wednesday..

go harbourfront then go big watch a kid play some racing game then tradition..

thursday..

go downtown east see see walk walk tradition see see walk walk at home sleep..



eugene : "i am tearing up inside." -sigh-
its just a disappointment..

i lied in a painful way.. i rather be sad on my own than to have you sad with me.. maybe its the best solution anyway as u seems to have some trouble of ur own.. u may not like it but its better this way..

whatever and whatsoever.. i've go through it already and now i know happiness is by choices..

whatever.. its just my favourite term..

ahhh, yes.. at last i can blog le.. but after i blog tis dunno when i can blog again.. LOL..

recently has been so pissed off by my com so bullshit.. how i wish i can have a new com and play dota like a crazy child..

today..

i know it will suck but i try to get busy with my stuff..

yesterday..

meet late king at kallang.. okok, dont say le.. hahahaha.. then when to dohby ghaut.. see a girl the shirt not nice.. then walk walk walk.. kept taking lifts.. walk here and there then look at the kid playing xbox 360 before eating colin's rice.. then kept talking talking feeding my little princess.. then i so cute yet she say i act cute.. we went to factory.. see so many games, so long still play puzzle bubble.. LOL.. then play voilin still can fight.. then tis guy drive the gtr so pro.. but i dun really think so.. his drifting so lousy and yet he always so fucking heng.. hahahaha.. watever.. i dunno y we see for so long till he lost.. hahahaha.. then went to see yamaha music skool then she say she know how to play all the instrument.. after that when to spotlight.. i cant believe she's a lousy housewife and we actually can play a long time at there.. so stupid lor.. and she is a ji kong so like to play the fan and still act cute holding on the wand.. LOL.. then make me smell those disgusting things.. so yucks lor dear.. then went to mph.. we are such a knowledgable ppl.. LOL.. hahaha, then read wat dragon and rabbit and tiger book.. find out tt im actually a tiger.. then read about food.. LOL.. then she her delicious kueh bahit.. lOl.. then still see her cute kacheek.. hahahaha.. then see those ppl on top.. then went to the cathy there act hamjirou.. LOL.. then walk to the cinema.. i wanna tap her ez link card but cant.. LOL.. ok then went home.. she dont believe me bout the cant go mrt station.. saw alot of ppl then got a group very er xin still follow us everywhere.. ok, then lmg.. then ok.. take the next 62.. same old same old..

really miss my dear lots lots.. although we met each other but i still miss her alot.. i love you so much dear.. always needing u..

sunday

:(

i dont know if you dont understand or you never really pay attention bout me.. i always say i study at night.. and i told you always but i dont know why you still ask me to.. i just wanna chat, cant we just chat? just saying hello and the next is buzz me off.. why juscant people t stop ordering me and let me carry on to my own plans.. if i wanna do it then i do.. when i say i will study i will.. dont need to push me away..

no matter what you see
you always look blind to me
nobody take me seriously
all alone this is eugene

friday,

meet the stupid lao lan dear.. hahahaha.. meeting her at prime bus stop.. hahaha.. then went to watch hfh.. then got a part very long is very funny.. hhahhaa.. so then run around again.. i fall, leg pain.. then dunno do wat le.. then ok tt's all.. LOL.. no highlights for the day.. hahah.. stupid tommy nv ask me along to play dota.. dear, a promise is a promise ok? trust me and give me time.. im a mand of my words alrite?

loving u always my dear..

thursday..

i dunno what happen.. first part of life was like heaven.. the other part was like hell.. i just dont understand why.. i willing to lose my pride my dignity my life for her.. i give in always and always.. i just dont understand.. y girls have to cry and guys must console her? maybe is fated for my life to be like tis.. when im serious in somethings, it just will make me sad.. you are really important to me.. hais..

life is not going smoothly as i plan..
why cant i just kill myself..
arf..

today (wednesday)

special today.. i nv comb hair and travel to kallang meet my dear.. she so loved to chill at the mrt station while i pulling her go to badminton court and macdonalds.. LOL.. almost scared her but too bad she turn back.. hahaha.. stupidity, meet her then come my house, but not straight.. alight off the stupid dunno where busstop and walk a long long long way to rivervale mall.. really so hot and make our mood hot too.. but the playground is really fun.. now i know how to play jingle bells and row row row your boat.. stupid dear.. LOl.. then bought ljs and ock.. then say what i look at food very funny.. LOl.. ok, then walk back home, she cant le.. then ok everything was ok.. then then then.. tired but she pulled me up to clean my house.. then i saw her doing something strange.. SHE TOOK OFF HER *** ***.. lol, u know i know only ok? so stupid lor.. she took off wear again took off wear again.. LOL.. then i lock her up say what wait for my mama then really wait for my mama and ya la, ur clothes really very auntie de nice.. LOL..

yesterday (tuesday)

study play talk eat go home.. that's all..

1 day before yesterday (monday)

ok, when to the enlightment lecture, it was really the best dfund lecture i ever went.. ok, was pretty sick cus i was alone.. went to meet my dear.. so hide lor.. then silent journey to boon lay.. bloody hell, it was like going to hell.. so far and long.. then when to find cinema, such stupid dear, dun even know how to read the arrow.. ahhaha, then queue up and found out the show was 4.20pm.. still have 2++ hours.. wah wah wah, dunno who's idea went to toy 'r' us.. we spend almost our whole lifetime there lor.. kept play around like so fun over there.. and somethings r disgusting and not fun like the sharks, pull stuff, snakes, slimy ball.. it really sucks.. ok, we saw a boy i help him and he wanna join me for he man fanstastic adventure, a young girl nv wear bra, lots more.. LOl.. then the dorm movie really nice and tt's the best movie i ever watch with her.. LOl.. then went to walk around.. she stupid dont dig bout my toilet things.. then went to kiddy palace.. discuss bout this and that like cute hor cute hor.. LOL.. she dislike those fat fat clothes.. then she went home and i went home.. LOL.. fun day with an enjoyable happy time with my dearest..

the rest of my life i only wanna be with you..
my only one and important is you my lim mei wern..
love you only and so much..
mwaks..

yesterday..

first part of my life was real bored.. accompany my dear chat the whole day till evening.. hmm, then call me sing ask me sing twinkle little star kelly version.. LOl.. then i was really late, tommy was on time.. then we conference.. then i reached, wait for late wee, then we move to meridian play pool.. oh, i was pro and then noob and then pro again.. then eat, went to find min che, then dota, then chill at his shop.. all this happen so fast that i dint know it was 11.30pm.. so i call back and ask for ton, but sian la.. ok, then i really really nv call my dear as the fucking dota la, play so long.. i really dint forget to call u dear.. im sorry.. then say wat i kua her phone, what is this lor.. stupid dear.. ok, then talk ar talk till reach home, bathe, sleep..

today,

i dont even know what happen.. so not smooth morning.. then ok abit smooth, then not smooth, then very smooth but she gone le.. LOL.. my dear, dont get angry le ok? i dint mean what i said, i love you so so much.. haaha, then say what so hungry.. such words from her mouth is so amazing and glad.. hoping she can really grow fat, but average fat can le, dont go overboard ok? LOL, like 60-70 ok? LOl.. dont like 80 or 90 wah, i dunno what to say.. LOL.. ok, then whole day bored out.. i dunno what i was doing all day long.. ok.. that's all.. if i say more sian.. hahaha..

i love you lim mei wern,
wo ai ni lim mei wern,
aku cinta kamu lim mei wern,
simi lan simi lan simi lan if somebody is a terroist..

i just love my lim mei wern so much..
missing you..

RECAP..

today,
nth much.. met dear, came my house.. then went to meet stella, saw her papa, meiwern nv call him.. then lol, my fault again.. then she not happy with me for the ice tea, sorry dear, i will change my habit ok? love u always.. then she went off meeting her fren.. then i dont wish to carry on as everything is so fucking sian so i was force to blog..

yesterday,
kbox and dota.. fun and happy.. this wee, is suddenly so pro in dota.. hahahaha, i wonder he is playing at home ma.. tommy is sad.. LOL.. but still it was a great day..

tuesday,
dear came my house.. h to t.. so happy hor? LOL.. then we spend our happy times together.. really love her alot.. lets kept our secret together, i know i will do what i should do ok? LOL..

monday,
went ecp.. its been so long.. LOL.. go what find her sandra end up smelly stinky fishes at giant.. ok, then went to ecp saw this and that.. tis dear is so busybody bout everything.. then stupid dear, pain also never tell me and i pb her all the way, heavier than tommy.. LOL.. hahahaha.. pls accept the fact.. but i really do enjoy the monday with her.. its been long since we have such a great and happy time together.. really love her 1314..

i got a story for everyone..
1 day a ball with a cylinder shape was tied to a huge stone by a string and thrown down to the sea.. day after day, wave after wave, the ball remain unchange and stay the position for a long time.. tis shows that im settled down with the woman that i treasure alot, lim meiwern.. loving you for the rest of my life.. nothing and never will we be seperated as our love is everlasting.. no matter what, i will always be there by your side and loving, caring for you.. mwaks..

i have to blind myself from now on.. seeing those things just upset me.. its better to runaway as i do not know how to face the problems.. fuck off from my life will you? why god have to always make things difficult for me..

sickening people im disgusted by their action..

haha.. friday..

went dota with william, so long nv see him.. kinda miss him [not gay].. LOL.. well, first thing he say me was "fuck you la, jia sheng me dian hua".. LOL.. then he n tommy will kept say me n meiwern living in our own world ignoring all those people out there.. anyway, i only love and care for my dear, dint give a shit to other people views.. we kept playing short games, then danny came.. we play a serious and we own.. LOL, it was really damn fun and funny..

when to cineleisure.. ahh, fuck the place, full of people.. then when yoshinoya after that straight to k box.. les fren came and we jus rock the house down.. LOL.. everything was cool and fun but tommy seems odd.. LOL.. anyway, wee fucker, go scold the kbox girl.. LOL.. ok, we sang till the person chase us out, we still got so many songs sia, cant extend the time.. ok, then we went to find les.. thinking of tonning with tommy, i decided to went home..

but i missing my dear..
loving her so much..

venting anger post..

i hate critics.. i hate those people that talk shit bout me.. why are there some bastards love to do this to me? have i offended them in some ways? if i have, why not tell me straight up.. this really sucks.. why people have to make love so difficult for me.. im angry but what can i do? i dont wish to make things difficult for her.. sucks.. this sucks..

anyway, i will start to take anything easy now.. if anything i can do to please her i will.. as long as she's happy i willing to do anything in this world..

i just love u lots..

those people that is reading my blog, i hope u can help me keep this secret that i have..

thanks..

this morning, i jus overheard my parents quarrelling.. its jus 5.30am.. its so early its so shit already.. i was scared and i was sad.. why does my dad wanna have an affair outside? isnt this family not good for him? i began to hate him cus its not the first time.. and my mama, she jus cant take the pressure.. quarrel is jus their mode of conversation.. i dont know what my dad is thinking.. i really hate him.. willing to waste all the money on a bitch than not increase my allowance or feeding this family.. fuck it.. and still expect so much from me.. everything jus feel so fucked up.. i wanna runaway, but where can i run to.. and wat about my mama? all this stress, i just turn to smoking.. i know it cant help me but when u jus light up the cig, it numbs ur brain and stops the brain from suffering those shits..

so that's what im build up from.. a fucked up family.. but im trying to act like there's nth happen and live my life to the happiest.. everybody just know me for craps and happiness i bring.. but nobody know my skeleton in my closet.. i turn to rap songs cus what those rappers sing, its the world we living.. love songs are just fantasy that make u feel lonelier.. that's what i think..

i know i have a girl beside me to stand by me.. but i hate to bother her with the shit i have in life.. but im still a dog that need her pat on me and encourage me in things i did well.. cus i really need the feeling of im exist in this world n understand what i really need.. sometimes i really hate the joke of other guys watever or watever shit bout other guys.. it just fucked me up more.. compare and contrast fuck that.. i just wanna be as simple as possible.. sometimes i really think that those guys around her are so much better than me maybe that 1 day those guys start to go for her i may lose out.. she ask me to trust her i trust her.. but sometimes my brain just start to be malfunction and things will get worst.. malfunction as there is something fucking me on tt day.. like today.. love, i dedicated all my heart and soul i jus need u to trust me on tis.. u said u trust me but it dont seems to be..

i love you, will u please learn how to trust me?
i really give all i have.. why u still dun believe me..
i love u only for my whole life..
dont say forever if u dont trust me..

i really hate those gossips that wanna talk shit bout me.. if dont know me dun talk shit bout me.. i will kill u motherfuckers.. and u dun need to tell her stuff that she dont like me to do and make her doubt bout me.. and dear, if u hav any doubt jus ask me straight, i will answer it all with truth.. i jus really hate those bastard that gossips.. if im a prick in ur eyes so be it.. if u not happy bout it, come deal with me no need to turn to her.. punks..

hais.. i dont wish to carry on to this sad post..

so many problems in my life.. i wanna wash those stains away but it just stick with me all the time..

WELCOME TO THE SUCK..