boring sickening monday.. all bout waiting and thinking..

i've been wondering.. friends and love.. i choose love but friends says not steady.. i choose friends but love say im not having enough time with her.. middle man sucks.. why i cant really think of a win-win situation where everyone is happy? i cant give up either one, cus i really need them in life.. dilemma, what the hell.. another pressure that adds up..

thinking bout army life after watching "JAR HEAD". nice show well, maybe for me..

wake up, bathe, washing my face, go for a walk.. thinking of what to buy end up buying nothing but a meal in long john and saw stella.. LOL, kinda surprising..

dunno where's my dear disappear to.. doesnt seems to have any contact with her today.. i really feel so empty.. expecting her to reply my msg, hmm.. but dunno where's she is.. thinking maybe she's angry with me? no idea..

doing nothing but playing lastknights.. wow, going to be a green rank soon how's exciting but still not happy cus i really miss my dear.. where are she? how i know? really feel so alone..

dear, i really miss u..
where are you? waiting and waiting for your reply..
its painful to wait but i hate to bug you by sending another msg..
loving you and needing you always..
:( lalala missing you..