ITS NEW YEAR EVE.. I AM ALONE AT HOME AND EVERYBODY OUT THERE SHOULD BE HAPPY CELEBRATING WITH FAMILIES AND FRIENDS AND LOVE ONES.. I WISH EVERYBODY WOULD HAVE A WONDERFUL 2006 AND I WISH LIM MEIWERN WILL BE THE HAPPIEST PERSON IN THIS WORLD..

DO YOU KNOW ME? I GUESS NOBODY TRUELY UNDERSTAND ME EVEN THE ONE I LOVE.. AM I SECOND TO NONE? I DUNNO.. AND SHE DONT BELIEVE ME ANYMORE.. ITS BECAUSE I KEPT HURTING HER.. I DONT WISH TO DO THAT BUT WHY THIS KEPT HAPPENING.. KARMA JUST BITES ME.. I DONT WANNA SEE HER SAD.. I DUN WANNA SEE HER CRY.. I LOVE HER ALOT.. IM REALLY BEATEN.. I REALLY HATE QUARRELS, I REALLY HATE TO HURT YOU, I REALLY DUNNO WHAT TO DO.. CAN YOU TELL ME WHAT I SHOULD DO TO MAKE U BELIEVE ME AGAIN? I REALLY LOVE YOU.. PLEASE DONT BE LIKE THIS.. THE WAY YOU SAY IT, YOU ARE LIKE LEAVING ME AND TURNING AWAY FROM ME.. I DONT WANNA LEAVE YOU, I LOVE YOU.. AND I ALWAYS DO.. ITS TRUE.. PLEASE DONT BE LIKE TIS.. IT HURTS.. I REALLY LOVE YOU..

I AM TRYING HARD TO BE YOUR PREFECT GUY YOU WISH.. EVERYTHING YOU WISH I TRY HARD TO MAKE IT CAME TRUE.. I REALLY WANT YOU DEAR.. PLEASE COME BACK TO ME..

IF I COULD CHANGE I WOULD,
TAKE BACK THE PAIN I WOULD,
RETRACE EVERY WRONG MOVE THAT I MADE I WOULD
IF I COULD MAKE YOU HAPPY I WOULD,
IF I COULD MAKE YOU SMILE I WOULD..
IF I COULD STOP MAKING YOU SAD I WOULD..
IF I COULD STOP HURTING YOU I WOULD..
IF I COULD BE WITH YOU FOREVER I WOULD..
IF I COULD HAVE THE CHANCE TO LOVE YOU FOREVER I WOULD..

I REALLY DONT KNOW WAT TO DO NOW.. I FEEL SO LOST.. THE ONE I REALLY LOVE SEEMS TO HATE ME.. WHAT SHOULD I DO.. I FEEL SO TROUBLE.. IM SORRY.. PLEASE COME BACK TO ME.. MEIWERN.. PLEASE.. I CAN STILL GIVE YOU THE HAPPINESS YOU NEED.. DONT LEAVE ME OR HATE ME.. TRUST ME AND BELIEVE ME.. I REALLY LOVE YOU ONLY..

NEW YEAR EVE..
IM STUCKING ALONE AT HOME,
LOCKING MYSELF IN THE ROOM..
BURSTING WITH TEARS,
BLAST MY HIFI,
JUMPING UP AND DOWN,
KNOCKING MY HEAD,
COUGHING TILL MY LUNGS OUT,
SHOUTING TILL MY THROAT BLEEDS,
CUTTING MYSELF,
FEEL THE RUSH OF IT,
LETTING THOSE BAD BLOODS FLOW OUT..
MAYBE THAT WILL CHANGE MY LIFE
AND I WILL REBIRTH TO BE A GREAT PERSON FOR YOU..
I AM SORRY..
I WILL BE BETTER..
I REALLY PROMISE..

SOMETIMES I JUS WISH I COULD BE DEAD, I WONT MAKE PPL SUFFER AND I MYSELF WONT SUFFER.. MAYBE ITS JUS A GD RUNAWAY METHOD.. I HATE MYSELF.. I REALLY DO..