What's love?

do we know the answer? do we even know how to love? will we leave each other after a certain point of time.. u say u trust me but im feeling u r just purely saying that to comfort me.. "i love you forever. i wanna be with forever." what's all these things when there's no trust in it? Faith.. all i need is u having FAITH in me.. i suffering, i sacrificing, i willing do changes just to be ur dream guy.. i loved to be myself, i really do.. but i jus love u more than i love myself.. that's y i making changes, but in the end, i dont see any praises, i dont see any happiness, all i can see is sadness.. i never change to get all this, i just want u to be happy.. although im depressed, i try to joke n make u happy.. cus i know, i love you..

im living in shits.. everyday i came home, i jus saw my mama crying, i jus saw my dad's sleeping.. what's all this? where's those family atmosphere i see in the tv? my mama wanna divorce, my dad's having an affair.. who's the fucking victim.. me.. its fucking me.. who give a shit bout my feeling.. all u all know is think for urself, what bout me? u know im suffering? u know i'll jus be a problem child? what future will i have when im living in this kind of family? i just dont believe in love n i just dont trust marriage.. why are you all so irresponsible and give me these thoughts? im grown up, i know what's right what's wrong.. but no matter how old i am, i need a family isnt tt rite? i need to be loved..

I HATE ME. I HATE MY LIFE.. I HATE ALL THIS SICKENING STUFF THAT'S HAPPENING.. IM BREAKING DOWN.. BUT NOBODY CARES.. WHAT'S THE POINT OF LIVING? NOBODY APPRECIATES ME.. IM JUST A NOBODY.. NOTHING IS RIGHT.. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.. FUCKED UP..

BURN MYSELF INTO ASHES..