Is it voice out important?

i feel so disappointed. i dont know why. why am i such a worthless guy in your eyes? havent i did enough for you to be satisfied? how much mountain should i climb, how much ocean should i cross so i could earn a praise from you? if sacrifice have to say it out, it wont be sincere no more. it just will appear as you are asking something back. i keep it to myself but what i dont know its by doing this i've making myself look like a failure. how should i prove my love for you is genuine? love i give is pure? how much i adore you is real? how much i dote you is from my heart? how much i sacrifice is true?

Failure is just like my surname, it seems follows me everywhere i go, everything i do, every word i speak. i just cant believe how many people i seems to be disappointed by me. if i just did badly, give me sometime to work hard. i dont scared of failure, i just scared you wont give me chances.

I dont want to polish my sadness with tears, why should it ended up like that? i want to enjoy my life with you, just lay back from a urban life and relax with you. life shouldnt be stressful with you. there's shouldnt be any limit with you. just like my love doesnt stop and last forever n ever.

i hope you understand.

-..- love -.-