I Hate You. Why you such an asshole. ZZZZZ.
I feel like playing you out. Ahh, act like an asshole.
Thursday, November 29, 2007
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
DAY THAT RUIN MY DAY
Let me curse the hell of somebody first.
Fuck you piece of shit. Although I am not in your class, what the fuck you gave me this marks for? Why am i doing that much you give me this much. You fucking blind or you just fucking kidding me?
I saw it and feel that what the fuck. It sucks. All the overnight shit i have been through, worth only a fucking few marks. Fuck off. It sucks, It really do. I was depleted. I feel that what i have done seems to get me nowhere. Ah, I was still worry for someone else and in fact, i get the lowest. Fuck those shits that love to care for themselves. Fuck those people that trying to win by stepping over people. Fuck those people that did a few get a bundle. Fuck you all, Please go and die. I am not happy at all, NO.
AHhhhhh, sucks..
What's next, Quarrel. Why? 5cents. Why? You never even care about me. I sleep 3hrs, I carry those heavy stuff, i help you do everything that you need, all i get is saying i cant bring the bag up for you to take things? My hand has completely tired out and it's so pain. All the things i sacrifice i get nothing. I know i shouldn't be angry, but i couldn't control it. The tired the pain the shaky hands that nearly drop my laptop, i really can't take it.
Today is nothing day for Me. What i did equals ZERO. Yes, zero day for me too. Its ok. What's the use of crying over spill milk. Get over it and show the world that "Hey, Fuck you assholes that trying to steal the limelight".
I just wanna get HEARD.
Will you Dear, spend sometime to see what i been through and hug me tightly?
Fuck you piece of shit. Although I am not in your class, what the fuck you gave me this marks for? Why am i doing that much you give me this much. You fucking blind or you just fucking kidding me?
I saw it and feel that what the fuck. It sucks. All the overnight shit i have been through, worth only a fucking few marks. Fuck off. It sucks, It really do. I was depleted. I feel that what i have done seems to get me nowhere. Ah, I was still worry for someone else and in fact, i get the lowest. Fuck those shits that love to care for themselves. Fuck those people that trying to win by stepping over people. Fuck those people that did a few get a bundle. Fuck you all, Please go and die. I am not happy at all, NO.
AHhhhhh, sucks..
What's next, Quarrel. Why? 5cents. Why? You never even care about me. I sleep 3hrs, I carry those heavy stuff, i help you do everything that you need, all i get is saying i cant bring the bag up for you to take things? My hand has completely tired out and it's so pain. All the things i sacrifice i get nothing. I know i shouldn't be angry, but i couldn't control it. The tired the pain the shaky hands that nearly drop my laptop, i really can't take it.
Today is nothing day for Me. What i did equals ZERO. Yes, zero day for me too. Its ok. What's the use of crying over spill milk. Get over it and show the world that "Hey, Fuck you assholes that trying to steal the limelight".
I just wanna get HEARD.
Will you Dear, spend sometime to see what i been through and hug me tightly?
Thursday, November 08, 2007
Silence.
Just got scolded. Always have the scold me when he does not even take a look at himself.
Suddenly my hard disk can't work, think back of what i did, sad. But now, its ok. Think its virus or whatever.
Now my dear suddenly say think back incident, nothing to say.
Actually, today went out quite well at the start. But don't understand why must it end up this way.
Somebody late and keep so quiet. When I'm late, its so different. Went to eat long john silver, not bad. Got what, all new clam chowder. And this stall serves crumbs. Wow. But regret as further down it will explain why. Went to cathay starbucks, full house. Go down to the basement, saw shi lin. LOL, somebody regret to be full. So went to starbucks to check again, still full. No choice, when to see TCC at Dohby Ghuat, not PS. Inside is full, we need to go in for the sockets as my laptop battery sucks, only 2hours. Ok, went to starbucks at ps, full too. Then didn't know why, went to PS for. Then came back to TCC and saw a table free. Ok, quite heng, but too bad no socket. But luckily, there's another table that have socket and free.
Ok, so move to this table and the waiter so lousy. Bad service, called him and he just walk away. Ok, then went there order drinks. Somebody order what sea of passion, I think its nice, she think it sucks. Then do our work and there's this table have nice smell of spagetti. LOL. She's interested. Then they keep seduce our hunger by call another plate and this mother order super small coffee drink. LOL. Ok, we can't take it. We check out the price, it's not really worth it. So we order some fried seafood. Calamari was nice. Then we do our work again and we really wanna try the spagetti. It was nice with lemon and the scallop was disappointing. And we were full and this makes us regret the long john earlier. LOL.
Ok, home liao. See this stupid uncle, pick up cans also need to attitude. Then this couple keep play with the cans. LOL. Ok, lucky got eye for an guy 2 on the way go home. Keep watch and didn't wanna sleep. Then wait till hougang liao then start to sleep. LOL, then sleep all the way till somebody call me to wake up at interchange. Then quickly run to take 136. I chase and reached liao. The driver close the door and drove. Then he stop when he saw me. But i still curse him for not driving away cause i will take 62 as it comes right after i board 136. Asshole, need to walk further. But never mind, napfa is coming soon.
We may fail in some ways,
But we may win with many ways.
Suddenly my hard disk can't work, think back of what i did, sad. But now, its ok. Think its virus or whatever.
Now my dear suddenly say think back incident, nothing to say.
Actually, today went out quite well at the start. But don't understand why must it end up this way.
Somebody late and keep so quiet. When I'm late, its so different. Went to eat long john silver, not bad. Got what, all new clam chowder. And this stall serves crumbs. Wow. But regret as further down it will explain why. Went to cathay starbucks, full house. Go down to the basement, saw shi lin. LOL, somebody regret to be full. So went to starbucks to check again, still full. No choice, when to see TCC at Dohby Ghuat, not PS. Inside is full, we need to go in for the sockets as my laptop battery sucks, only 2hours. Ok, went to starbucks at ps, full too. Then didn't know why, went to PS for. Then came back to TCC and saw a table free. Ok, quite heng, but too bad no socket. But luckily, there's another table that have socket and free.
Ok, so move to this table and the waiter so lousy. Bad service, called him and he just walk away. Ok, then went there order drinks. Somebody order what sea of passion, I think its nice, she think it sucks. Then do our work and there's this table have nice smell of spagetti. LOL. She's interested. Then they keep seduce our hunger by call another plate and this mother order super small coffee drink. LOL. Ok, we can't take it. We check out the price, it's not really worth it. So we order some fried seafood. Calamari was nice. Then we do our work again and we really wanna try the spagetti. It was nice with lemon and the scallop was disappointing. And we were full and this makes us regret the long john earlier. LOL.
Ok, home liao. See this stupid uncle, pick up cans also need to attitude. Then this couple keep play with the cans. LOL. Ok, lucky got eye for an guy 2 on the way go home. Keep watch and didn't wanna sleep. Then wait till hougang liao then start to sleep. LOL, then sleep all the way till somebody call me to wake up at interchange. Then quickly run to take 136. I chase and reached liao. The driver close the door and drove. Then he stop when he saw me. But i still curse him for not driving away cause i will take 62 as it comes right after i board 136. Asshole, need to walk further. But never mind, napfa is coming soon.
We may fail in some ways,
But we may win with many ways.
Monday, October 29, 2007
Ha. Blog.
Couldnt really sleep back. 2 more hours i have to be someone alarm clock.
Sat on it.
I was super early at amk. I forget it was 1.45. i got about 30mins to spare. so i draw money 2 times. and spend it 1 time. pro. make way to my house and realise that chomp chomp have thai express. eat alot, got cheated by some bbq seafood shit. Fucking hell, not the same as the picture. Went over to my house. She sleeping i watching tv. Rush to the suntec, play few rounds of cooking master and photohunt.
I was quite angry with myself as i waste lots of time going home to take specs. And i tend to get irritate that i am very late. I am sorry that i let my anger out of control dear. Anyway, the chalet was a mess. First, the cab driver joker, then william another joker, 1 tell me this another tell me that. Fuck la. Drive me to golf club when i going chalet. When over, can't even saw 33, have to walk in abit. Thought i was lost. I saw william outside but i cant confirm as there are a huge group gather inside the living room. What the hell, all the relatives of his came and stay overnite. Wa, boring. When up, wa, all eat like. Only left me, teck sun and kah meng hungry.
So kah meng is the chef of the day. HO, then william forget to borrow bikes, then lip chung was so pissed and he ran off alone to the beach. Dont know how. Then they went bowling which is so lousy, jeffrey pull me to play pool. Kinda let him win, but we still draw. Ok, go play ground, back to chalet again. nothing to do, sleep. Sleep at the floor lor. So sian. Then went home at 10.25.
Sun rise,
Sleep whole day. Nice.
Alone and think, about something. You are always the one i love, i feel for, i need. I hope you will to accept the apologies of a bastard that is willing to change for the good and make you happy for the rest of your life. I going to army soon i guess. I hope that i will still able to have you to make me get leave everytime in the army.
Opportunity, take and learn.
Couldnt really sleep back. 2 more hours i have to be someone alarm clock.
Sat on it.
I was super early at amk. I forget it was 1.45. i got about 30mins to spare. so i draw money 2 times. and spend it 1 time. pro. make way to my house and realise that chomp chomp have thai express. eat alot, got cheated by some bbq seafood shit. Fucking hell, not the same as the picture. Went over to my house. She sleeping i watching tv. Rush to the suntec, play few rounds of cooking master and photohunt.
I was quite angry with myself as i waste lots of time going home to take specs. And i tend to get irritate that i am very late. I am sorry that i let my anger out of control dear. Anyway, the chalet was a mess. First, the cab driver joker, then william another joker, 1 tell me this another tell me that. Fuck la. Drive me to golf club when i going chalet. When over, can't even saw 33, have to walk in abit. Thought i was lost. I saw william outside but i cant confirm as there are a huge group gather inside the living room. What the hell, all the relatives of his came and stay overnite. Wa, boring. When up, wa, all eat like. Only left me, teck sun and kah meng hungry.
So kah meng is the chef of the day. HO, then william forget to borrow bikes, then lip chung was so pissed and he ran off alone to the beach. Dont know how. Then they went bowling which is so lousy, jeffrey pull me to play pool. Kinda let him win, but we still draw. Ok, go play ground, back to chalet again. nothing to do, sleep. Sleep at the floor lor. So sian. Then went home at 10.25.
Sun rise,
Sleep whole day. Nice.
Alone and think, about something. You are always the one i love, i feel for, i need. I hope you will to accept the apologies of a bastard that is willing to change for the good and make you happy for the rest of your life. I going to army soon i guess. I hope that i will still able to have you to make me get leave everytime in the army.
Opportunity, take and learn.
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Dear Blog,
I expected it and it came truth. I dislike the feeling but what can i do? Say badly, I am the cause. So I can only blame myself. From this very moment, i wont beg for forgiveness anymore. I will make up everything and let you forgive me eventually. Its hard its tough, since I am the cause, i will have to pay.
But what can i say is I Love You Dear. This is the word that will be keep in my heart forever and ever.
Everytime I see couples around, I feel sad. I feel like i gradually tear this relationship apart. Every night, I will sure have toss and turn and hate myself for it. I try to bring this relationship back, but it seems that everytime I fail. I just cant accept the things she say to me. I told my mama, she say "Its normal for girls. So live with it." Ya, i know, cause she's also have... Anyway, ya, i live with it, no matter how pain it is for me to hear it, let it be. What's important now is her feeling, mine can wait and i can settle myself.
End. (hope its the trouble)
I expected it and it came truth. I dislike the feeling but what can i do? Say badly, I am the cause. So I can only blame myself. From this very moment, i wont beg for forgiveness anymore. I will make up everything and let you forgive me eventually. Its hard its tough, since I am the cause, i will have to pay.
But what can i say is I Love You Dear. This is the word that will be keep in my heart forever and ever.
Everytime I see couples around, I feel sad. I feel like i gradually tear this relationship apart. Every night, I will sure have toss and turn and hate myself for it. I try to bring this relationship back, but it seems that everytime I fail. I just cant accept the things she say to me. I told my mama, she say "Its normal for girls. So live with it." Ya, i know, cause she's also have... Anyway, ya, i live with it, no matter how pain it is for me to hear it, let it be. What's important now is her feeling, mine can wait and i can settle myself.
End. (hope its the trouble)
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Dear Blog,
My head is suffering from alot of pain. I am not sure that there's something happening inside. I am really not sure.
1 thing i am sure about is i love u dear.. i really love u alot dear.. my 1 and only dear, lim meiwern. i really love u.. please hear me out can? i will didnt expect this. i know i did something really wrong. i admit. i admit it, i admit i take pictures with other girl and i lie to u that i was in other place. i scared u will think otherwise tt's y i am not telling u. please dont leave me, i really holds highly on this relationship. u are really important to me than anything else. its pain to see u sad, it pains more to be the 1 causing it. i am guilty i am willing to give up anything to save this relationship. i dont really wanna end, i wanna be with u forever n ever.. i wanna grow old with u i wanna take care of u i wanna start a family with u..
i make a mistake, i broke ur heart, will u give me a chance to fix back ur heart? its a mistake, its really a stupid mistake tt i make, i dint did any unfaithful things. i really love u.. please dont leave me ok? i am sorry i dint be there for u, i really cant accept the fact that u kept reminding me of the incident. i really cant take it when i hear u kept saying it. it seems like to more u talk to me, the more u saw me, the more painful u live on. i really very sad.
i dont want this relationship to end. i true to u, i changed, u ask me to do wat i willing to do it. just dont leave me, i prepare to give u what u wat, i know i really know i will do whatever it takes to have u back in my arms and be happy tog.. i really want to make it happen.
Please forgive me please forget it. Please give me a chance. Please let me show u how i love u..
i was wrong, and i was wrong again. but this time, i wont make anymore mistakes. Not even a slight mistakes. just come back into my arms, i give u wat u need. jus forget my wrongdoings.
DEAR I NEED YOU. I CANT SPEND MY LIFE WITHOUT YOU. I CANT LIVE WITHOUT YOU.. I REALLY NEED YOU.. PLEASE TAKE A LOOK AT HOW LONG WE BEEN TOG. I REALLY LOVE YOU DEAR.. I DID MAKE A MISTAKE, LET ME FIX THE MISTAKE. PLEASE. DEAR, PLEASE.
My head is suffering from alot of pain. I am not sure that there's something happening inside. I am really not sure.
1 thing i am sure about is i love u dear.. i really love u alot dear.. my 1 and only dear, lim meiwern. i really love u.. please hear me out can? i will didnt expect this. i know i did something really wrong. i admit. i admit it, i admit i take pictures with other girl and i lie to u that i was in other place. i scared u will think otherwise tt's y i am not telling u. please dont leave me, i really holds highly on this relationship. u are really important to me than anything else. its pain to see u sad, it pains more to be the 1 causing it. i am guilty i am willing to give up anything to save this relationship. i dont really wanna end, i wanna be with u forever n ever.. i wanna grow old with u i wanna take care of u i wanna start a family with u..
i make a mistake, i broke ur heart, will u give me a chance to fix back ur heart? its a mistake, its really a stupid mistake tt i make, i dint did any unfaithful things. i really love u.. please dont leave me ok? i am sorry i dint be there for u, i really cant accept the fact that u kept reminding me of the incident. i really cant take it when i hear u kept saying it. it seems like to more u talk to me, the more u saw me, the more painful u live on. i really very sad.
i dont want this relationship to end. i true to u, i changed, u ask me to do wat i willing to do it. just dont leave me, i prepare to give u what u wat, i know i really know i will do whatever it takes to have u back in my arms and be happy tog.. i really want to make it happen.
Please forgive me please forget it. Please give me a chance. Please let me show u how i love u..
i was wrong, and i was wrong again. but this time, i wont make anymore mistakes. Not even a slight mistakes. just come back into my arms, i give u wat u need. jus forget my wrongdoings.
DEAR I NEED YOU. I CANT SPEND MY LIFE WITHOUT YOU. I CANT LIVE WITHOUT YOU.. I REALLY NEED YOU.. PLEASE TAKE A LOOK AT HOW LONG WE BEEN TOG. I REALLY LOVE YOU DEAR.. I DID MAKE A MISTAKE, LET ME FIX THE MISTAKE. PLEASE. DEAR, PLEASE.
Thursday, September 27, 2007
没意识。
I walk in the rain to hide my tears. My feelings are rather to be wash away as nobody seems to feel it anyway.
Its 7pm. Every worker in all part of singapore starts to rush home. Lucky for me, I am working at harbourfront. That's so great, as i will have seats to rest my feet from 1 end to another. Crowd after crowd filled the cubicle station after station. War will develop as space is limitted for everybody. Walkway disappear not long after a few station. There I am, happily and relieved to get a space with is not squeezy and do not need to fight bitterly to get some space to stand comfortably.
Was chatting on the phone, suddenly thought of no dinner came to my forgetful mind. I guess I take granted for my dinner to be fixed by my mama every evening. But i am glad to eat out as i can meet my dear for dinner, as I am MISSING HER ALOT. I was reaching potong pasir in a bout a minute, she was still hesistating whether to meet. I was rushing for an answer as i reached the station and the door had open. Just then she say ok and i squeeze all i can through the swarm of crowds. Yes, swarm. Everybody just stick together tightly and not even a rat can squeeze through. All i was apologizing as i squeeze through. People after people, they seems hard to understand "Excuse Me". I can't see that being polite can help me out in this situation. Just i about squeezing through and left few steps to the door, bell rang, door close, my heart sank deeply into the bottom of D (SAD).
I am sad and disappointed. I was blaming all the people that block my way, but i look at the reflection and feel i should say earlier anyway. What's more luck coming my way, i couldn't get any reception. or its the opposite. Feeling she will call me back, i wait. Wait for too long, i decided to message her as i thought maybe its not reception but her handphone battery were low like yesterday. Then she asking what happen, i told her what i experience but didn't know what i get was blaming me from not getting down. I try all i could just to know as long as you fail, you fail. There wont be 2nd chance, everybody will blame you, say you, hurt you, criticse you, won't understand how hard you put an effort to it.
I just couldn't bring myself to talk to someone that i have explain but i still get the blame. If you think i am lying, then its really no point.
NO POINT.
Its 7pm. Every worker in all part of singapore starts to rush home. Lucky for me, I am working at harbourfront. That's so great, as i will have seats to rest my feet from 1 end to another. Crowd after crowd filled the cubicle station after station. War will develop as space is limitted for everybody. Walkway disappear not long after a few station. There I am, happily and relieved to get a space with is not squeezy and do not need to fight bitterly to get some space to stand comfortably.
Was chatting on the phone, suddenly thought of no dinner came to my forgetful mind. I guess I take granted for my dinner to be fixed by my mama every evening. But i am glad to eat out as i can meet my dear for dinner, as I am MISSING HER ALOT. I was reaching potong pasir in a bout a minute, she was still hesistating whether to meet. I was rushing for an answer as i reached the station and the door had open. Just then she say ok and i squeeze all i can through the swarm of crowds. Yes, swarm. Everybody just stick together tightly and not even a rat can squeeze through. All i was apologizing as i squeeze through. People after people, they seems hard to understand "Excuse Me". I can't see that being polite can help me out in this situation. Just i about squeezing through and left few steps to the door, bell rang, door close, my heart sank deeply into the bottom of D (SAD).
I am sad and disappointed. I was blaming all the people that block my way, but i look at the reflection and feel i should say earlier anyway. What's more luck coming my way, i couldn't get any reception. or its the opposite. Feeling she will call me back, i wait. Wait for too long, i decided to message her as i thought maybe its not reception but her handphone battery were low like yesterday. Then she asking what happen, i told her what i experience but didn't know what i get was blaming me from not getting down. I try all i could just to know as long as you fail, you fail. There wont be 2nd chance, everybody will blame you, say you, hurt you, criticse you, won't understand how hard you put an effort to it.
I just couldn't bring myself to talk to someone that i have explain but i still get the blame. If you think i am lying, then its really no point.
NO POINT.
Sunday, September 09, 2007
HarbourFront Holiday.
Today is the last day of my freedom. I will be again tied down to a job. A job that is kinda serious and i need it very much. All you going to see me will be long sleeves shirt and black pants black shoe and maybe those clothes i have worn a numerous of times. LOL. I am not sure whether i am up to this job or not. Its like i am all alone in this big company and its kinda first time for me to experience this things. All my previous job were like slack around and not much need to have any contact with anyone.
This is different. I will probably stuck with a team of serious people that do serious stuff and will be kept busy. I am not sure and really nervous about this job. I think maybe this is the experience that i need to overcome fear of mixing around. But this job is quite dead i guess. Just follow what they ask me to do and sit there or move around. Also it comes with quite gd pay and i got a direct way to the place and that's the most lovable about the job. Whatever i do, i guess i wont blow away my job cause i invest quite alot on it. Although the hour is long and constrain me to do alot of things, i will try to get used and plan neatly.
Guess i wont have much time to enjoy my holidays as this job grab hold my freedom till skool starts. It also grab hold of my chances meeting my gf which i am gonna miss her every second, every minute, every hour, every day, every night.
Anyway, weekends are the best time for rest and dating. I will really capture and spend them fruitfully.
Saturday.
I know i am late. I am really lazy. Its all i can say. Ok, then went down took bus go kallang. This time meet at dark dark bus stop. Spare those walking, GREAT. LOL. Then went down to vivocity. Its not as plan and we will kept doing this forever i guess. There are 2 things in our life that we will not able to eat, Tanjong Pagar Yong Tou Fu and Golden Mile Teriyaki Chicken. LOL. Always plan to eat that, we will head down to Kim Gary to try more dishes. And i can say Kim Gary gives great food but lousy services. Especially this aunty, always went there she wear a black face mask. Then she ordered veggie rice with chicken and i order nissin noodles with pork chop. I ordered a pork chop bun and a mango juice. I have discovered that no places can sell the best mango juice anymore. All like sucks. Ok, then very nice, ultra nice, all so nice.
After meal, we walk around, saw shop small two. There got lots of ways to prepare duck, more than the menu we saw at marina square. Then we walk and this dear always wanna find tommy. Dunno why. Then first time climb down the stairs then spy him. He's not there and we head down to see my clothes. Not much, all so so expensive. Then went over to marina square. Same old same old stuff we do at 97. Secret. Then go visit the food fair. Full of people and the food there not really that nice after all. Sway sway saw my cousin. Dont understand why she like to work in exhibition. Then walk 1 round we went to the game fair at the top level. Thanks dear, she so sweet to accompany me down and see and play the simpson game. Haha. Then went back to food fair as somebody stomach hungry le lor. LOL, ate her favourite shark fin soup and my big sausage and the not nice squid. Also buy the grass jelly and mango drink. All not nice at all, lousy food fair. Then went over to bought the tapioca chips. 1 for my dear and 2 for my parents. Quite cheap. Then went to marina sqaure see my clothes then went to suntec see my clothes. In the end went back to marina square G2000 to buy my clothes. Before that we went to arcade at suntec. We are so lousy in playing cooking master. Dont know what happen.
Somebody is hungry again. Then quickly take bus to geylang to enjoy an expensive frog porridge dinner. This dear so excited to eat it. Then went to G7, i wanna order more but this dear kept stopping me. In the end we only order frog, buy 2 give 1 and spicy kang kong. All so nice. This dear, give her eat also not happy. And her stomach is hoo hooo hooo.
But i still love her so much.
Love does grow during relationship. It grows and meanwhile we start to depend more to each other. Its good as we wont neglect each other when we are busy. We just going to miss each other so much that we always find time to meet. My dear is so cute when she just say she miss me so so much and cant see me often. I like the face and her innocent upset face. She also give me the strength to work hard, find job to feed her also i get to earn some money. If not, i will be staying at home cause i'll have enough to spend for myself.
I really love her so so much. I will miss her alot during my work. I'll always cherish every saturday as its the only day i can discover happiness and love together in this cute girl of mine.
I love you dear, i am sorry if i cant meet you always, i promise u i will find time for you and earn lots of money to give you good life.
This is different. I will probably stuck with a team of serious people that do serious stuff and will be kept busy. I am not sure and really nervous about this job. I think maybe this is the experience that i need to overcome fear of mixing around. But this job is quite dead i guess. Just follow what they ask me to do and sit there or move around. Also it comes with quite gd pay and i got a direct way to the place and that's the most lovable about the job. Whatever i do, i guess i wont blow away my job cause i invest quite alot on it. Although the hour is long and constrain me to do alot of things, i will try to get used and plan neatly.
Guess i wont have much time to enjoy my holidays as this job grab hold my freedom till skool starts. It also grab hold of my chances meeting my gf which i am gonna miss her every second, every minute, every hour, every day, every night.
Anyway, weekends are the best time for rest and dating. I will really capture and spend them fruitfully.
Saturday.
I know i am late. I am really lazy. Its all i can say. Ok, then went down took bus go kallang. This time meet at dark dark bus stop. Spare those walking, GREAT. LOL. Then went down to vivocity. Its not as plan and we will kept doing this forever i guess. There are 2 things in our life that we will not able to eat, Tanjong Pagar Yong Tou Fu and Golden Mile Teriyaki Chicken. LOL. Always plan to eat that, we will head down to Kim Gary to try more dishes. And i can say Kim Gary gives great food but lousy services. Especially this aunty, always went there she wear a black face mask. Then she ordered veggie rice with chicken and i order nissin noodles with pork chop. I ordered a pork chop bun and a mango juice. I have discovered that no places can sell the best mango juice anymore. All like sucks. Ok, then very nice, ultra nice, all so nice.
After meal, we walk around, saw shop small two. There got lots of ways to prepare duck, more than the menu we saw at marina square. Then we walk and this dear always wanna find tommy. Dunno why. Then first time climb down the stairs then spy him. He's not there and we head down to see my clothes. Not much, all so so expensive. Then went over to marina square. Same old same old stuff we do at 97. Secret. Then go visit the food fair. Full of people and the food there not really that nice after all. Sway sway saw my cousin. Dont understand why she like to work in exhibition. Then walk 1 round we went to the game fair at the top level. Thanks dear, she so sweet to accompany me down and see and play the simpson game. Haha. Then went back to food fair as somebody stomach hungry le lor. LOL, ate her favourite shark fin soup and my big sausage and the not nice squid. Also buy the grass jelly and mango drink. All not nice at all, lousy food fair. Then went over to bought the tapioca chips. 1 for my dear and 2 for my parents. Quite cheap. Then went to marina sqaure see my clothes then went to suntec see my clothes. In the end went back to marina square G2000 to buy my clothes. Before that we went to arcade at suntec. We are so lousy in playing cooking master. Dont know what happen.
Somebody is hungry again. Then quickly take bus to geylang to enjoy an expensive frog porridge dinner. This dear so excited to eat it. Then went to G7, i wanna order more but this dear kept stopping me. In the end we only order frog, buy 2 give 1 and spicy kang kong. All so nice. This dear, give her eat also not happy. And her stomach is hoo hooo hooo.
But i still love her so much.
Love does grow during relationship. It grows and meanwhile we start to depend more to each other. Its good as we wont neglect each other when we are busy. We just going to miss each other so much that we always find time to meet. My dear is so cute when she just say she miss me so so much and cant see me often. I like the face and her innocent upset face. She also give me the strength to work hard, find job to feed her also i get to earn some money. If not, i will be staying at home cause i'll have enough to spend for myself.
I really love her so so much. I will miss her alot during my work. I'll always cherish every saturday as its the only day i can discover happiness and love together in this cute girl of mine.
I love you dear, i am sorry if i cant meet you always, i promise u i will find time for you and earn lots of money to give you good life.
Sunday, August 05, 2007
Saturday.
Wake up and saw my dear call me. Was expecting her sms early at the morning but never so continue to sleep till late. Damn tired and dont know why kept stomach pain for this few days. Strange. Then call her back and quickly prepare to meet her afterwards. She havent ready yet, still go up her house, press so many bells, knock so many times on the door then she open. Thinking of going to watch some shows, i take off my lousy shoe that is so hard to wear then she say time to go. So walk along the coffeeshop, then suddenly she like walk so fast dont care me. Although she do that most of the time but this seems different, then know her who still work there.
Went to search for the golden mile food centre, its the same place that we used to eat fried kway teow. But never notice or know there sell such a great japanese food. wow. But late meet, late went there, the queue was like dragon. Ok, then continue eat our kway teow. Always dont let me eat the hum.
Went to plaza singapura cause she promise me to watch the simpson. Then tickets sold out left only 4.40 so went over to cathay see there have anot. But along our way to the booth, stuck at the television watching neopets cartoon. LOL. In the end cathay start at 5 too, did i mention m1 sucks? So bullshit, wanna check the cathay also dont have. So we went to marina square, as usual not surprise. Buy tickets go arcade, check out some people playing those eat money kinda machine. Kept so close of getting but only get cheated in the end. Saw kids kinda pro playing house of dead 4.
Then something struck her mind, say wanna go play cooking master. LOL. Then we suddenly thought of making reservation at dian xiao er. So we go and saw all the staff except 1 is sleeping. Actually i wanna talk to him in chinese but at that time i really forget how to say everything in chinese. So i just talk to him in english and he reply me all in chinese. LOL. Then say what no reservation only get the first priority. Then got 1 thing more funny, this dear, forget we are at marina square still say go what marina square to book dian xiao er. Then went to suntec and feel like out of time so go watch abit of WCG dota. Then saw the new samsung f500 really got free wu jian dao. LOL. Then we went back to GV to queue up for the mouth watering saliving nachos from golden village. The best nachos in the world. If you say there's other place, i dont really care, i just like there.
Didnt know such a cock movie also can full house. I was pretty shocked. Lots of commercial till we finish our nachos. Then the movie is so funny, laughing all the way. The most funniest movie ever and dont know who still say not worth it and not nice. LOL, then in the movie laugh the loudest is her. LOL. Dine at dian xiao er, everything was nice but the dong po rou taste funny. Must really thanks my dear for treating me the dinner. Thanks her so much. I love you dear. Then went to complete our cooking master, saw a lot of people got cheated at happy lifter which we already quit then saw a guy kept winning and play till so slowly. I went up to challenge him and he lose he still choose the same character as mine. Please, dont so copy can, not creative. And the most important point is, he still lost. But his friend quite pro in the catus guy. Then i play till smoothly got a guy challenge me again. And same thing, i win him. My team is god so waste money to challenge only. Then i turn back see him, his face is quite tulan. Then i at 5th lor, so bullshit. I always first leh.
Then sent her home, took cab cause stomach pain again then reach home, sleep. THE END.
Things start to change after the day. I really didnt know what happen. I am sorry for my wrong. But you seems to... *sigh, let's leave everything behind.
I love you forever and ever 1 and only lao puo da ren dear. No matter what happen, i still love you always.
escape is fun with her and she so pro in go kart. she beat me everytime :)
Wake up and saw my dear call me. Was expecting her sms early at the morning but never so continue to sleep till late. Damn tired and dont know why kept stomach pain for this few days. Strange. Then call her back and quickly prepare to meet her afterwards. She havent ready yet, still go up her house, press so many bells, knock so many times on the door then she open. Thinking of going to watch some shows, i take off my lousy shoe that is so hard to wear then she say time to go. So walk along the coffeeshop, then suddenly she like walk so fast dont care me. Although she do that most of the time but this seems different, then know her who still work there.
Went to search for the golden mile food centre, its the same place that we used to eat fried kway teow. But never notice or know there sell such a great japanese food. wow. But late meet, late went there, the queue was like dragon. Ok, then continue eat our kway teow. Always dont let me eat the hum.
Went to plaza singapura cause she promise me to watch the simpson. Then tickets sold out left only 4.40 so went over to cathay see there have anot. But along our way to the booth, stuck at the television watching neopets cartoon. LOL. In the end cathay start at 5 too, did i mention m1 sucks? So bullshit, wanna check the cathay also dont have. So we went to marina square, as usual not surprise. Buy tickets go arcade, check out some people playing those eat money kinda machine. Kept so close of getting but only get cheated in the end. Saw kids kinda pro playing house of dead 4.
Then something struck her mind, say wanna go play cooking master. LOL. Then we suddenly thought of making reservation at dian xiao er. So we go and saw all the staff except 1 is sleeping. Actually i wanna talk to him in chinese but at that time i really forget how to say everything in chinese. So i just talk to him in english and he reply me all in chinese. LOL. Then say what no reservation only get the first priority. Then got 1 thing more funny, this dear, forget we are at marina square still say go what marina square to book dian xiao er. Then went to suntec and feel like out of time so go watch abit of WCG dota. Then saw the new samsung f500 really got free wu jian dao. LOL. Then we went back to GV to queue up for the mouth watering saliving nachos from golden village. The best nachos in the world. If you say there's other place, i dont really care, i just like there.
Didnt know such a cock movie also can full house. I was pretty shocked. Lots of commercial till we finish our nachos. Then the movie is so funny, laughing all the way. The most funniest movie ever and dont know who still say not worth it and not nice. LOL, then in the movie laugh the loudest is her. LOL. Dine at dian xiao er, everything was nice but the dong po rou taste funny. Must really thanks my dear for treating me the dinner. Thanks her so much. I love you dear. Then went to complete our cooking master, saw a lot of people got cheated at happy lifter which we already quit then saw a guy kept winning and play till so slowly. I went up to challenge him and he lose he still choose the same character as mine. Please, dont so copy can, not creative. And the most important point is, he still lost. But his friend quite pro in the catus guy. Then i play till smoothly got a guy challenge me again. And same thing, i win him. My team is god so waste money to challenge only. Then i turn back see him, his face is quite tulan. Then i at 5th lor, so bullshit. I always first leh.
Then sent her home, took cab cause stomach pain again then reach home, sleep. THE END.
Things start to change after the day. I really didnt know what happen. I am sorry for my wrong. But you seems to... *sigh, let's leave everything behind.
I love you forever and ever 1 and only lao puo da ren dear. No matter what happen, i still love you always.
escape is fun with her and she so pro in go kart. she beat me everytime :)
Friday, July 27, 2007
Its been so long since i blog. Lately, i am bothered by somethings. I just cant figured it out.
I dont know why i cant sleep, i can sleep and wake up at anytime before 2.30 then sleep like a log.. Then everyday will be all so tired.. I only have less than 5hrs of sleep.. And this office has a idiotic boss, with the name "Kuan Yin". He just like to busy himself by peeping other people or just go around asking "which stages are you at now", "what are you doing now". All my collegues hated him and that makes him nobody to talk to in the office.. Well, he only click with one of our boss, actually is the accountant, that always fucking delay my pay.. He can drag by pay till half of the month then give me.. bullshit..
Alrite, all the things is not the point i am saying, the point is this sat i which is tmr, i going to a job which need me to wake up at 5.30.. What the hell right.. i sure sleep at 2 or as early as 1am.. Anyway the job is well, good pay, but there's a few ppl that going to work tmr tt will make the job hard to work.. I know i just do my stuff dont care them it will be fine, but its sure difficult.. A job, sure have times to see face to face.. Anyway, i will put it behind me and just put on a friendly mask to live on.. I dont know why i always compromise others but i dont get any return.. i feel stupid.. Just like my ah, i always let her let her in the end she just wanna demand more.. should i be a bad kid? Or get bullied always.. maybe i am just too kind hearted or maybe i just not suitable for being bad..
anyway, karma will fight back..
console or true? Good Luck Have Fun.
I dont know why i cant sleep, i can sleep and wake up at anytime before 2.30 then sleep like a log.. Then everyday will be all so tired.. I only have less than 5hrs of sleep.. And this office has a idiotic boss, with the name "Kuan Yin". He just like to busy himself by peeping other people or just go around asking "which stages are you at now", "what are you doing now". All my collegues hated him and that makes him nobody to talk to in the office.. Well, he only click with one of our boss, actually is the accountant, that always fucking delay my pay.. He can drag by pay till half of the month then give me.. bullshit..
Alrite, all the things is not the point i am saying, the point is this sat i which is tmr, i going to a job which need me to wake up at 5.30.. What the hell right.. i sure sleep at 2 or as early as 1am.. Anyway the job is well, good pay, but there's a few ppl that going to work tmr tt will make the job hard to work.. I know i just do my stuff dont care them it will be fine, but its sure difficult.. A job, sure have times to see face to face.. Anyway, i will put it behind me and just put on a friendly mask to live on.. I dont know why i always compromise others but i dont get any return.. i feel stupid.. Just like my ah, i always let her let her in the end she just wanna demand more.. should i be a bad kid? Or get bullied always.. maybe i am just too kind hearted or maybe i just not suitable for being bad..
anyway, karma will fight back..
console or true? Good Luck Have Fun.
Thursday, July 05, 2007
Thursday, June 21, 2007
So bored.
3 days in Hong Kong but technically is 1 day.
First lousy day.
Board plane about 11 reach there bout 3. Spend a long ride tooking the airport express. Then another long ride in mtr (mrt in hong kong) to the hotel. Still must walk a long way. Then reach the hotel, discover that my papa registered the name wrongly. He registered in his name but end up is my mama's. So stupid. Waste bout half an hour there. Every second is money. They free us a membership as the hotel is having maintenance like we have the time to use it. Check in, placed luggage and off we go. Went over to Tsim Sha Tui cut my hair. Cant find my regular shop. So went to a new one. So full with people. And they kept talking to me in cantonese, i dont even know how to answer them. So i just kept saying "sorry i dont understand you" and they all like "hong kong people still dont know how to speak". My papa was getting his hair cut too and my hairdresser ask my papa why i dont know how to speak. My papa say i study at overseas. Stupid sia. Then later we went to eat what seafood. Waste of my time, totally throw into the sea. Went there eat crab, prawns, vegetables, la-la, scallops. If anybody love to eat chilli can forget bout it in hong kong, cus it cost money. 1 small plate think is 2bucks. There we waste a day. Went back to hotel, drink wine eat chocolate and poom, sleep.
Second tired day.
8am, parents wake me up. Prepared and when to eat the 'free' buffet. Oh, so not worth it. They give us the coupon for free as for the maintenance shit. But who cares bout that as most of the day we will be at outside. This buffet doesnt have much food. Pastry, bread, bacon, fruit, porridge. I dont know whether it is buffet or not, as the variety is less than the quantity. Nobody is eating much over there. So we went to pray at the most famous Wang Tai Xian Temple. After that went to eat dim sum. Stupid mama kept say wanna eat steam rice, then ask me to share with her. She only eat abit, rest i eat and it cover up my whole stomach. After that yes, went over to edison shop. Disappointment, no sales at all. Price starts from 200 sing dollars. Idiot, no wonder open at those mansion and there's totally nobody in the shop. Ok, then went over to other place to shop. Shop till my legs almost detached from my body. Went to a small cafe eat our lunch/dinner. I eat the wanton mee and it taste like crap. The taste is like prawn, fresh prawn taste. Like ee. Ok, then we continue to torture our legs. Then reach this pasar malam like place, they call it girls street. Bought my favourite smelly tofu. Not nice at all. My mama bought the pig intestine and its a cold dish and it taste so fresh. Still have the shit taste. So fuck, she eat a piece and ask me eat all. We walk and saw there's ppl selling roti prata. So odd and the stupid indian still speak cantonese. More slang than mine. Still we kept torturing our legs, i dont know why we hate them so much. Till a point that we discover our legs is try to break, we went to a steamboat restaurant and eat. That's all for the day. Oh ya, i bought the pineapple vodka over there. It taste so nice. Dont know they will be that nice.
Third Short Day.
So short that i find my hair is longer than the day. Wake up early in the morning, bout 7. Went straight to the airport, check in our luggage. We then went inside the airport to do last minute shopping. My mama still left 2000 HK dollars. idiot sia. Then went to buy a gold watch and kept say very nice. We went to eat the airport dim sum, fast game then quickly board the plane. Oh by the way, the lunch always serve ice cream. So fucking nice. and worth it. That's all. It's so short.
Yesterday.
Went to amk. Wow so nice sia, the hub. After that, it's shocking.
"i know, due to circumstances it's shorter than the third short day."
3 days in Hong Kong but technically is 1 day.
First lousy day.
Board plane about 11 reach there bout 3. Spend a long ride tooking the airport express. Then another long ride in mtr (mrt in hong kong) to the hotel. Still must walk a long way. Then reach the hotel, discover that my papa registered the name wrongly. He registered in his name but end up is my mama's. So stupid. Waste bout half an hour there. Every second is money. They free us a membership as the hotel is having maintenance like we have the time to use it. Check in, placed luggage and off we go. Went over to Tsim Sha Tui cut my hair. Cant find my regular shop. So went to a new one. So full with people. And they kept talking to me in cantonese, i dont even know how to answer them. So i just kept saying "sorry i dont understand you" and they all like "hong kong people still dont know how to speak". My papa was getting his hair cut too and my hairdresser ask my papa why i dont know how to speak. My papa say i study at overseas. Stupid sia. Then later we went to eat what seafood. Waste of my time, totally throw into the sea. Went there eat crab, prawns, vegetables, la-la, scallops. If anybody love to eat chilli can forget bout it in hong kong, cus it cost money. 1 small plate think is 2bucks. There we waste a day. Went back to hotel, drink wine eat chocolate and poom, sleep.
Second tired day.
8am, parents wake me up. Prepared and when to eat the 'free' buffet. Oh, so not worth it. They give us the coupon for free as for the maintenance shit. But who cares bout that as most of the day we will be at outside. This buffet doesnt have much food. Pastry, bread, bacon, fruit, porridge. I dont know whether it is buffet or not, as the variety is less than the quantity. Nobody is eating much over there. So we went to pray at the most famous Wang Tai Xian Temple. After that went to eat dim sum. Stupid mama kept say wanna eat steam rice, then ask me to share with her. She only eat abit, rest i eat and it cover up my whole stomach. After that yes, went over to edison shop. Disappointment, no sales at all. Price starts from 200 sing dollars. Idiot, no wonder open at those mansion and there's totally nobody in the shop. Ok, then went over to other place to shop. Shop till my legs almost detached from my body. Went to a small cafe eat our lunch/dinner. I eat the wanton mee and it taste like crap. The taste is like prawn, fresh prawn taste. Like ee. Ok, then we continue to torture our legs. Then reach this pasar malam like place, they call it girls street. Bought my favourite smelly tofu. Not nice at all. My mama bought the pig intestine and its a cold dish and it taste so fresh. Still have the shit taste. So fuck, she eat a piece and ask me eat all. We walk and saw there's ppl selling roti prata. So odd and the stupid indian still speak cantonese. More slang than mine. Still we kept torturing our legs, i dont know why we hate them so much. Till a point that we discover our legs is try to break, we went to a steamboat restaurant and eat. That's all for the day. Oh ya, i bought the pineapple vodka over there. It taste so nice. Dont know they will be that nice.
Third Short Day.
So short that i find my hair is longer than the day. Wake up early in the morning, bout 7. Went straight to the airport, check in our luggage. We then went inside the airport to do last minute shopping. My mama still left 2000 HK dollars. idiot sia. Then went to buy a gold watch and kept say very nice. We went to eat the airport dim sum, fast game then quickly board the plane. Oh by the way, the lunch always serve ice cream. So fucking nice. and worth it. That's all. It's so short.
Yesterday.
Went to amk. Wow so nice sia, the hub. After that, it's shocking.
"i know, due to circumstances it's shorter than the third short day."
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
Nobody actually care bringing my problems away while others just bring problems to me. You are the only 1 that i love yet i discover that i am not worth more than your idol. Who the fuck should i turn to. I'm left alone with myself facing all the difficulties. It's ok, i'm lonely anyway and kind of get used. Anyway if i'm not that important, then you shouldn't tell me i'm irreplacable or make any promises.
As disappointment forms into tears
I return to my loney years
Maybe eugene tan is the guy that must suffer lots of problems, bullied, lonely, have nobody to dry his tears, sad. Anyway, what the hell. I've been living it till now. I'm immune.
As disappointment forms into tears
I return to my loney years
Maybe eugene tan is the guy that must suffer lots of problems, bullied, lonely, have nobody to dry his tears, sad. Anyway, what the hell. I've been living it till now. I'm immune.
Sunday, June 03, 2007
Dear Answers,
can you answer me when will i have a normal and happy day?
I've been longing for that.
Disguise.
I put it on whenever i leave the house. Or i dont even have a house. Who can i lose my emotion to? Who will actually sit down listen to me n letting me flush out my emotion. Im not a problem free person, i am not a normal person either. I suffer bitterly in this family shit. Who's right who's wrong who's lying who's denying i dont even know. Quarrels fights cries what else i have not experience. I aint a happy go lucky person. I just pretend. Or i didnt. But who give a fuck anyway. I always joke i always laugh i always talk cock i always not serious but that just my 'outlook'. Inside me is cold and pessimistic. I think im growing alot more to pessimistic. Cause, when you look highly upon to a person, if they disappoint you, there's nothing you can hope for. I trust him, yet he make mistake over and over again. And i really hate her from not listening to my advice and make things uglier than before. What happens after that? Both will act busy, not eating and do alot of stupid shit. This time is more fucking worst. Came a pest. It totally add shit to the whole situation. Using her fucked up theory just going to make method worst. And i began to hate home, began to stay out as much as possible. There's nothing in the house i worth looking forward to. Everytime i step inside, i will start to hate my grandma first. Its automatic. follow on will be the quarrel that i hate to hear. Suddenly my life has begin to went down the hill. I am always treating my friend better i am always wrong i am always not attentive. And i am not. I have make alot of sacrifices. But you just never know and never feel that. Maybe nobody will satisfy in what i do. How i just i could at least get some praises cause i am those person that always look forward to it. SAD.
What should i do?
Who should i look for?
Who should be consoling me?
can you answer me when will i have a normal and happy day?
I've been longing for that.
Disguise.
I put it on whenever i leave the house. Or i dont even have a house. Who can i lose my emotion to? Who will actually sit down listen to me n letting me flush out my emotion. Im not a problem free person, i am not a normal person either. I suffer bitterly in this family shit. Who's right who's wrong who's lying who's denying i dont even know. Quarrels fights cries what else i have not experience. I aint a happy go lucky person. I just pretend. Or i didnt. But who give a fuck anyway. I always joke i always laugh i always talk cock i always not serious but that just my 'outlook'. Inside me is cold and pessimistic. I think im growing alot more to pessimistic. Cause, when you look highly upon to a person, if they disappoint you, there's nothing you can hope for. I trust him, yet he make mistake over and over again. And i really hate her from not listening to my advice and make things uglier than before. What happens after that? Both will act busy, not eating and do alot of stupid shit. This time is more fucking worst. Came a pest. It totally add shit to the whole situation. Using her fucked up theory just going to make method worst. And i began to hate home, began to stay out as much as possible. There's nothing in the house i worth looking forward to. Everytime i step inside, i will start to hate my grandma first. Its automatic. follow on will be the quarrel that i hate to hear. Suddenly my life has begin to went down the hill. I am always treating my friend better i am always wrong i am always not attentive. And i am not. I have make alot of sacrifices. But you just never know and never feel that. Maybe nobody will satisfy in what i do. How i just i could at least get some praises cause i am those person that always look forward to it. SAD.
What should i do?
Who should i look for?
Who should be consoling me?
Friday, May 25, 2007
Wrong.
Felt like im the bitch of the day. Everybody talk to me seems to hate me. What did i do to deserve this. I need some time to be alone. Jus myself will do. Nobody else but me. Maybe i should quarratine myself and hope i wont hurt anyone unkowningly.
I dont deserve to suffer like this. But who can i turn to except myself. Nobody seems to know me. Nobody seems to give in to me. 1 show me attitude, the other talk about somethings that i cant satisfy her. I get 80 a day, i spend the most 20 for my self and the other 60 is all on her. i never save a single cent. Even i work, my money will be gone. For her. If anybody see my stuff, they will just laugh. My bag is broken, i take another bag. That one is damn tagged and torn, but it's ok. My wallet, i've been saying for ages, but it's ok. My clothes, all repeated, no money buy new one, it's ok. My mp3 player, it's ok now i got n91. My shaving kit, i dont even own 1, have to borrow from my papa and sometimes if i wake up late. Ho sey(Great), i no need to shave cause thanks to my grandma, my mama start to lock doors.
I really wanna buy alot of things, but i'm just restricted. Even i'm hungry, i have to scrimp and save, calculate everything i buy. Sometimes i really hungry till i almost collaspe, i always try to tolerate. 1 can slim down, 2 can save money. Please somebody tell me what else can i still do. Now i got attachment, i cant work. If not i will always friday go work as flyers. Tell me how? I'm tight. Real tight.
Im so bothered, i cant even sleep.
I really hope that just anybody would give in to me and just treat me slightly better.
walking zombie to work.
sure thing tomorrow.
Felt like im the bitch of the day. Everybody talk to me seems to hate me. What did i do to deserve this. I need some time to be alone. Jus myself will do. Nobody else but me. Maybe i should quarratine myself and hope i wont hurt anyone unkowningly.
I dont deserve to suffer like this. But who can i turn to except myself. Nobody seems to know me. Nobody seems to give in to me. 1 show me attitude, the other talk about somethings that i cant satisfy her. I get 80 a day, i spend the most 20 for my self and the other 60 is all on her. i never save a single cent. Even i work, my money will be gone. For her. If anybody see my stuff, they will just laugh. My bag is broken, i take another bag. That one is damn tagged and torn, but it's ok. My wallet, i've been saying for ages, but it's ok. My clothes, all repeated, no money buy new one, it's ok. My mp3 player, it's ok now i got n91. My shaving kit, i dont even own 1, have to borrow from my papa and sometimes if i wake up late. Ho sey(Great), i no need to shave cause thanks to my grandma, my mama start to lock doors.
I really wanna buy alot of things, but i'm just restricted. Even i'm hungry, i have to scrimp and save, calculate everything i buy. Sometimes i really hungry till i almost collaspe, i always try to tolerate. 1 can slim down, 2 can save money. Please somebody tell me what else can i still do. Now i got attachment, i cant work. If not i will always friday go work as flyers. Tell me how? I'm tight. Real tight.
Im so bothered, i cant even sleep.
I really hope that just anybody would give in to me and just treat me slightly better.
walking zombie to work.
sure thing tomorrow.
Friday, May 04, 2007
Wit's End
Who has actually listen to what i want? Who actually know what i want? Who actually understand what i seek? Is not i did not say, i say but nobody care.
Turn to blog cause i cant sleep. Never been sleeping since start of the week. Life has been going down day by day. I really could not take it. I have been tolerate for this whole week. Everytime i kept thinking tomorrow will be a better day but it end up worst. Think this is the down period of my life for this year. I really need to vent my anger at somewhere. But where to vent? All i can vent is myself. Without hurting others, its by torturing myself. In this way i will get distracted and anger will leave quietly off. This is my style of successfully clear my anger. Its not advisable but it perfectly work out. I love you forever and ever 1 and only. I never doubt your love or not trusting you, i just feel not secured. I just need something i can cling on so tightly and give me the confidence i need. I need something that will switch my focus to something that is optimistic.
I'm really tired. I'm worn out.
I cant take it anymore or again.
Cry myself to sleep
Cry myself to dream.
I only want you for all my life.
Serious.
Who has actually listen to what i want? Who actually know what i want? Who actually understand what i seek? Is not i did not say, i say but nobody care.
Turn to blog cause i cant sleep. Never been sleeping since start of the week. Life has been going down day by day. I really could not take it. I have been tolerate for this whole week. Everytime i kept thinking tomorrow will be a better day but it end up worst. Think this is the down period of my life for this year. I really need to vent my anger at somewhere. But where to vent? All i can vent is myself. Without hurting others, its by torturing myself. In this way i will get distracted and anger will leave quietly off. This is my style of successfully clear my anger. Its not advisable but it perfectly work out. I love you forever and ever 1 and only. I never doubt your love or not trusting you, i just feel not secured. I just need something i can cling on so tightly and give me the confidence i need. I need something that will switch my focus to something that is optimistic.
I'm really tired. I'm worn out.
I cant take it anymore or again.
Cry myself to sleep
Cry myself to dream.
I only want you for all my life.
Serious.
Friday, April 20, 2007
Yes, at last i learn how to ride bike.
WOW. Saturday BBQ.
Well, william and i spend the most on tis outing. but watever, its the past anyway. The pit is so fucking long. and this stupid jun hao ask me to go mac eat first then move on to the pit. ok, nvm.. i go cus i abit hungry tt time. then i full for the whole shit.. i ate a few otah a few hot dogs a few sausage a satay stick. Is A SATAY STICK. what the fuck. and this stupid danny ask me go burger king chill.. we cycle to there and as he a stupid shit, he rent for 14bucks overnite for us, we only rent bout 8.. only this william wanna couple with me then 15.. so go chill, come back food about to finish.. walk around, cycle some more with danny.. go chalet see around.. then got a chalet all caucasian. What the fuck, like clubbing, and this fucking danny wanna try something like sneaking in to get free grinding.. ok, got spotted, retrace our steps and head back to the pit.. no food again.. nvm.. then play games, i was the one cooking.. ok, no food again.. then nvm.. they still playing.. then my gf call me.. go somewhere dark and deserted chat.. they fucking cooking lor.. after finish chat, wah, cb.. go nite cycling liao.. OK, i was doing nth throughout the journey.. go bedok eat prata.. along the journey, thanks to ghost rider, we have the most extreme ride.. nearly tio bang, nearly tio crash, nearly tio overturn..
when back to east coast, i change with teck sun, then i paddle till my two legs is not mine anymore.. go bedok jetty, go changi end. what the fuck. then in between got kp by a caucasian bitch pointing middle finger at me. there's ppl block my way so i hav no choice but to "borrow" a little space of the pedestrain.. then cb point at me lor.. tt almost ruin my day.. if i ever see her again, i make sure her finger will be stuck in every holes she have.. ok, then cycle like a dog to go back the shop as to return the bike.. chill at burger king again.. my marinate chicken should be not nice and left some drumstick n its start to rot like a dead rat inside.. so smelly shit.. then head back home, do housework some more.. then sleep..
abit of my personal thoughts..
girls are sensitive creature that guys should often try their very best to avoid contact with opposite sex.. if guys already try so hard but still hav a slight contact, girls r like tiger.. they pounce on u n show u their proffessional way of quarreling.. sometimes is the opposite sex interest in the guy but the guy is as faithful as the pen cap forever will stick with the pen unless u cb dont treasure then lost it..
I love u forever n ever (note this) 1 and only lim mei wern.
WOW. Saturday BBQ.
Well, william and i spend the most on tis outing. but watever, its the past anyway. The pit is so fucking long. and this stupid jun hao ask me to go mac eat first then move on to the pit. ok, nvm.. i go cus i abit hungry tt time. then i full for the whole shit.. i ate a few otah a few hot dogs a few sausage a satay stick. Is A SATAY STICK. what the fuck. and this stupid danny ask me go burger king chill.. we cycle to there and as he a stupid shit, he rent for 14bucks overnite for us, we only rent bout 8.. only this william wanna couple with me then 15.. so go chill, come back food about to finish.. walk around, cycle some more with danny.. go chalet see around.. then got a chalet all caucasian. What the fuck, like clubbing, and this fucking danny wanna try something like sneaking in to get free grinding.. ok, got spotted, retrace our steps and head back to the pit.. no food again.. nvm.. then play games, i was the one cooking.. ok, no food again.. then nvm.. they still playing.. then my gf call me.. go somewhere dark and deserted chat.. they fucking cooking lor.. after finish chat, wah, cb.. go nite cycling liao.. OK, i was doing nth throughout the journey.. go bedok eat prata.. along the journey, thanks to ghost rider, we have the most extreme ride.. nearly tio bang, nearly tio crash, nearly tio overturn..
when back to east coast, i change with teck sun, then i paddle till my two legs is not mine anymore.. go bedok jetty, go changi end. what the fuck. then in between got kp by a caucasian bitch pointing middle finger at me. there's ppl block my way so i hav no choice but to "borrow" a little space of the pedestrain.. then cb point at me lor.. tt almost ruin my day.. if i ever see her again, i make sure her finger will be stuck in every holes she have.. ok, then cycle like a dog to go back the shop as to return the bike.. chill at burger king again.. my marinate chicken should be not nice and left some drumstick n its start to rot like a dead rat inside.. so smelly shit.. then head back home, do housework some more.. then sleep..
abit of my personal thoughts..
girls are sensitive creature that guys should often try their very best to avoid contact with opposite sex.. if guys already try so hard but still hav a slight contact, girls r like tiger.. they pounce on u n show u their proffessional way of quarreling.. sometimes is the opposite sex interest in the guy but the guy is as faithful as the pen cap forever will stick with the pen unless u cb dont treasure then lost it..
I love u forever n ever (note this) 1 and only lim mei wern.
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
Listening to linkin park new songs. They like changing to a soft rock band. Changes is good i perhaps, maybe like me. LOL.
Refresh.
Wet Nurse Day.
No meaning for this sentence, jus find it ryhme. LOL. Went to skool for sup paper. WOW, the paper was fucking easy n i guess i score pretty well. Anyway, i pass for the paper. Cause its only a pass. Fuck up, if not, i think i will get an A or what. Blame on my laziness for the main thing. Then went to badminton with william and friends. Tiring, my hand became worthless after that. Really strain to jus to whack a racket for a long time, its light but after a long time, it weight like an elephant. Then went off to business skool to eat. Bluff william and anson saying that the western food suck like hell. LOL. Then chill at library, cb william really can sleep. Fat like a cow. Boo.
Fried Day.
Do completely nothing at home. Just went to changi village to eat seafood. 3 person for 60bucks. Its quite cheap. Ate small crabs, La La(mussle like thing), Praying Mantis Prawn, Kang Kong, Fried TouFu, Stingray. LOL. The food is not bad, when it comes to steam, those seafood taste really fresh but fresh till i dont like the feeling.
Said The Day
Outing. Sentosa. No swimming. Eat Carl's Jr. Very Nice. Cool. Learn Cycling. Nearly die. Wonderful day. Need to have more. Maybe next time is I plan. LOL.
Son Day
Meet dear to Marina Square. Forever dating place. Not sure why but you can find me everytime with her over there. Do nothing, arcade eat still eat still arcade. LOL. Not bad for the arcade, learn how to play tennis, got to take on the king at KOF '02, play semi-finals at soccer, sign off at the remember the girls clothes game. First time get to leave name on those machine.
I wanna get a work.
Home bound with no cash
is boring.
till im dying
need help here.
Please God shine on me..
Refresh.
Wet Nurse Day.
No meaning for this sentence, jus find it ryhme. LOL. Went to skool for sup paper. WOW, the paper was fucking easy n i guess i score pretty well. Anyway, i pass for the paper. Cause its only a pass. Fuck up, if not, i think i will get an A or what. Blame on my laziness for the main thing. Then went to badminton with william and friends. Tiring, my hand became worthless after that. Really strain to jus to whack a racket for a long time, its light but after a long time, it weight like an elephant. Then went off to business skool to eat. Bluff william and anson saying that the western food suck like hell. LOL. Then chill at library, cb william really can sleep. Fat like a cow. Boo.
Fried Day.
Do completely nothing at home. Just went to changi village to eat seafood. 3 person for 60bucks. Its quite cheap. Ate small crabs, La La(mussle like thing), Praying Mantis Prawn, Kang Kong, Fried TouFu, Stingray. LOL. The food is not bad, when it comes to steam, those seafood taste really fresh but fresh till i dont like the feeling.
Said The Day
Outing. Sentosa. No swimming. Eat Carl's Jr. Very Nice. Cool. Learn Cycling. Nearly die. Wonderful day. Need to have more. Maybe next time is I plan. LOL.
Son Day
Meet dear to Marina Square. Forever dating place. Not sure why but you can find me everytime with her over there. Do nothing, arcade eat still eat still arcade. LOL. Not bad for the arcade, learn how to play tennis, got to take on the king at KOF '02, play semi-finals at soccer, sign off at the remember the girls clothes game. First time get to leave name on those machine.
I wanna get a work.
Home bound with no cash
is boring.
till im dying
need help here.
Please God shine on me..
Monday, March 26, 2007
Enough.
I'm having enough of this bullshit. There's a saying jia you yi lao ru you yi bao. I think the person probably eat shit for breakfast. What the fuck is the meaning of that? I am sick of the lao in my home. By the way, i am the only child. I should have lots of freedom than any kids who have bro n sis. BUT NO. There's this lao, come stop me. Come cage me, Come tie me, Come guard me. I go where, she will go where. I sit down rest, here comes the nonsense conversation. When i say the MOTHERFUCKING RIGHT THING AND ITS DAMN RIGHT, IT'S JUST RIGHT, I DONT CARE WHAT THE FUCK YOU THINK IT'S WRONG, IT'S THE RIGHTEOUS RIGHT THING, she will say i oppose her or what the fuck that its not related. And she bug me to mop the floor, i mop, in a blink of an eye time, just a blink, REALLY, JUST 1 BLINK ONLY, she pick up the mop, and mop the floor again. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH HER? WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THE WORLD SHE'S LIVING IN? WHAT THE FUCK IS SHE EVER THINKING? SHE CAN BUG ME TILL I ALMOST BREAK HER NECK, AND LATER ON, SHE MOP THE FLOOR AGAIN. IT'S FUCKING DRIVE ME CRAZY. MONEY, I NEED MONEY, COME TOTO, COME 4D, COME HIGH PAY JOB, COME AND LOOK FOR ME. I WANNA MOVE OUT OF THIS HOUSE OR IS MOVE OUT OF HER VIEW. DAMN IT. WHAT'S WRONG WITH HER?
MIGHTY GOD,
GIVE ME THE POWER,
TO WIN MY FREEDOM BACK,
I AM ON THE VERGE OF BECOMING HULK.
I'm having enough of this bullshit. There's a saying jia you yi lao ru you yi bao. I think the person probably eat shit for breakfast. What the fuck is the meaning of that? I am sick of the lao in my home. By the way, i am the only child. I should have lots of freedom than any kids who have bro n sis. BUT NO. There's this lao, come stop me. Come cage me, Come tie me, Come guard me. I go where, she will go where. I sit down rest, here comes the nonsense conversation. When i say the MOTHERFUCKING RIGHT THING AND ITS DAMN RIGHT, IT'S JUST RIGHT, I DONT CARE WHAT THE FUCK YOU THINK IT'S WRONG, IT'S THE RIGHTEOUS RIGHT THING, she will say i oppose her or what the fuck that its not related. And she bug me to mop the floor, i mop, in a blink of an eye time, just a blink, REALLY, JUST 1 BLINK ONLY, she pick up the mop, and mop the floor again. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH HER? WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THE WORLD SHE'S LIVING IN? WHAT THE FUCK IS SHE EVER THINKING? SHE CAN BUG ME TILL I ALMOST BREAK HER NECK, AND LATER ON, SHE MOP THE FLOOR AGAIN. IT'S FUCKING DRIVE ME CRAZY. MONEY, I NEED MONEY, COME TOTO, COME 4D, COME HIGH PAY JOB, COME AND LOOK FOR ME. I WANNA MOVE OUT OF THIS HOUSE OR IS MOVE OUT OF HER VIEW. DAMN IT. WHAT'S WRONG WITH HER?
MIGHTY GOD,
GIVE ME THE POWER,
TO WIN MY FREEDOM BACK,
I AM ON THE VERGE OF BECOMING HULK.
Friday, March 16, 2007
Why.
Why there is so much things that doesnt go what i want today?
First thing first. My dear, why you wear till so exposed. You should know what's the area you are working and some more its a job interview. Please, No More Le Ok? I dont like those guys kept seeing you like the eyes almost drop out and mouth opening wide along with waterfall of saliva. I am not being uptight but till the day when you are ready, then i let you wear, no problem. Ok?
Secondly, why are you doing this to me? Even you are my kin, yet still got this thing as backstab you know. I know i am not being healthy to sleeping so late but what the fuck. Need to backstab ma? Secretly tell my papa say i sleep late and when i come to the table she was shocked with a stunned look. Then who dunno the next thing will be my papa saying me. Still pretend at there say, "dont say him la". I am not your audience and i am not your fans. I dont need you to act or perform your whatever things you are trying to do. Better eat with a small mouth then to open wide to talk behind backs. BOOO YOU FOR YOUR WRONGDOING. Also i'm having enough of your nonsense. I dunno what to say but i hope you know what you are doing.
Thirdly, the more i see my papa the more i feel that money is the best when you earn it yourself. Having to rely on people cant get you far. It's truth, and after my supp paper and hopefully i can really pass cus i really putting lots of effort, i go find a job and earn lots of money as fast as possible. I just got too many things to buy. And if getting your money is so difficult, i rather you keep it to yourself and spend on yourself to make everybody feel better.
Dog eat Dog World happen anywhere.
Why there is so much things that doesnt go what i want today?
First thing first. My dear, why you wear till so exposed. You should know what's the area you are working and some more its a job interview. Please, No More Le Ok? I dont like those guys kept seeing you like the eyes almost drop out and mouth opening wide along with waterfall of saliva. I am not being uptight but till the day when you are ready, then i let you wear, no problem. Ok?
Secondly, why are you doing this to me? Even you are my kin, yet still got this thing as backstab you know. I know i am not being healthy to sleeping so late but what the fuck. Need to backstab ma? Secretly tell my papa say i sleep late and when i come to the table she was shocked with a stunned look. Then who dunno the next thing will be my papa saying me. Still pretend at there say, "dont say him la". I am not your audience and i am not your fans. I dont need you to act or perform your whatever things you are trying to do. Better eat with a small mouth then to open wide to talk behind backs. BOOO YOU FOR YOUR WRONGDOING. Also i'm having enough of your nonsense. I dunno what to say but i hope you know what you are doing.
Thirdly, the more i see my papa the more i feel that money is the best when you earn it yourself. Having to rely on people cant get you far. It's truth, and after my supp paper and hopefully i can really pass cus i really putting lots of effort, i go find a job and earn lots of money as fast as possible. I just got too many things to buy. And if getting your money is so difficult, i rather you keep it to yourself and spend on yourself to make everybody feel better.
Dog eat Dog World happen anywhere.
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
Another.
It's another week of misfortune. I had enough I had worn-out. Things have not been good for me, maybe there's a reason. I feel useless and worthless at home. I dont wanna stay at home, its like there's no reason for me to stay. I wanna work, i wanna study, i wanna spend as much time as possible outside. Life at home is much worst than a dog eat dog world outside.
What worst than a non-stop nags. Its like a 7-11 nag store open at home. Even i'm sleeping, 8+am, must wake me up and tell me "I went out. You clean the house. What time your mama go out, remember to clean house." I never always get to sleep enough with a person around like this. I cant have a quiet time, everytime come in my room and nag nag nag, gossip gossip, talk talk talk, i really have enough.. Talk can, but kept repeating the same thing keeps me fed up. Some more, tell her to do things, she wont listen and later on leads to quarrel. Then say not her fault not her mistake nothing wrong. Is it old people tends to be this way? Therefore i never ever show my frustration.
Monday. Meet tommy and yanda and wee. So long sia. So long to have the 3 of us tog with yanda. But yanda go meet his kuku girl after 1 hour. Went over to wee house to bath then talk then go tiong bahru plaza cause he dont wanna spend money. We have a budget outing, just sit talk and home. Tommy doesnt look like last time, as in, he's more hip hop and always looking at his watch to get home early. Wee, he change to a carefully money spender. Doesnt look like what he used to be. So does me. Anyway, we end early so didnt really enjoy to the fullest. And fuck tommy, always so last minute.
Tuesday. Meet meiwern. What's there to be say. Is it every month of a week there will be mood swing? But its really too much of a mood swing. Its really hard for me to accept it. I already try but maybe for that day i got too much in my head. Thumbdrive, not enough sleep and so on. What's wrong with me. I am sorry dear, i am sorry for not understanding. Its my bad.
Today. Results cuts my mood into pieces. Im sorry. I wanna be alone. But i cant. Constantly there will be a person that follows me like my shadow around this house and talk and talk. Its driving me nuts and i am really tolerating towards my limit. But what can i say, its not her fault to live with us. I cant blame her. My life is like a tumour to me. Its getting worst after each day. What's happening. What have i done. I really wanna pause and take a break.
The worst happen
and its so sudden
It came un-prepare
right now i am despair.
It's another week of misfortune. I had enough I had worn-out. Things have not been good for me, maybe there's a reason. I feel useless and worthless at home. I dont wanna stay at home, its like there's no reason for me to stay. I wanna work, i wanna study, i wanna spend as much time as possible outside. Life at home is much worst than a dog eat dog world outside.
What worst than a non-stop nags. Its like a 7-11 nag store open at home. Even i'm sleeping, 8+am, must wake me up and tell me "I went out. You clean the house. What time your mama go out, remember to clean house." I never always get to sleep enough with a person around like this. I cant have a quiet time, everytime come in my room and nag nag nag, gossip gossip, talk talk talk, i really have enough.. Talk can, but kept repeating the same thing keeps me fed up. Some more, tell her to do things, she wont listen and later on leads to quarrel. Then say not her fault not her mistake nothing wrong. Is it old people tends to be this way? Therefore i never ever show my frustration.
Monday. Meet tommy and yanda and wee. So long sia. So long to have the 3 of us tog with yanda. But yanda go meet his kuku girl after 1 hour. Went over to wee house to bath then talk then go tiong bahru plaza cause he dont wanna spend money. We have a budget outing, just sit talk and home. Tommy doesnt look like last time, as in, he's more hip hop and always looking at his watch to get home early. Wee, he change to a carefully money spender. Doesnt look like what he used to be. So does me. Anyway, we end early so didnt really enjoy to the fullest. And fuck tommy, always so last minute.
Tuesday. Meet meiwern. What's there to be say. Is it every month of a week there will be mood swing? But its really too much of a mood swing. Its really hard for me to accept it. I already try but maybe for that day i got too much in my head. Thumbdrive, not enough sleep and so on. What's wrong with me. I am sorry dear, i am sorry for not understanding. Its my bad.
Today. Results cuts my mood into pieces. Im sorry. I wanna be alone. But i cant. Constantly there will be a person that follows me like my shadow around this house and talk and talk. Its driving me nuts and i am really tolerating towards my limit. But what can i say, its not her fault to live with us. I cant blame her. My life is like a tumour to me. Its getting worst after each day. What's happening. What have i done. I really wanna pause and take a break.
The worst happen
and its so sudden
It came un-prepare
right now i am despair.
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
All because of money.
working from 8 of march till 11 of march. Stupid IT fair. Damn no life and no good food over there. What can i say. It's free anyway. Stand from 11am onwards till 10pm. Stupid customer, so stupid till cannot read the poster say till 9pm, still mus dilly dally at the fair choosing here and there. Stand whole day, talk whole day, tired whole day. Persuade and persuade customer to buy the stupid laser printer. How to sell you tell me. Mostly come here to buy is for home use and laserjet is for offices or schools. Seldom people will buy and not really sellable. But still have to keep try and try. Damn it, Yanda get a pretty nice job selling ink cartridge. No need to promote no need to waste saliva, just customer kept coming and the commission just kept pouring in.
The job is quite flexible in terms like break you can set it yourself but you wont bear to do so. When you going for break, you will straight away consider will the customer come back and find you or will there still be customer coming to buy it. By the time you finish considering, the rice has turn cold, the fries is so soft, the tofu turns bad. First day the food still ok, then later day, got burger king. But is fucking beef', how can i eat. Cant help, stomach hungry have to eat. Then following day, the food turn bad lor. Sian, then last day, not enough food. But lucky manage to get a curry puff and a box of nasi lemak. Lol. Real sad.
I hope my commission will be alot. Have to persuade customer to buy is painstalking. They always use their favourite line, "i will come back later." what's this? being kind or? so stupid. if you not buying, then say not buying. Dont waste my potential got customer to buy time to wait for you to come back. But there's something worst in IT show. Is to pushing pram inside here. I dunno what's wrong with them. So squeezy still wanna bring their kids to the fair then jam the whole traffic. The job not bad, i get to know a TP student and he quite a good person. He always kept motivate me to get more customer as i tend to slack after i sell 10 sets. LOL.
Sad time.
I really get confused of what you want and what you need. I can give i already give, for those i never give enough, i already try hard to give you. Why is it not enough. Its not wrong to ask for more but.... Nvm, its hard to explain right now.
and its 5.53am. Couldnt sleep and stay up till now. Pain in my chest hurt in my heart. I am troubled i am sad. I'm so tired right now. Continue at next time.
working from 8 of march till 11 of march. Stupid IT fair. Damn no life and no good food over there. What can i say. It's free anyway. Stand from 11am onwards till 10pm. Stupid customer, so stupid till cannot read the poster say till 9pm, still mus dilly dally at the fair choosing here and there. Stand whole day, talk whole day, tired whole day. Persuade and persuade customer to buy the stupid laser printer. How to sell you tell me. Mostly come here to buy is for home use and laserjet is for offices or schools. Seldom people will buy and not really sellable. But still have to keep try and try. Damn it, Yanda get a pretty nice job selling ink cartridge. No need to promote no need to waste saliva, just customer kept coming and the commission just kept pouring in.
The job is quite flexible in terms like break you can set it yourself but you wont bear to do so. When you going for break, you will straight away consider will the customer come back and find you or will there still be customer coming to buy it. By the time you finish considering, the rice has turn cold, the fries is so soft, the tofu turns bad. First day the food still ok, then later day, got burger king. But is fucking beef', how can i eat. Cant help, stomach hungry have to eat. Then following day, the food turn bad lor. Sian, then last day, not enough food. But lucky manage to get a curry puff and a box of nasi lemak. Lol. Real sad.
I hope my commission will be alot. Have to persuade customer to buy is painstalking. They always use their favourite line, "i will come back later." what's this? being kind or? so stupid. if you not buying, then say not buying. Dont waste my potential got customer to buy time to wait for you to come back. But there's something worst in IT show. Is to pushing pram inside here. I dunno what's wrong with them. So squeezy still wanna bring their kids to the fair then jam the whole traffic. The job not bad, i get to know a TP student and he quite a good person. He always kept motivate me to get more customer as i tend to slack after i sell 10 sets. LOL.
Sad time.
I really get confused of what you want and what you need. I can give i already give, for those i never give enough, i already try hard to give you. Why is it not enough. Its not wrong to ask for more but.... Nvm, its hard to explain right now.
and its 5.53am. Couldnt sleep and stay up till now. Pain in my chest hurt in my heart. I am troubled i am sad. I'm so tired right now. Continue at next time.
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
Blame.
Who should be blame? A person that started and causing the trouble. Or should be a person that love to nag and nag and comment 'bout someone's action. Or should be a disrespectful and treated someone badly? Who's at fault? I dont know the answer 'cause it just leads 1 thing to another.
Anyway, being selfish is the worst thing in the world that a person should do. All you care is about yourself. And all the people living in this world have to abide your orders just the way you like it. I hate that. I hate to be living in the world of rules. I rather it should be bending the rules according to the situation. Some people just dont understand that due to the situation, what's the best choice. This is what selfish people are, they wont put themselves in your shoes and just blaming you for what you have done. BULLSHIT DICKHEADS.
Well, here's the reply for the complaint letter i wrote. Thanks to OrgCom. It did helps me in my life.
Our Ref:
2007/Feb/0681
Toll-free:
1800-287 2727
Mainline:
6284-8866
Fax:
6282-5204
Website:
6 March 2007
Mr Eugene Tan
Dear Mr Tan
Please refer to your feedback regarding Service 34.
2 We are sorry to learn of the inconvenience caused while waiting for this service.
3 The Manager has noted your concern on the frequency of the service and is monitoring the situation closely. Rest assured that, where it is within our control, we will ensure that buses arrive at regular intervals.
4 Bus captains have also been reminded to try their best to adhere strictly to their time schedules to ensure service reliability.
5 Thank you for your feedback.
Yours sincerely
Andrew Tan
for Deputy Director
Corporate Communications
SBS Transit Ltd
Who should be blame? A person that started and causing the trouble. Or should be a person that love to nag and nag and comment 'bout someone's action. Or should be a disrespectful and treated someone badly? Who's at fault? I dont know the answer 'cause it just leads 1 thing to another.
Anyway, being selfish is the worst thing in the world that a person should do. All you care is about yourself. And all the people living in this world have to abide your orders just the way you like it. I hate that. I hate to be living in the world of rules. I rather it should be bending the rules according to the situation. Some people just dont understand that due to the situation, what's the best choice. This is what selfish people are, they wont put themselves in your shoes and just blaming you for what you have done. BULLSHIT DICKHEADS.
Well, here's the reply for the complaint letter i wrote. Thanks to OrgCom. It did helps me in my life.
Our Ref:
2007/Feb/0681
Toll-free:
1800-287 2727
Mainline:
6284-8866
Fax:
6282-5204
Website:
6 March 2007
Mr Eugene Tan
Dear Mr Tan
Please refer to your feedback regarding Service 34.
2 We are sorry to learn of the inconvenience caused while waiting for this service.
3 The Manager has noted your concern on the frequency of the service and is monitoring the situation closely. Rest assured that, where it is within our control, we will ensure that buses arrive at regular intervals.
4 Bus captains have also been reminded to try their best to adhere strictly to their time schedules to ensure service reliability.
5 Thank you for your feedback.
Yours sincerely
Andrew Tan
for Deputy Director
Corporate Communications
SBS Transit Ltd
Sunday, March 04, 2007
Bitter Taste.
First post of new skin.
Doesnt know if its gd to have a gd start or bad start.. Whatever..
Sometimes, a person can change a life of 3. Yes, i am saying my papa. Due to some reason, my ah ma have to sell her flat and move over here with us. Well, he gain most of the advantages but not us. This is bullshit. I never feel how life is so rotten to be staying home and face endless nags or complains. Its just keep bothering me. You may say that, hey, she's old and you should give in. I tell you that i already give up long ago. So 1 came in, 2 headache. My mama, well, she's couldnt take it anymore. Wars have been raging since the day my ah ma came in. So, im the hostage. One of them pull me in, i have no choice but to give up. I have no weapons (which is money cus now i have to study) so that's not my war. And my papa, well, he dont even care. As long as staying out late and came back sleep. that's all. How a simple life. I now trying to get a job to escape this house as long as i can. My freedom has turn to ash in a blink of an eye.
Isnt love is accepting the past of someone. Why is it so hard for my gf to give up saying 'bout my past. I admit i made alot of wrong judgements, mistakes, moves, but right now, i am true to her. Isnt that enough? I really hate it when i heard that my past matter to her i mean, that's the past right. Look, before we get together, we have freedom of choices. You can swear that you choose me when you start know me? No right. You was actually indulge in another guy. But me, i jus dunno whether i should carry on or what. I know in between the duration, i did make a dick out of myself but what's done is done and it doesnt matter anymore. Cus right now, you with me, i with you, nothing gonna tore us apart. I am sorry as i undergoing a huge change in my lifestyle and my mood will be shaky as i havent adapt to it. Forgive me for this few days. After i get a job, i guess things will go much smoother.
How to save my life?
Doesnt know if its gd to have a gd start or bad start.. Whatever..
Sometimes, a person can change a life of 3. Yes, i am saying my papa. Due to some reason, my ah ma have to sell her flat and move over here with us. Well, he gain most of the advantages but not us. This is bullshit. I never feel how life is so rotten to be staying home and face endless nags or complains. Its just keep bothering me. You may say that, hey, she's old and you should give in. I tell you that i already give up long ago. So 1 came in, 2 headache. My mama, well, she's couldnt take it anymore. Wars have been raging since the day my ah ma came in. So, im the hostage. One of them pull me in, i have no choice but to give up. I have no weapons (which is money cus now i have to study) so that's not my war. And my papa, well, he dont even care. As long as staying out late and came back sleep. that's all. How a simple life. I now trying to get a job to escape this house as long as i can. My freedom has turn to ash in a blink of an eye.
Isnt love is accepting the past of someone. Why is it so hard for my gf to give up saying 'bout my past. I admit i made alot of wrong judgements, mistakes, moves, but right now, i am true to her. Isnt that enough? I really hate it when i heard that my past matter to her i mean, that's the past right. Look, before we get together, we have freedom of choices. You can swear that you choose me when you start know me? No right. You was actually indulge in another guy. But me, i jus dunno whether i should carry on or what. I know in between the duration, i did make a dick out of myself but what's done is done and it doesnt matter anymore. Cus right now, you with me, i with you, nothing gonna tore us apart. I am sorry as i undergoing a huge change in my lifestyle and my mood will be shaky as i havent adapt to it. Forgive me for this few days. After i get a job, i guess things will go much smoother.
How to save my life?
Monday, February 12, 2007
EscapE.
Couldnt wake up. Feeling so heavy and kept fall back to sleep. Finally woke up and its already late. But i still can make it, then its just that the feeling is so sian. Probably is the aftermath of yesterday. Nobody to blame but me. My heart or should i say i dont have a heart. I am heartless. Yea, tt's what i am. Sad to say sad to talk. Sad to do anything. Sad to the extreme sad to the merisable. Never expected that i fail as what i am in your eyes. I still thought that i am a guy that you always say you could hang on to, but i realise all those praises are lies. I really never going to be what i am i meant to be. Failures overcome my success and that just make me a loser of lovers. What the fuck have i become, sometimes i surprised myself.
Why must you compare
do you really think its unfair?
How can love be fare
i am hurt, do you really care?
Couldnt wake up. Feeling so heavy and kept fall back to sleep. Finally woke up and its already late. But i still can make it, then its just that the feeling is so sian. Probably is the aftermath of yesterday. Nobody to blame but me. My heart or should i say i dont have a heart. I am heartless. Yea, tt's what i am. Sad to say sad to talk. Sad to do anything. Sad to the extreme sad to the merisable. Never expected that i fail as what i am in your eyes. I still thought that i am a guy that you always say you could hang on to, but i realise all those praises are lies. I really never going to be what i am i meant to be. Failures overcome my success and that just make me a loser of lovers. What the fuck have i become, sometimes i surprised myself.
Why must you compare
do you really think its unfair?
How can love be fare
i am hurt, do you really care?
Sunday, February 11, 2007
Re-vised.
just finish reading a post that cast a avalanche in my heart. what the hell. why past cant be buried and burn away? Does it really have to follow u to the rest of ur life? everybody have past, who dont? dont u have one too? the one u really love, those that love u? should i be compare to them too? I tried not to talk about it but what's the point of discover and "oh everybody is unhappy". Sometimes things that u have seen is not what u think. Onlookers will only have the cover of the situation and cover are always nice. and people change thru experience.
i used to be a consultant. People come to me problems, i will swee swee help them solve it. Any problems in this world, i can solve, i can console, i can do lots of things. But sometimes, life changes. I start to notice i cant solve my problem myself, its terrible. I start to cry, i start to learn to look things pessimistic. WHY? i fail, my family members fail, my love life fail, my frens fail too. i change, i admit i change. i change to disappoint ppl rather than i get disappointed, i rather do hurtful things before they can do it to me. i start to build tis kind of actions and its not something i can control. all the while i have not met a person like u.
the person like u i cherish. the person like u i adore so much. but it really hurts when u say y my past gets more than u why my past gets better than u. the fact is it did not happen. as i say onlookers may have only see the outlook of it, what's inside, is not said. u must understand me too, as my experiences is different from urs. u must understand i will do things somehow different of what u expected. but i already working hard to it. i really do. u mite not see it cus i dont do things infront of ppl, i do it silently. im not those tt like to get praise neither do i like critise. u may find me in different in last time, whatever is good or bad, its me. people change from time to time and im really changing myself to adapt this relationship.
you should have trust me. you should have see me working hard. please dont be sad. i dont like you to be tt way. i really working hard, when u say not enough i work again. but doesnt i should deserve a break for working so hard? sometimes u also have to treat me the way i should be treated. u should learn how to spare thots of me too. both of us have to work hard to build this relationship. we all have faults, u also always ask me wat u should do or wat. isnt tt not sincere already? there's somethings u should change too, just like me. we both have a part to play.
what's more than those times we have in the present. the fact is i love u forever and ever 1 and only. remember that. and i really wanna make u enjoy in this relationship. believe me ok?
love is not measure by weighing machine.
love is not measure by a ruler.
love is not measure by comparison.
love is measure by how truth i am to u.
and i can swear, i love u and give a lots more than what i did in the past.
just finish reading a post that cast a avalanche in my heart. what the hell. why past cant be buried and burn away? Does it really have to follow u to the rest of ur life? everybody have past, who dont? dont u have one too? the one u really love, those that love u? should i be compare to them too? I tried not to talk about it but what's the point of discover and "oh everybody is unhappy". Sometimes things that u have seen is not what u think. Onlookers will only have the cover of the situation and cover are always nice. and people change thru experience.
i used to be a consultant. People come to me problems, i will swee swee help them solve it. Any problems in this world, i can solve, i can console, i can do lots of things. But sometimes, life changes. I start to notice i cant solve my problem myself, its terrible. I start to cry, i start to learn to look things pessimistic. WHY? i fail, my family members fail, my love life fail, my frens fail too. i change, i admit i change. i change to disappoint ppl rather than i get disappointed, i rather do hurtful things before they can do it to me. i start to build tis kind of actions and its not something i can control. all the while i have not met a person like u.
the person like u i cherish. the person like u i adore so much. but it really hurts when u say y my past gets more than u why my past gets better than u. the fact is it did not happen. as i say onlookers may have only see the outlook of it, what's inside, is not said. u must understand me too, as my experiences is different from urs. u must understand i will do things somehow different of what u expected. but i already working hard to it. i really do. u mite not see it cus i dont do things infront of ppl, i do it silently. im not those tt like to get praise neither do i like critise. u may find me in different in last time, whatever is good or bad, its me. people change from time to time and im really changing myself to adapt this relationship.
you should have trust me. you should have see me working hard. please dont be sad. i dont like you to be tt way. i really working hard, when u say not enough i work again. but doesnt i should deserve a break for working so hard? sometimes u also have to treat me the way i should be treated. u should learn how to spare thots of me too. both of us have to work hard to build this relationship. we all have faults, u also always ask me wat u should do or wat. isnt tt not sincere already? there's somethings u should change too, just like me. we both have a part to play.
if u said that she's irreplacable, who i am holding hands with?
(please dont say things kind of hurtful things when im only true to u)
what's more than those times we have in the present. the fact is i love u forever and ever 1 and only. remember that. and i really wanna make u enjoy in this relationship. believe me ok?
love is not measure by weighing machine.
love is not measure by a ruler.
love is not measure by comparison.
love is measure by how truth i am to u.
and i can swear, i love u and give a lots more than what i did in the past.
Thursday, February 08, 2007
Today is a really damn lousy day.
I went to school for pizza only and this is so bloody gian beng attitude. I intend to go lecture but this bus 34 wasted my time and delay my time to school. so i already write up a feedback form to the sbs n hope i could get a reply soon or change the frequency of the bus. and 27 really sucks ok.. forever n ever alot of people..
this is my feedback.
"I am a poly student from temasek that live in the Punggol area. Due to the limitations of the buses, i have to rely on the bus 34 as it is the fastest and only way to tampines where i can conveniently change buses. But today, 07/02/2007,at around 9.55 am i have to wait for over 30 minutes for the bus to arrive till i gave up and went to sengkang to took bus 27 to school. This is not the first time as there was a day i waited for over 1 hours for the bus to came to tampines so i can reach home. The frequency of the bus 34 is really important to me as it matters the attendance of my course. I really hope that this matter will be taken seriously as i noticed a few students have been experienced the same situation. Thank you. "
i know i should write a lot of students.. shit.. but i hope it still can have power.. hahahaha..
sometimes we should set a gd example. i love you so so much dear.. i hope u will stop saying u learn from me, i really hated it.. i feel sad.. and i know i need some anger management and i hope u know that it needs time.. but whatever it is, i still love u forever n ever never change.. stop saying my blog is not updated.. is i cant do so ok?
Fake shark-fin soup
attract cat to the stool
run away and enjoy it with the spoon
asking where is the new yr goodies by a fool.
THAT'S THE LIFE AT HOUGANG.
I went to school for pizza only and this is so bloody gian beng attitude. I intend to go lecture but this bus 34 wasted my time and delay my time to school. so i already write up a feedback form to the sbs n hope i could get a reply soon or change the frequency of the bus. and 27 really sucks ok.. forever n ever alot of people..
this is my feedback.
"I am a poly student from temasek that live in the Punggol area. Due to the limitations of the buses, i have to rely on the bus 34 as it is the fastest and only way to tampines where i can conveniently change buses. But today, 07/02/2007,at around 9.55 am i have to wait for over 30 minutes for the bus to arrive till i gave up and went to sengkang to took bus 27 to school. This is not the first time as there was a day i waited for over 1 hours for the bus to came to tampines so i can reach home. The frequency of the bus 34 is really important to me as it matters the attendance of my course. I really hope that this matter will be taken seriously as i noticed a few students have been experienced the same situation. Thank you. "
i know i should write a lot of students.. shit.. but i hope it still can have power.. hahahaha..
sometimes we should set a gd example. i love you so so much dear.. i hope u will stop saying u learn from me, i really hated it.. i feel sad.. and i know i need some anger management and i hope u know that it needs time.. but whatever it is, i still love u forever n ever never change.. stop saying my blog is not updated.. is i cant do so ok?
Fake shark-fin soup
attract cat to the stool
run away and enjoy it with the spoon
asking where is the new yr goodies by a fool.
THAT'S THE LIFE AT HOUGANG.
Friday, February 02, 2007
Today,
what should i say or shouldnt i say anything. Just something i said will turn out to be tradegy.
Maybe i am a guy that always expect things. Expect that you will know, expect that things will turn out to be easy. but i am wrong. I am sorry william, that i did not told you all the tips that i heard from my friends.
I am sorry dear.. but i dint know how trust can be so fragile.. dont u always say trust u? y cant you trust me? sometimes i really dont understand y u can do all the things but i cant. u said u can be trustworthy, but can i be it too? if u say i dint told u they were coming, but shouldnt u hear my side of explanations? sometimes u with other guys, but dint tell me.. when i saw, yes, i feel bit unhappy, but after awhile i dint even wanna confront u. that time i saw u and ur frens and kenneth.. did u tell me bout it? u do project with a guy, did u ever tell me bout it? i already trust u, cant u do it vice versa. i seldom meet any girls, i seldom even go out with them. i hope u really would understand. it mean nothing at all.
it all's come in a sudden
i am stick with a bad omen.
what should i say or shouldnt i say anything. Just something i said will turn out to be tradegy.
Maybe i am a guy that always expect things. Expect that you will know, expect that things will turn out to be easy. but i am wrong. I am sorry william, that i did not told you all the tips that i heard from my friends.
I am sorry dear.. but i dint know how trust can be so fragile.. dont u always say trust u? y cant you trust me? sometimes i really dont understand y u can do all the things but i cant. u said u can be trustworthy, but can i be it too? if u say i dint told u they were coming, but shouldnt u hear my side of explanations? sometimes u with other guys, but dint tell me.. when i saw, yes, i feel bit unhappy, but after awhile i dint even wanna confront u. that time i saw u and ur frens and kenneth.. did u tell me bout it? u do project with a guy, did u ever tell me bout it? i already trust u, cant u do it vice versa. i seldom meet any girls, i seldom even go out with them. i hope u really would understand. it mean nothing at all.
it all's come in a sudden
i am stick with a bad omen.
Sunday, January 07, 2007
Girls.
Do they always so sensitive about stuff? like my mama, abit angry, abit cannot, fussy. Forever wont happy. Alittle thing also must kp. Sometimes even worst. and also to all other girls. I know its unfair to say this but also must spare a thought to the person around.
Me.
Why do all my friends say i am not fun as last time? My gf changes me changes my style changes my everything? I dont know. I not sure. If i am what i am now, maybe i am ready to settle down. Should i remain just like this or just like a kid playing around, fooling around? i not sure. I still fun now, arent i? Searching for myself and analyze.
Today.
I heard a news that shocked me. Never will i know and imagine. IT's SHOCKING. Somehow i dont feel relate to it anymore.
I wanna change this song. Promiscuous is so outdated and i cant even spell rite. Bullshit.
All American Rejects. ENJOY.
we all regret
things we should not do
we all forget
things we should avoid do
we all neglect
things we should never do
STOP AND THINK. What The Hell Are You Saying.
Do they always so sensitive about stuff? like my mama, abit angry, abit cannot, fussy. Forever wont happy. Alittle thing also must kp. Sometimes even worst. and also to all other girls. I know its unfair to say this but also must spare a thought to the person around.
Me.
Why do all my friends say i am not fun as last time? My gf changes me changes my style changes my everything? I dont know. I not sure. If i am what i am now, maybe i am ready to settle down. Should i remain just like this or just like a kid playing around, fooling around? i not sure. I still fun now, arent i? Searching for myself and analyze.
Today.
I heard a news that shocked me. Never will i know and imagine. IT's SHOCKING. Somehow i dont feel relate to it anymore.
I wanna change this song. Promiscuous is so outdated and i cant even spell rite. Bullshit.
All American Rejects. ENJOY.
we all regret
things we should not do
we all forget
things we should avoid do
we all neglect
things we should never do
STOP AND THINK. What The Hell Are You Saying.
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