compare to them too? I tried not to talk about it but what's the point of discover and "oh everybody is unhappy". Sometimes things that u have seen is not what u think. Onlookers will only have the cover of the situation and cover are always nice. and people change thru experience.
i used to be a consultant. People come to me problems, i will swee swee help them solve it. Any problems in this world, i can solve, i can console, i can do lots of things. But sometimes, life changes. I start to notice i cant solve my problem myself, its terrible. I start to cry, i start to learn to look things pessimistic. WHY? i fail, my family members fail, my love life fail, my frens fail too. i change, i admit i change. i change to disappoint ppl rather than i get disappointed, i rather do hurtful things before they can do it to me. i start to build tis kind of actions and its not something i can control. all the while i have not met a person like u.
the person like u i cherish. the person like u i adore so much. but it really hurts when u say y my past gets more than u why my past gets better than u. the fact is it did not happen. as i say onlookers may have only see the outlook of it, what's inside, is not said. u must understand me too, as my experiences is different from urs. u must understand i will do things somehow different of what u expected. but i already working hard to it. i really do. u mite not see it cus i dont do things infront of ppl, i do it silently. im not those tt like to get praise neither do i like critise. u may find me in different in last time, whatever is good or bad, its me. people change from time to time and im really changing myself to adapt this relationship.
you should have trust me. you should have see me working hard. please dont be sad. i dont like you to be tt way. i really working hard, when u say not enough i work again. but doesnt i should deserve a break for working so hard? sometimes u also have to treat me the way i should be treated. u should learn how to spare thots of me too. both of us have to work hard to build this relationship. we all have faults, u also always ask me wat u should do or wat. isnt tt not sincere already? there's somethings u should change too, just like me. we both have a part to play.
what's more than those times we have in the present. the fact is i love u forever and ever 1 and only. remember that. and i really wanna make u enjoy in this relationship. believe me ok?
love is not measure by weighing machine.
love is not measure by a ruler.
love is not measure by comparison.
love is measure by how truth i am to u.
and i can swear, i love u and give a lots more than what i did in the past.
just finish reading a post that cast a avalanche in my heart. what the hell. why past cant be buried and burn away? Does it really have to follow u to the rest of ur life? everybody have past, who dont? dont u have one too? the one u really love, those that love u? should i be compare to them too? I tried not to talk about it but what's the point of discover and "oh everybody is unhappy". Sometimes things that u have seen is not what u think. Onlookers will only have the cover of the situation and cover are always nice. and people change thru experience.
i used to be a consultant. People come to me problems, i will swee swee help them solve it. Any problems in this world, i can solve, i can console, i can do lots of things. But sometimes, life changes. I start to notice i cant solve my problem myself, its terrible. I start to cry, i start to learn to look things pessimistic. WHY? i fail, my family members fail, my love life fail, my frens fail too. i change, i admit i change. i change to disappoint ppl rather than i get disappointed, i rather do hurtful things before they can do it to me. i start to build tis kind of actions and its not something i can control. all the while i have not met a person like u.
the person like u i cherish. the person like u i adore so much. but it really hurts when u say y my past gets more than u why my past gets better than u. the fact is it did not happen. as i say onlookers may have only see the outlook of it, what's inside, is not said. u must understand me too, as my experiences is different from urs. u must understand i will do things somehow different of what u expected. but i already working hard to it. i really do. u mite not see it cus i dont do things infront of ppl, i do it silently. im not those tt like to get praise neither do i like critise. u may find me in different in last time, whatever is good or bad, its me. people change from time to time and im really changing myself to adapt this relationship.
you should have trust me. you should have see me working hard. please dont be sad. i dont like you to be tt way. i really working hard, when u say not enough i work again. but doesnt i should deserve a break for working so hard? sometimes u also have to treat me the way i should be treated. u should learn how to spare thots of me too. both of us have to work hard to build this relationship. we all have faults, u also always ask me wat u should do or wat. isnt tt not sincere already? there's somethings u should change too, just like me. we both have a part to play.
if u said that she's irreplacable, who i am holding hands with?
(please dont say things kind of hurtful things when im only true to u)
what's more than those times we have in the present. the fact is i love u forever and ever 1 and only. remember that. and i really wanna make u enjoy in this relationship. believe me ok?
love is not measure by weighing machine.
love is not measure by a ruler.
love is not measure by comparison.
love is measure by how truth i am to u.
and i can swear, i love u and give a lots more than what i did in the past.
Thursday, February 08, 2007
Today is a really damn lousy day.
I went to school for pizza only and this is so bloody gian beng attitude. I intend to go lecture but this bus 34 wasted my time and delay my time to school. so i already write up a feedback form to the sbs n hope i could get a reply soon or change the frequency of the bus. and 27 really sucks ok.. forever n ever alot of people..
this is my feedback.
"I am a poly student from temasek that live in the Punggol area. Due to the limitations of the buses, i have to rely on the bus 34 as it is the fastest and only way to tampines where i can conveniently change buses. But today, 07/02/2007,at around 9.55 am i have to wait for over 30 minutes for the bus to arrive till i gave up and went to sengkang to took bus 27 to school. This is not the first time as there was a day i waited for over 1 hours for the bus to came to tampines so i can reach home. The frequency of the bus 34 is really important to me as it matters the attendance of my course. I really hope that this matter will be taken seriously as i noticed a few students have been experienced the same situation. Thank you. "
i know i should write a lot of students.. shit.. but i hope it still can have power.. hahahaha..
sometimes we should set a gd example. i love you so so much dear.. i hope u will stop saying u learn from me, i really hated it.. i feel sad.. and i know i need some anger management and i hope u know that it needs time.. but whatever it is, i still love u forever n ever never change.. stop saying my blog is not updated.. is i cant do so ok?
Fake shark-fin soup
attract cat to the stool
run away and enjoy it with the spoon
asking where is the new yr goodies by a fool.
THAT'S THE LIFE AT HOUGANG.
I went to school for pizza only and this is so bloody gian beng attitude. I intend to go lecture but this bus 34 wasted my time and delay my time to school. so i already write up a feedback form to the sbs n hope i could get a reply soon or change the frequency of the bus. and 27 really sucks ok.. forever n ever alot of people..
this is my feedback.
"I am a poly student from temasek that live in the Punggol area. Due to the limitations of the buses, i have to rely on the bus 34 as it is the fastest and only way to tampines where i can conveniently change buses. But today, 07/02/2007,at around 9.55 am i have to wait for over 30 minutes for the bus to arrive till i gave up and went to sengkang to took bus 27 to school. This is not the first time as there was a day i waited for over 1 hours for the bus to came to tampines so i can reach home. The frequency of the bus 34 is really important to me as it matters the attendance of my course. I really hope that this matter will be taken seriously as i noticed a few students have been experienced the same situation. Thank you. "
i know i should write a lot of students.. shit.. but i hope it still can have power.. hahahaha..
sometimes we should set a gd example. i love you so so much dear.. i hope u will stop saying u learn from me, i really hated it.. i feel sad.. and i know i need some anger management and i hope u know that it needs time.. but whatever it is, i still love u forever n ever never change.. stop saying my blog is not updated.. is i cant do so ok?
Fake shark-fin soup
attract cat to the stool
run away and enjoy it with the spoon
asking where is the new yr goodies by a fool.
THAT'S THE LIFE AT HOUGANG.
Friday, February 02, 2007
Today,
what should i say or shouldnt i say anything. Just something i said will turn out to be tradegy.
Maybe i am a guy that always expect things. Expect that you will know, expect that things will turn out to be easy. but i am wrong. I am sorry william, that i did not told you all the tips that i heard from my friends.
I am sorry dear.. but i dint know how trust can be so fragile.. dont u always say trust u? y cant you trust me? sometimes i really dont understand y u can do all the things but i cant. u said u can be trustworthy, but can i be it too? if u say i dint told u they were coming, but shouldnt u hear my side of explanations? sometimes u with other guys, but dint tell me.. when i saw, yes, i feel bit unhappy, but after awhile i dint even wanna confront u. that time i saw u and ur frens and kenneth.. did u tell me bout it? u do project with a guy, did u ever tell me bout it? i already trust u, cant u do it vice versa. i seldom meet any girls, i seldom even go out with them. i hope u really would understand. it mean nothing at all.
it all's come in a sudden
i am stick with a bad omen.
what should i say or shouldnt i say anything. Just something i said will turn out to be tradegy.
Maybe i am a guy that always expect things. Expect that you will know, expect that things will turn out to be easy. but i am wrong. I am sorry william, that i did not told you all the tips that i heard from my friends.
I am sorry dear.. but i dint know how trust can be so fragile.. dont u always say trust u? y cant you trust me? sometimes i really dont understand y u can do all the things but i cant. u said u can be trustworthy, but can i be it too? if u say i dint told u they were coming, but shouldnt u hear my side of explanations? sometimes u with other guys, but dint tell me.. when i saw, yes, i feel bit unhappy, but after awhile i dint even wanna confront u. that time i saw u and ur frens and kenneth.. did u tell me bout it? u do project with a guy, did u ever tell me bout it? i already trust u, cant u do it vice versa. i seldom meet any girls, i seldom even go out with them. i hope u really would understand. it mean nothing at all.
it all's come in a sudden
i am stick with a bad omen.
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