Is it voice out important?

i feel so disappointed. i dont know why. why am i such a worthless guy in your eyes? havent i did enough for you to be satisfied? how much mountain should i climb, how much ocean should i cross so i could earn a praise from you? if sacrifice have to say it out, it wont be sincere no more. it just will appear as you are asking something back. i keep it to myself but what i dont know its by doing this i've making myself look like a failure. how should i prove my love for you is genuine? love i give is pure? how much i adore you is real? how much i dote you is from my heart? how much i sacrifice is true?

Failure is just like my surname, it seems follows me everywhere i go, everything i do, every word i speak. i just cant believe how many people i seems to be disappointed by me. if i just did badly, give me sometime to work hard. i dont scared of failure, i just scared you wont give me chances.

I dont want to polish my sadness with tears, why should it ended up like that? i want to enjoy my life with you, just lay back from a urban life and relax with you. life shouldnt be stressful with you. there's shouldnt be any limit with you. just like my love doesnt stop and last forever n ever.

i hope you understand.

-..- love -.-

been so busy everyday.. ah, fucking haze.. Pui..

nv feel my course can bring me to such a great place to work.. Singapore Land Authority, Temasek Tower, Tanjong Pagar.. WOW, such a Grand Life.. sea view, easy work, slack, slack and more slack.. the shit thing is only a table that is jus big enough for me and william.. no computer, no telephone.. but there's tis aunty bought breakfast for us most of the time.. basically, i'm going to site inspection, jus see security guard is present at those vacant building then write down on the checklist.. then copy some dates, then go home.. sometimes stay at office doing paper work.. a 8.30am to 6pm job, come late to work go home early.. ah, great life..

so busy busy busy, spending time with gf is so limited not saying friends.. ah, where are they.. tommy still haven see him for days, or even years.. Wee, jus saw him at last month.. LOL.. where's the time i can enjoy? this job make me exchange all the holidays i have..

jus pass a year with my dear, its so fast so quick jus like a blink of an eye.. nv celebrate much nv have much luck, got caught by her mama, worst thing is her brother, ahh.. its getting more complicated.. but then jus let nature take its cause.. cant do much anyway.. woo, first time going a tattoo shop, watching her er sao tattoo.. nth much..

now r so cancer trend.. my ah ma down with cancer, but hopeless, jus have to go for treatment every now n then.. then, my uncle, down with cancer, finish operation, cant go work, family in trouble.. but my cousin still stays so cool.. hate them last time, but i dunno wat feeling should i have now..

anyway, life's come n go,
u may live today, u r gone tmr..

wat the hell,
j
us live n enjoy it..
kill the feeling of wasted, n kiss the person you misses..

-0- *life is boring..