what a nite and what a day..

this is really the second time i feel my heart was tear apart.. i feel like everything seems to feel the same way as the past.. i dunno y u have to say such a thing.. im devastated.. i nv ever tot u will say those disappointing words.. im upset, im down, im depressed.. my heart bleeds.. i dunno how can tis heal.. my scar has open up by u and i feel like its nv ever going to heal again.. help..

the promises that u made u nv even kept.. and yet u say i doubt u.. im hurt.. im really hurt.. and u doubt me and check my everything.. i jus wanna see ur phone.. ahhhhhh.. fucked up.. im crazy, mad.. i nv ever sad till tis way.. nv pick up my calls.. yet can call others.. hais.. i shall say nothing more.. i jus cry in silent and let sadness carry on attack my whole life.. i guess i nv can be happy anymore again.. it hunts me everytime and everyday.. im really hurt badly..

i feel so fucked.. "shit"
i hate myself..
i really feel that u r leaving me..
i love u but u really hurt me too much..
i cant get over it.. i just cant..
u r really the one i love.. i only wanna be with u 1314..
i guess im jus a failure in love..
im sorry..

im fallen ill.. my forehead can fry an egg.. :(
all sad jus fallen on me..

do u still love me?

so it was T U SDAY..

went to skool as per normal.. nth much.. skool life's still as bored as playing yo yo that only can roll up and down.. ok, then after skool went to meet my da mei ren.. LOL.. wat an idea to explore the route of 21.. ok so took it off smoothly then after that pass tis primary skool.. omg, it was so noisy till we all have to speak so loudly.. and this poor ah pek was trying his very best and squeeze his ears so close to the phone and shout at the top of his voice jus to communicate with the person.. LOL.. ok then we saw tis cute girl trying to chase the bus.. and it was quite a stupid idea cus the bus stop was a million miles away.. and she still grab all her might, holding on her heavy bag and run as fast as she could.. and after the bus jus pass to far from her, she finally give up with disappointment in her face.. LOL.. ok.. so then went home after such a exciting explore..

so WENT NER SDAY..

went to carona meet dear.. nice tasty chicken cutlet.. and i cant drink china apple le.. went to psychology tutorial.. then know dear's fren rebecca chan.. hahaha.. ok..

so THE SDAY..

meet dear at 11pm.. skip pmgt went to meet stella.. i went to do my things then they say stella call me i nv hear and walk to canteen.. she ask me sit there and if there's a person is watching me.. so stupid sia.. and so ugly lor.. then skip maths again cus i told u its limitation ok? then went to sim lim.. walk round the whole god damn building and found out that they really dun repair monitors.. how sucky.. then was so tired.. wanna eat mos burger then alot of ppl then went to eat won ton mee.. ok, i was hungry.. then feed her.. then went off to walk icon.. so stupid small building.. i bought a handphone cover, still free water and biscuit.. like going to picnic.. lOL.. then saw transexual ppl then dont wanna take lift with them but they kept going up and down.. we still mus peep.. LOL.. then so pai seh dun dare to press the button cus inside got ppl so humjirou my dear.. LOL.. ok then went to bugis.. she diao a person and still do her trademark laughter.. hahahaha.. funny hor? then play daytona.. so stupid.. i do wrong stunt.. ok, dun wish to talk bout it.. went to play basketball.. ahhhh, stupid.. finals then lost.. how sad.. then wanna play soccer then found out its late.. so we r exploring the whole bugis area to find the bus stop that has bus 23.. LOL.. then walk and walk and walk and walk till we reach little india.. then finally we board the bus cus the smell its unbearable.. ok, saw my fren then chill for a while.. a call from mindy came and ask where's my dear.. then another call from fangyi ask where is she.. then another stupid call came not going.. then was like -0- "stunt".. LOL.. then went to tampines.. i forget to tap the my ez-link cus trying to say wanna take the single deck bus ma.. then fall asleep, so nice to sleep with dear.. then reach le.. go ecp straight away.. play wei lian game then saw a retrench guy very sad.. then went to settle down.. play and play.. then went home.. we took our bus and she went home first.. ok.. thats all..

yesterday was FRY DAY..

went to meet william they all.. eat, lecture then go play dota.. so long nv play with them and obviously i thrash them.. then play cs.. then tommy and his fren and guobin came.. we play a real dota game.. they lost we won and so happy.. then went to kbox.. wanted to sing till our hearts out but siliang came and we have to get out to pei him.. and also i wanna pei my dear so chill with them first.. then my pretty cute dear came, so cute and nice to have her hair tie.. then walk with her to century square metro play toys.. then saw this crazy frog.. so stupid sia.. then she kept pressing all the crazy frog tummys.. then all so noisy.. then walk and scroll around.. im a kind person i know.. then walk and walk.. then wanna go that time she so brave, counter was beside the shelf and she was at there kept pressing the tummy's of crazy frog.. then heard a commercial but went there finish le.. but who am i? im a electrical pro.. so i let her see again.. hahahaha.. so nice hor dear? hahaha.. then see her off.. saw tammy's porn.. full version.. she board the bus and i call my frens they at tp sia.. shit.. then took cab to orchard then went to dota.. found cash took it and our expense r covered.. then so happy but the happiest is the time with dear..

mwaks mwaks..
so love my pcd dear..

skool sucks..
monday sucks..
class sucks..
subjects suck..
lectures suck..
tutors suck..

i wanna change my fucking retard life.. how?

i feel my wings have broken in your hands
i feel the words unspoken inside
when they pull you underand i would give you any thing you want, no
you were all i wanted
all my dreams are fallin' down
crawlin' round (and round and round)

somebody save me
let your warm hands break right through
somebody save me
i don't care how you do it
just stay, stay
come on
i've been waiting for you

i see the world has folded in your heart
i feel the waves crash down inside
and they pull me under
and i would give you anything you want
you're, you're all i wanted
all my dreams have fallen down
crawlin round (and round and round)
somebody save melet your warm hands break right through
somebody save me
i dont' care how you do it
just stay here with me
i've made this whole world shine for you
just stay, staycome oni'm still waiting for you

save me anyone? pls..

skool sucks..
monday sucks..
class sucks..
subjects suck..
lectures suck..
tutors suck..

i wanna change my fucking retard life.. how?

yesterday was tuesday, (who dunno? crap)

then wake up at 8.45am, but still wanna sleep and afraid will overslept so drag my lazy ass up and went to the sofa to lie till 9am.. then when to do the killing housework and went to get ready up.. oh as soon as i expected, it was 10.45am.. rush out and chase the bus 83, went to pay off my bills and head straight to kallang.. omg, she late again, but anyway, i look over it..

went to sebawang, crap place.. then go i-mode, tradition came.. ok, then skip to sebawang HAVE SEBAwaNG.. ok, the arcade was crap.. and make my mrs pig wanna vomit.. then alot of skool kids around, then went to library read a scary ghost book looks like a fairy tale.. LOL.. then liling call, we went to woodlands.. then walk around finally land at arcade.. ok, she first i second in daytona.. so pro.. automatic kiddies.. lol.. then so fun play hockey with her.. hahahaha, first time play arcade with the one i love.. LOL, feel great.. ok, then went to look for stella they all, then heard them say they saw we smack our lips.. kinda shy and pai seh.. LOL.. ok, then went home.. the bloody 961 driver like some voodoo shit, sit the bus will feel vomit and headache..

today the xing hua fang damn nice.. and kinda emotion as i see till ku bao.. the 1 sentence from u may mean nothing to u but it means a million reason to kill a person.. we mus really think before saying.. hahaha, ok.. if u wanna watch please switch to channel 55 on 9pm or 255 at 12pm.. if u wanna watch repeat at 1pm on channel 55 or 4pm..

i love u lots lots my dear..

so it was thursday..

meet poh and tommy at 2.45pm.. im not late so sitting down with poh siliang and waited.. soon tommy came, chat bout some gay things then went to secret long john to wait for wee.. then walk to selegie min che say he's hungry and went over to have his favourite chicken rice.. and siliang get himself some very salty salty fish fried rice.. ok, so whatever no life.. after that went to play dota, then we won the first match and own them.. then they say revenge we play again and they won.. and they were talking craps bout us so? dota its about shouting and taunting so dont get fucked up by it.. tommy relax.. 5 v 5..

ok, we were fucked up and nothing to do so walk to bugis and went to min che shop then what the hell, he ask us go have fun first.. we r cheated so went to some lousy place.. what mega food court, only 3 food stalls and 1 drinks stall.. fuck the person, what mega? no choice, chicken rice then after dinner sit there chill play those childish ku ku passing game.. what pass message then the last one shout it out.. then funny cus those secrets bout siliang and the ulgy bitch mei mei.. LOL.. so so so bored.. then went play pool, me and danny dancing playing with each other breast and the place is really quite nice.. not bad.. then left a few of us cus most of them hav probation and the first time i see siliang so desperate for cab.. ok then saw kok wai.. so long nv see him then so shocked.. then they say play dota and my hp say its going to reach 10.. so i went home and suddenly we remember we forgot to sign out the msn at lan shop.. fuck leh, always forget.. lOL.. then try to console ourself say "aiya nothing happen la.. we nv cb ppl, ppl wont cb us." ok.. then went home.. everybody was giving me the strange stare, what the hell..

that's all.. but i was worrying bout my mrs pig the whole whole day..
get well soon dear.. i wanna play scissors paper stone.. HAHAHAHA..

love you lots..

i am surprisingly blogging using my own lousy lappy.. cus my papa took off his lappy to work and dont wanna let me use.. booo.. i need a brand new com.. god please advice my papa to buy me a new com by sending a msg in his dreams or something.. thanks.. i really really need a new com..

ok, im trying to encourage my lappy not to black out at tis important moment.. i love u my lappy.. please stand by me..

hmm, monday..

went to yishun with mrs pig.. then the place is kinda for ah ma and ah gong and aunties and smelly school kids cus there's totally nth to shop around.. what the hell, its bloody small and there's not even any trendy shops only for mini toons when u can stand down there trying to act like u r shopping but actually listening to the pcd album.. rite? LOL.. ok, then tradition came and maybe its jus too bored in yishun and really such a lousy place.. i advice that yishun is not a good place for couples and i give it 1 star as its cold storage panda biscuit is nice.. but for other things, it sucks, the arcade dun even have marvel vs capcom 2..

then we move to woodlands.. ok, the mos burger was great and my dear beat me on eating fish burger as i kinda like let her win u know? LOL.. the fish burger is awesome over there, please do try it.. its the best burger in mos burger as hong kong even have their outlets.. LOL.. Mountain Ocean Sun rocks.. smack u back danny poh and others who say mos burger sucks.. cus burger too small.. booo shit.. jus nice cus its fries is kinda big but my fries is bigger.. for those dunno, then forget it.. LOl.. then milk tea if u nv add the milk is call ice lemon tea.. cus mrs pig told me n i find it untruth.. if those who wanna discuss tis u can kindly tag at my tagbox.. thanks.. then i did a wrong thing and i really regret it.. so rush back home then send dear home then watch superband along the way home and its so nice till i dun wanna alight the bus.. LOl..

that's monday..

tuesday stinks cus i dint bathe till 3.. so?

wednesday..

im sorry my dear causing ur forehead to pain.. its kinda crap when she jus bugs me like tt.. ok, i kinda like play too hard.. sorry dear.. forgive this ignorant soul ok? to forgive its divine.. ok, she was dead hungry and we when to rivervale mall to get some burgers and what buy a meal free fantastic.. so funny sia.. make me gian about the food.. stupid macdonalds.. stop making me wanna eat.. ntuc dun have the tree trunk biscuit and did i told u where to buy the panda biscuit? its meant to be a secret cus its secret shop.. please dont spread this secret.. thanks.. and my mama appear on tv.. u all know ma? LOL.. ok who cares?

then i almost forgot tt a auntie ride bicycle ask us if there's anyone at the basketball court.. so funny sia.. LOL.. then we walk home eat watch tv and she talk to her long lost minfat and ab.. then watch tv again, eat roti prata her fave.. then the games starts.. i rocks.. hahahahaha.. omg, yesterday was like the best of my life.. i made a history.. and the sprite ice thingy is so fun.. LOL.. so cool and yet so fun.. its a fun fun day.. alrite then every fun things has to come to a dinner at punggol xiaowanmian..

ok that's a fun wednesday and im really sorry my dear.. really sorry.. hope u get well soon, mwaks mwaks.. loving u for the rest of my life.. take care..

today is thursday..
i think i nv go out today.. kind off..

tuesday,

meet dear.. come my house.. eat play then she met her stella to eat and go punggol plaza to shop around the big big ntuc..

wednesday,

dear bought paus and chilli crab cup noodles.. i steam the paus n cook the noodles.. she's tired.. slept.. then same take out her **a zh* then saw my cute things.. then really 1 cent not worth it.. but i will love u only for my whole life dear.. then went home..

thursday,

dear came my house, sleep, then we late to meet lll and stella.. i bring umbrella the first time.. then eat ljs.. send dear to busstop then happenings..

thats life..

i love you my dear always.. no matter what happen, we will always be tog.. mwaks..

i am crazy, i am frustrated, i am mad, i am what i dont know what i am.. i am falling down..



moodless monday.. its bullshit.. argh..