happy birthday to yanda..

today indeed is not my day.. it just too much to handle for me..

morning, i was blind.. i was force to wear a damn baggy pants cus i cant found any.. then when i going out, my mom found it in my wardrobe.. yes, WTF.. ok, i was bloody late.. then squeeze the bloody mrt.. lousy morning.. but manage to get over it cus panda is my happy potion..

ok, skool sux.. i dunno y my psps project i do with 2 girls.. lousy planning.. but i guess i no need to do.. hahahahaha.. i'll sure be the one to present.. OK, AUTO-CAD SUX.. ITS A SUBJECT TT DRAW SOME SHIT FLOOR PLAN AND IS KILLING ME.. FUCK THE SUBJECT.. ITS TORTURING ME, DEVOURING ME, DISMEMBER ME, ROTTING ME.. WHAT THE HELL.. I AM SICK OF IT.. but manage to get over it with my bros..

but then.. so suddenly.. it happens.. it totall bring me to the ground.. ok, i was shedding my tears.. thinking bout those experience.. it sucks.. but it happen again.. how? what should i do? who takes the blame? maybe i should take the blame.. maybe just maybe.. it really kills me.. all i want is jus pure n simple.. yet somethings jus need to happen.. im tired, im sick.. i wanna go home.. but will you please leave me alone? i mite jus lose myself..

i love you lots.. i miss you lots.. i want you lots.. i need you lots.. dear, can i hug u to sleep every nite? cus im scared..

why why why
sun shine too bright it blind
i am not feeling fine
and all i can do is whine..

i love you forever..
i need you so much rite now..

weekends bored me out..

it sucks to be the only child..

i bored with everything at home..

scv, xbox, computer cant do it..

thinking bout the past..

kinda laugh at it now..

no more shedding tears when thought of it..

feeling happy n enjoying my life with panda now..

life feel so gd with she around..

Yesterday was a wonderful day..

ok, skool's not.. LOL.. went to skool for just 1 tutorial.. 10-11.. only.. then so free go tommy lect with wee.. then went to meet frens at city plaza.. LOL.. okok, we went to eat.. quite nice but there the environment so.. LOL.. saw alot of malaysian.. speaking canto.. hahahaa..

off to grand link.. dota match.. lost 1 win 1.. LOL.. 2nd match was totally ownage.. ok, dota is boring.. N im sorry dear.. i finish at 5pm, n was bout to call her she call me.. ok, so she went to airport again.. so lOL.. then meet her at 6.30pm.. ok, i was too early to reach there.. so i kept waiting for bus36 to see her.. n i feel so nervous.. LOL..

ok, so i call her when it reach 7pm.. LOL, she so late lor hor.. i give u 15 mins grace u also late.. LOL.. she say she was at traffic light, with my pro eyes i saw her.. LOL, so we walk round at around at starbuck.. then we finally walk to city hall.. see museum, mango.. we wanna wait for the mango to drop, then i give up.. LOL.. then i wanna chill n happy, this panda kept pulling me away.. oh ya, i was very hungry, this panda forever not hungry with me.. so strange.. dear, can i hope when u out with me, u dun eat for the whole day till u meet me then we go eat ok? LOL lor.. always not hungry.. then told me she eat wat POPEYE? or watever.. then so crazy the whole thing.. ok, i kept laughing when walking the citylink.. see this girl got tattoo.. so cool.. but panda stop me from looking, okok, i dun look at girls except u ok dear? then my tt stuff kept droping down.. dunno y.. make me so embarrass hav to adjust in the open.. LOL.. oh we saw alot of batman too.. still hav batman underwear.. LOL..

saw my frens at esplanade doing breakdance.. wanna join them but panda was around.. LOL.. ok, we saw alot of food.. but she dun want any.. i wanna buy her cake, but she dun want any.. the whole day i only spend on my cab fare lor.. i draw alot of money out, yet i spend $13.80.. i feel so bad nv spend on her.. ok, we chill at esplanade.. we talk alot.. her hair smell so nice, but she dun wanna tell me the brand.. stupid panda.. nv say earlier hair has oil, make me taste it without knowing.. then alot of ppl come around us to take the merlion.. nv see it before meh? then tis 2 fillipino came n take photo.. so crazy, take so many n so long still haven finish.. then kept smiling at us.. LOL.. then we saw a big fish in the river.. tis panda so stupid say tt it is dead.. LOL.. so surprising to saw such a big fish.. ok, then she dun wanna let me see my legs.. everything she help me do.. LOL.. stupid panda.. then i gave her my snoopy tissue.. cool rite? so nice lor.. the tissue hav snoopy also lor.. then we play around for the whole day.. she say my chinese is pro.. LOL.. fang fu.. LOL.. then i am very deep today.. hahahaha.. such wonderful moment with her.. how i wish tt the time will just stop, n we can enjoy the moment for the rest of my life..

ok, then went home.. this panda really crazy.. ni feng le ok?.. wanna piggy back me.. LOL.. i scared her back bone break.. LOL.. kept trying.. LOL.. so weak tis panda.. then she say wear skirt i cant piggy back her.. since when there's such rule.. LOL.. walk back home, still stop me from seeing her legs.. then walk walk walk, she angry, again say i look at girls.. she ask me to look, then i beg her to let me see her only.. oK, we walk to mrt.. saw her legs, she say she tattoo then got dots dots.. tis panda, always dun wanna take care of herself, injuries everywhere.. LOL.. come, i take care of u ok? ok, then take cab home, tis driver, talk dialect to me.. i talk chinese he dun understand.. then i talk dialect he dunno wat im saying.. so i went to the front seat n point for the whole journey.. LOL.. ok, then sleep..

happy birthday my dear panda..
may ur wishes will be granted..
stay happy always..
happy sweeet 17..

i love u lots lots dear..
love u 1314..
my love for u is just getting deeper n deeper each day..

it has been an angry week lately..

all i have to say is FUCK YOU..

FUCK ALL THE MOTERFUCKERS.. GO AWAY..

DUN COME N DISTURB ME.. YOU UNDERSTAND?

WHY YOU ALL LOVE TO SNATCH MY STUFF?

I GIVE UP OK?

I GAVE UP.. GO AHEAD.. ITS YOURS..

JUST FUCK OFF..

THANK YOU..

i feel troubled..

i feel sad..

i feel confused..

i feel it again..

can i stop it?

it seems difficult..

only i can help myself..

i dun want history to repeat..

i feel like breaking down..

I FEEL LIKE REALITY IS TAKING ME AWAY FROM EVERYTHING..

DAMN YOU SOCIETY.. GOD DAMN YOU..

today's anger is taking all over me..

i wanna hurt nobody
i jus cant take it to be a sadist
tis is not like me, i cant take it
leave me alone, let me get over it..

im angry, i turning green.. no use.. nobody can save me.. it's all bout me.. yes me, im the one.. one n only me.. save myself.. argh..

off to the melody of limp bizkit.. burn my mind n ears.. i leaning on ur voices.. yeah..

FRIDAY

quite stupid day.. went to skool at 11am.. first lab lesson for epdes.. ok, so teacher was funny, cool, lesson ends early.. then went to pavilion do nth, so come back to skool to wait for panda n went to IT skool to have lunch.. so LOL.. after finished our lunch, we stay down there to play around.. there's a group of girls laughing loudly behind us.. then we count to 3 to turn back n look at them.. they all stop laughing n so pai seh n so stun.. LOL.. funny.. then we do alot of funny stuff.. then dave come.. so he trying to disturb me n laugh at me.. then when he sit down, we all go off. hahaahaha, he so pai seh sia.. the look on his face make me laugh like hell.. hahahahahahaa.. ok, then we try it on tommy.. same funny.. hahahaa.. i very worry bout panda for the engine draw.. she seems to hate the subject.. i hope i can help her.. ask me for help ok? i help u draw la ok? come come.. dun sad..

ok, meet panda, then go grandlink play dota.. i can see her boriness, as she sit there do nth.. hmm, ok, then we went to ecp.. walk walk walk n walk n walk the whole day.. LOL.. we saw soldiers marching over there.. we saw alot of things.. especially alot of arrogant n haolian ppl.. LOL.. ok, we r soldiers too.. then we were walking round the ticket machine.. went mac, then this girl say parkway mac is better.. along the way to parkway, we play blind game.. hahahahaa, so funny n so fun.. so nice lor.. lets play again.. then we eat eat.. see the mac tv.. then walk to library busstop cus there is less ppl.. 3rd 31.. she see me home again.. worry bout her.. have lots of fun with her today.. no smoking day, quitting for her.. love her so much..

i love u forever panda..
eugene tan love lim meiwern

Yesterday, was a million miles away..

ok, today when skool at 12pm.. meet my fren, he late.. first time i was earlier than him.. cool.. hahhhahahaa.. went to psps, then this teacher say im liping.. LOL, im a guy, how can i hav a gay name? LOL.. then later i know liping raise up her hand when my name was call.. okOK.. i sit with joanna, LOL.. then do tis group discussion bout some learning style.. LOL.. ok, we were all quiet n looking at each other.. so joanna take the initiative to start the ball rolling.. LOL.. ok, so i present.. ok, very bad.. hahahaha.. ok, break.. eat.. ok, cus no smoking day, went there earlier n maths test.. wow, maths table is helpful, LOL.. ok, not bad n not gd for the quiz.. ok, then go autocad.. stupid lesson teach by china teachers.. LOL, communication problem.. ok, i dint listen to the teacher teaching, n figure out myself how it works.. wow, im so brilliant.. LOL, sorry for hao lian, i feel so pro.. hahahahaha.. ok, then went to meet panda.. oh, very funny.. she say meet at mushroom then i saw her at concourse.. LOL, n again, i saw stella first.. LOL.. ok, i hav alot of frens at tm.. then went to watch emily rose, tis guy block her view, she is scared, the show is boring n abit scary, then we r tired.. we take bus 21, oh alot of ppl.. then malays r singing, thinking hari raya mood is in the bus.. ok, as we all know tt 21 went pass geylang.. ok, nite time.. wow, indeed nite lifestyle is so dirty.. i cant believe it.. we make alot of comments the whole ride.. oh ya, n the 2 gays is so fucking disgusting.. oh, n i dunno y now so many ppl hav bird flu.. LOL.. so she still so naughty dun wan me to send her home.. ok, i puke when i reach home.. dunno y i feel so giddy.. LOL, mus be the stupid cab driver.. ok, i hav a great time with panda again.. i love her really so that much.. she is so sweet n lovely.. love her forever..

ok, today is a step to tmr..

wake up at 5.28am.. LOL.. this panda.. really is something.. i dunno how she can make me love her so much n wake up so early to fetch her.. well, its worth it cus her smile means alot to me.. hahahaha.. ok, we take bus.. very long, see this house in the middle.. then at bedok, saw the stupid jinliang, then sit bus.. saw tis girl.. ap one, last time scold me ask me walk faster.. ok, we wait for a girl.. ok, she came, we still dunno.. so LOL.. ok, then she went study i went home.. LOL.. so tired now.. i feel like sleeping but i scared i overslept.. LOL.. ok, tt's all.. no more..

no rap no nth..
real tired..




love panda forever..
for u, i willing to do all sorts of things..

6 DAYS RECAP..

monday..
skip skool almost the whole day.. tut, lect, lab, u name it, i skip it.. LOl.. dunno y, skool starts to bored me out.. play pool n dota..

tuesday..
attend every lessons, then play pool n dota..

wednesday..
attend every lessons, play pool then go skool.. then meet dear n stella for dinner.. then pei her home.. then i really hav a great time with her.. heavenly hours, i love her so much..

thursday..
tommy the gay bday.. happy 18th birthday gay.. LOL.. ok, i skip lessons for the whole day.. we go k-box, dota n watch movie call doom..

friday..
bullshit day, totally worn out.. basketball under the bright yellow hot sun.. for almost 1hr+.. then when to tp swimming pool, got force out cus no shorts allow.. then we went to safra to swim.. so cool.. LOL, the feeling was great.. then sun tanning.. my skin was freaking red.. ok, i ate chicken cutlet n surprisingly, it last me for the whole day.. i dint feel any hunger.. we went mega pool n yanda is funny as ever.. ok, we saw a cute girl at cold storage, tommy like her but she's a mute.. tt's explain y she dint talk to us n smile at us the whole day.. wasted n life's unfair for her.. we feel sorry for her.. ok, speaking of cute girl, i meet meiwern later.. hahahaha.. ok, im sorry dear.. i was late, cus of yanda idiotic fresh soya milk.. im sorry to let u wait for so long.. sorry sorry da jie.. ok, we went to celebrate kah leong bday.. happy 18 birthday fat ass.. ok, saw some familiar faces, bring panda around.. then when to sit at the sea side.. alot of irritating event happen.. wee was fucking irritating.. then yanda join in, tommy came, dave arrive, carlos went home.. then mofos came, damn, its been long since i see them.. ok, my frens r kind of jackass.. then roaches n rats.. LOL.. ok, so me n panda sat there the whole nite, talking bout stuff.. i wish the time will jus freeze as it was such a great great n unforgetable time tt i spend with her.. i drank vodka, kinda hot.. then i send her home.. everytime, she jus wanna pei me wait for cab n i damn worry bout her u know, late at nite, then i saw tis indian ass seeing her.. i was damn worried tt time, i jus wanted to pei her but she say no.. pls let me send u home next time ok? i jus worried, very worried.. i love u really too much..

saturday..
BORED BORED BORED.. RESTLESS RESTLESS RESTLESS.. tired out cus of friday.. use com n xbox the whole day.. watch tv shows, no parents around.. the whole house was all mine.. LOL.. lying down for most of the time n think bout wat she said.. sometimes i wonder, do she deserve a guy like me? i smoke, i swear, im a jackass, im totally a rotten guy.. ok, so wat am i thinking? ok, i love her lots, so i guess i gonna do a makeover.. time for a new eugene.. change change change.. maybe its difficult, maybe its hard, but i really love u lots.. therefore i gonna try so freaking hard and push to the limits to kill my bad habits.. i feel so sorry everytime i see her face.. i can feel she is disappointing bout me n is feeling sad.. n is like i created alot of sins n i kinda pull her down.. i feel bad n sorry.. i regret tt i learn smoking.. i am sorry meiwern.. forgive me n give me a chance to let me change n give u the best happiness in life.. i totally cant live without u.. u r really too important in my life.. i love u with all my love cells..

ok, tt's all for tis week..

*oh wait.. fuck my democratic frens.. it stinks when doing those voting and yanda with lousy skills in scissors paper stone.. LOL..

someting for today..

reality bites,
life's unfair,
dreams r beautiful,
but fate is in our hands..

thanks for the wake up call.. i love u with all my life, therefore bad habits r outta my life..
i love u forever n ever.. u r my determination..

dafs 

sdfa 

daf 

poster 

merchandising photo. 

ok, today was crazy..

i mean ytd n today.. LOL.. ok, work was like, slack.. LOL.. go around n change poster only.. LOL.. how slack is tt? then when to a crazy girl coffeeshop n chill with my manager.. we at there chat chat chat chat, till time pass so fast.. LOL.. ok, time for me to meet wee.. ok, he seduce me of cuting hair.. so i feel i should cut my hair short, as i tired of the stinky fringe irritate my nose.. LOL..

ok, we go k box.. sing sing sing.. yanda so lol.. ok, we were so happy until the fucking bill.. 90+.. dude, LOL.. ok, we were wrong.. LOL.. so tis fucking wee, wanna go play basketball.. n the whole group only i own 1.. so they went to punggol to play.. ok, we play, at nite.. at midnite.. then at morning.. LOL.. make me stomache.. stupid..

crazy n tired day..
but better than going to pub.. ahhahaa..

i miss my dear so much..
when will she be back?
i love u always..

todays rap..

ok, today no rap.. too tired to think.. LOl.

ok, today is stupid day..

meeting my manager at 1pm at changi airport.. but i left home at 12.55pm.. LOl.. wat the hell.. so i call him n his phone no batt.. LOL.. ok so.. i finally call him say i was late n wait for him at the airport.. so i follow him taking orders n the sky train was slow today.. dunno y.. wait so long then the train arrived.. ok, there's alot of disgusting stuff.. they were all over the place n damn squeezy in the train.. i was suffocating with those smells.. i swear to god tt 1 day, i going to kill all those indians.. ok, today was crazy.. i actually can leave at 6pm.. but my manager keep me till 7pm.. wat the hell.. i was suppose to meet my dudes.. so he drove me to ps and he was crazy.. he kept driving to the wrong lane.. LOL.. hahahaha.. ok, so i bought a shirt while they buy like crazy.. i mean my frens.. n they r so uncles.. those shirts, damn old traditional.. hahahaha, ok, what has happen to them? they changed, they used to be cool.. LOl.. ok, so ripcurl stuff is expensive.. LOl..

ok, we go mac.. then i was waiting for panda call.. oh, she indeed called me.. but i seriously, lost my words as i was too nervous.. "what the hell i nervous for? LOL".. so we chat those stupid stuff and the asshole wee, go use my name to ask my panda buy cig.. he always try to tiao bo.. such a fucker, always like tt.. he jus jealous stella nv call him.. LOl.. ok, so i really miss panda.. the moment she reach causeway, i dint wanna hang up, i wish we can drag till she no need to go malaysia.. LOL, ok, tt's was a selfish tot.. hahaha, but i still want her to enjoy n hav lots of fun in malaysia, as u happy = i happy.. LOL..

dun say bomb n guns so loudly panda, be careful.. LOL..
take care dear..
always loving, missing n waiting for u..