sad past bright future?

nobody love to dig out the past they have. but when sometimes some people do, we just went hay wired. cause they wont know how it feels as those pains we've been gone through.

im settled down with you for my whole life.
so dont have any other thoughts alright?
i truely love you and wanna hold you tight.
for this i know my future with you will be bright.

EUGENE TAN JUST LOVE HIS 1 AND ONLY LIM MEI WERN FOR THE WHOLE OF HIS LIFE.

happy valentine's day..

its a wild day.. i cant believe it that my dear is crazy and do some disgusting stuff.. im so belong to her rite now.. LOL.. SHE IS INCREDIBLE.. LOL..

saw a bunch of friendly people.. but saw this sad case that my dear is so busybody about it.. LOL.. and kept comment.. LOL.. hahahahahahaa..

ok, currently rushing to meet a late queen that say meet at 1pm but now already 1.13pm..

i only belong and love lim mei wern forever.. IM VOODOOED.. LOL..

boring sickening monday..

thinking bout army life after watching "JAR HEAD". nice show well, maybe for me..

wake up, bathe, washing my face, go for a walk.. thinking of what to buy end up buying nothing but a meal in long john and saw stella.. LOL, kinda surprising..

dunno where's my dear disappear to.. doesnt seems to have any info bout her today.. i really feel so empty.. expecting her to reply my msg, hmm.. but dunno where's she is.. thinking maybe is she angry with me? no idea..

doing nothing but playing lastknights.. wow, going to be a green rank soon how's exciting but still not happy cus i really miss my dear.. where are she? how i know? really feel so alone..

dear, i really miss u..
where are you? waiting and waiting for your reply..
its painful to wait but i hate to bug you by sending another msg..
dilemma, what the hell..
loving you and needing you always..
:( lalala missing you..

boring sickening monday.. all bout waiting and thinking..

i've been wondering.. friends and love.. i choose love but friends says not steady.. i choose friends but love say im not having enough time with her.. middle man sucks.. why i cant really think of a win-win situation where everyone is happy? i cant give up either one, cus i really need them in life.. dilemma, what the hell.. another pressure that adds up..

thinking bout army life after watching "JAR HEAD". nice show well, maybe for me..

wake up, bathe, washing my face, go for a walk.. thinking of what to buy end up buying nothing but a meal in long john and saw stella.. LOL, kinda surprising..

dunno where's my dear disappear to.. doesnt seems to have any contact with her today.. i really feel so empty.. expecting her to reply my msg, hmm.. but dunno where's she is.. thinking maybe she's angry with me? no idea..

doing nothing but playing lastknights.. wow, going to be a green rank soon how's exciting but still not happy cus i really miss my dear.. where are she? how i know? really feel so alone..

dear, i really miss u..
where are you? waiting and waiting for your reply..
its painful to wait but i hate to bug you by sending another msg..
loving you and needing you always..
:( lalala missing you..

Today's TOPIC : Challenges..

we see this in every area in our lifes, love, studies, work and all sorts of things.. what are challenges? something that will push us to the limit and unleashed our potential? for such a simple guy like me, i hate challenge.. i have no faith in winning ever since.. but still challenges are always there for me.. i dunno why but it is sick.. FUCK THOSE CHALLENGERS.. i dont need this kind of pressure.. anyway, fuck it.. im sick of competition and im lazy to compete.. im just tired and do not wish to be disappointed..

so bottom line,
im not a competitive type.. and i really hate to be judged or compared.. if someone better then lets just pretend to say i will still love you and leave.. maybe that can help me to at least smile while i walk away..

i love you,
with all my heart..
LIM MEI WERN I LOVE YOU..

i feel sadness in my bones.

i thought i found the one i can be with.

end up it hurts more than i can imagine it.

scars has been torn open.

its bleeding,

eugene's life ends here.

it was the best saturday i ever have..
things happen, but it still end up great..
life with my dear is so cool,
tiring, hungry, injuries, secretly..

i love you my dear,
love you till forever,
wont leave you till the rest of my life,
stuck with you forever..

what a saturday..
it may not go out smooth, but it was the best saturday i ever had..
i love you lots dear,
wont ever leave you,
i promise..

i love you forever,
cling on you till the rest of my life..
happy yet tired..

who know what's beneathe me? everybody only see my surfaces which i act like im a happy person.. nobody know's who's me..

sick of my life which currently life is so bad till i spit on it and vomit..