ITS NEW YEAR EVE.. I AM ALONE AT HOME AND EVERYBODY OUT THERE SHOULD BE HAPPY CELEBRATING WITH FAMILIES AND FRIENDS AND LOVE ONES.. I WISH EVERYBODY WOULD HAVE A WONDERFUL 2006 AND I WISH LIM MEIWERN WILL BE THE HAPPIEST PERSON IN THIS WORLD..

DO YOU KNOW ME? I GUESS NOBODY TRUELY UNDERSTAND ME EVEN THE ONE I LOVE.. AM I SECOND TO NONE? I DUNNO.. AND SHE DONT BELIEVE ME ANYMORE.. ITS BECAUSE I KEPT HURTING HER.. I DONT WISH TO DO THAT BUT WHY THIS KEPT HAPPENING.. KARMA JUST BITES ME.. I DONT WANNA SEE HER SAD.. I DUN WANNA SEE HER CRY.. I LOVE HER ALOT.. IM REALLY BEATEN.. I REALLY HATE QUARRELS, I REALLY HATE TO HURT YOU, I REALLY DUNNO WHAT TO DO.. CAN YOU TELL ME WHAT I SHOULD DO TO MAKE U BELIEVE ME AGAIN? I REALLY LOVE YOU.. PLEASE DONT BE LIKE THIS.. THE WAY YOU SAY IT, YOU ARE LIKE LEAVING ME AND TURNING AWAY FROM ME.. I DONT WANNA LEAVE YOU, I LOVE YOU.. AND I ALWAYS DO.. ITS TRUE.. PLEASE DONT BE LIKE TIS.. IT HURTS.. I REALLY LOVE YOU..

I AM TRYING HARD TO BE YOUR PREFECT GUY YOU WISH.. EVERYTHING YOU WISH I TRY HARD TO MAKE IT CAME TRUE.. I REALLY WANT YOU DEAR.. PLEASE COME BACK TO ME..

IF I COULD CHANGE I WOULD,
TAKE BACK THE PAIN I WOULD,
RETRACE EVERY WRONG MOVE THAT I MADE I WOULD
IF I COULD MAKE YOU HAPPY I WOULD,
IF I COULD MAKE YOU SMILE I WOULD..
IF I COULD STOP MAKING YOU SAD I WOULD..
IF I COULD STOP HURTING YOU I WOULD..
IF I COULD BE WITH YOU FOREVER I WOULD..
IF I COULD HAVE THE CHANCE TO LOVE YOU FOREVER I WOULD..

I REALLY DONT KNOW WAT TO DO NOW.. I FEEL SO LOST.. THE ONE I REALLY LOVE SEEMS TO HATE ME.. WHAT SHOULD I DO.. I FEEL SO TROUBLE.. IM SORRY.. PLEASE COME BACK TO ME.. MEIWERN.. PLEASE.. I CAN STILL GIVE YOU THE HAPPINESS YOU NEED.. DONT LEAVE ME OR HATE ME.. TRUST ME AND BELIEVE ME.. I REALLY LOVE YOU ONLY..

NEW YEAR EVE..
IM STUCKING ALONE AT HOME,
LOCKING MYSELF IN THE ROOM..
BURSTING WITH TEARS,
BLAST MY HIFI,
JUMPING UP AND DOWN,
KNOCKING MY HEAD,
COUGHING TILL MY LUNGS OUT,
SHOUTING TILL MY THROAT BLEEDS,
CUTTING MYSELF,
FEEL THE RUSH OF IT,
LETTING THOSE BAD BLOODS FLOW OUT..
MAYBE THAT WILL CHANGE MY LIFE
AND I WILL REBIRTH TO BE A GREAT PERSON FOR YOU..
I AM SORRY..
I WILL BE BETTER..
I REALLY PROMISE..

SOMETIMES I JUS WISH I COULD BE DEAD, I WONT MAKE PPL SUFFER AND I MYSELF WONT SUFFER.. MAYBE ITS JUS A GD RUNAWAY METHOD.. I HATE MYSELF.. I REALLY DO..

"Have you ever loved someone so much you give an arm for?
Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for?
When they know they are your heart
And you know you are their armor
And you will destroy anyone who will try to harm her
But what happens when karma turns right around and bites you
And everything you stand for turns on you to spite you
What happens when you become the main source of her pain"

i quote tis part from a song cus i think it can describe how i feeling now.. i really dun wish to see u sad.. i do anything to see u glad.. its hurts alot to see u down, how i love to see u smile.. i quit smoking even before 2006.. i willing to push myself to the limits jus to be able to be the perfect guy for u my dear.. i really love you..

i always love u my dear.. love u lots.. its beyond any limit of this world.. i do anything to please u.. as your smile means alot to me.. i love you forever my dearest meiwern..

i am sorry..
and..
forever we belong..
chen jun da love lim meiwern forever..
counting down to
4 more days..

thanks doctor.. i nv ever feel so great.. guess tuesday i can get out n enjoy myself..

hmm.. there's something even greater.. there's no urge of smoking tis week.. maybe this fever make me quit smoking..

searching and learning how to be a perfect guy.. only for meiwern, i'll do anything to please her and make her happy..

LIFE WILL NEVER BE THE SAME ANYMORE..

sorry that i was so uncool at christmas eve.. ruin everything.. but i kept feel the torture of loneliness, pressure, anger..

i was not feeling well actually.. but wat the hell.. nobody cares anyway.. decided to meet those little bastards at ps.. play pool, i lost almost every match.. dude, where's my skill? went dota.. lost more than i won, dude, what happen? saw couples, families, happy faces, then i look myself at the mirror, thinking why am i such a loser? but worst come to worst, who give a shit when i hav brothers to party the hell out of xmas.. then after meeting yanda, we doing almost nth, wat the fuck leh.. then we sit down outside 7-eleven enjoy the nite, then i saw something that fuck me up right in the brain.. ok, its jus something i should forget.. anyway, ha..

squeezing our asses to taka, wow, great idea, ah peng.. spray spray spray, we are totally pissed off.. till we get our hands on some sprays, we kept fucking everybody.. its was damn fucking cool.. then met william, so cool.. but everything comes to the end when i suddenly feel my body was burning.. i feel weak n sick.. im jus tired maybe, went to mos burger to grab a bite.. i just cant imagine the scene.. there she is, standing far way from me, dint came n talk to me.. i jus feel kinda neglected or should it be rejected? i shouldnt hav ask her to come is it? its like she's being force.. or am i jus a lowdown piece of shit squatting on the sides eating tt its too embarrassing to be with? love jus cant mix with life? or maybe my brain is jus too hot to think bout doing the rite thing?.. anyway.. wat's done is done.. bygones are bygones..

i feel such a fucker of christmas.. i fuck everybody.. i am sorry.. and im dearly sorry to my meiwern.. maybe i shouldnt hav met u.. im sorry i was jus plain too selfish.. im sorry..

im still burning, somebody helps me put off some flames.. its torturing.. hope everything will be ok, will be alrite.. my dear will me happy and stay smiling, my family will be fine, tt wat i wish for the new year.. i will sacrifice myself if there's a need to exchange all these wishes..

wish everybody will hav a great xmas, new year, last week of 2005..

chen jun da love lim meiwern forever..

WHY FUCKED UP SLUTS LOVE TO FUCK GUYS?

WHY FUCKED UP GUYS LOVE TO FUCK SLUTS?

THE WORLD IS FUCKED UP..

WHY??? I HATE TO BE MIDDLE MAN..

IM FULL OF SADNESS.. DEPRESSION..

WHY MY LIFE HAVE TO BE LIKE THIS?

WHO'S WRONG? WHO'S NOT?

ITS FUCKING SADDENING.. I FEEL LIKE DYING..

SOMEBODY PLEASE SHARE MY BURDEN WITH ME.. PLEASE..

TEARS FALLS,
IM NOT THE HAPPY EUGENE ANYMORE..

DEAR SANTA,

im a quite a gd boy this year.. jus to wait for christmas and hoping u can grant my wishes..

my wishes are simple and i really wish u can make them came true..

1st. i want to be with limmeiwern forever..
2nd. i want limmeiwern to be happy forever..
3rd. i want the ripcurlz skirt.
4th. i want to quit smoking.
5th. i want a sweater.

LOL.. its tt ok santa? 5 wishes only, not really tt alot rite? if u cant really grant all my wishes, try ur best to grant the 1st, 2nd n 3rd.. ok?

thanks santa..
bless me this xmas..
i'll continue be a gd boy..

I CANT STOP THINKING BOUT IT..

I LOVE MY BABY LOTS..

im sorry,
n hoping for ur understanding,
i didnt meant it seriously,
as i love u truely,
wtih my heart faithfully,
no others jus u only,
u r the only tt drug me,
making me miss u badly,
u r always my lovely,
dun want u to go my baby,
i love u forever really,
making ur everyday happily,

i love u so much,
jus so much,
more than i could describe.
loving u with all my mite,
missing u from day to nite..

im sorry.. i dint meant wat i said.. im deeply sorry..
i love u 1 n only.. for tis i meant it..
i dont wanna hear u r leaving..
as i'll love u till my heart stops beating..

i hope everything will be the same again..
but i know, my love for u will be more after each day..

REGRETS :
it all happens like a blink of an eye,
its just too late for me to reply..

cry myself to sleep.
cry myself to sleep.

today is fuck..

everybody just shut up..

tt's better..

this friday doesnt seems like friday..

start skool at 10,
meet panda bedok then tam,
she was late and we climb the stairs,
i always dint meet her successfully,
its time i musnt be sleepy,
maths was still crazy,
epdes lab was still messy,
meet new frens at IT,
funny dude call weeleng,
but he's one hell of a beng,
still funny as u can see from his name,
we stay at IT n its too sian,
boredom is such a pain..

we go chill at the lab,
weeleng jokes still a crap,
going canteen to get pack,
then they wanna play bball,
i cant do tt anymore,
then panda give a call,
met her n walk her to the stop,
playing along the way non-stop,
then she's like a kid tt love to hop,

ok, we chill at all the busstop around kallang,
later find out tt my dear is a se lang,
LOL, she seems to know much bout geylang,
hahahhaa, we r so close to each other everytime,
the more we meet the more we dun bear it,
time seems like a barrier,
but we r still merrier,
as she know, i know,
love is forever,
yea, tt's all i can write bout friday,
oh i forgot bout liling,
who dont really look like liling,
as she is quite full of fillings..
hahahaha, dig?

ok, tt's all folks, love u lots my baby..

TO SHU MEI AND ANYONE ELSE..
ITS A LYRIC OF A SONG..
BY FORT MINOR, SOP..


Where'd you go? I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
She said "Some days I feel like shit, Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,"
I don't understand why you have to always be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,
And, I find myself tryna stay by the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me when I feel so alone,
But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,
But when I pick up I don't have much to say,
So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing
"Where'd you go?" I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone, Please come back home...
You know the place where you used to live,
Used to barbeque up burgers and ribs,
Used to have a little party every Hallowe'en with candy by the pile,
But now, you only stop by every once in a while,
Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time,
Anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,
I'm doin' fine, I plan to keep it that way,
You can call me if you find you have somethin' to say,
And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing
"Where'd you go?" I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so, Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone, Please come back home...
I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',
Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,
For while you're not around, and feeling so useless,
It seems one thing has been true all along,
You don't really know what you got 'til it's gone,
I guess I've had it with you and your career,
When you come back I won't be here and you'll can sing it...
Where'd you go? I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go? I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home... Please come back home...
Please come back home... Please come back home...
Please come back home...

fort minor is the band of month.. cool music..
sop.. buy it..

give me a break
my life is at stake
the flu is killing me
the stress is hurting me
i am going to be mad..

life is in crisis..
stuck in the dead end..
help.. anyone?
oh well, im all alone now..

fort minor rocks.
dude, im dying..
jus wish i can see u for the last time..

love u only with all every bits of my heart..
u complete me..
sorry if i cus any misunderstood..

ok, today was cool..

went to skool at 9 saw my fren, then 10 quiz, i was the first to come out.. i know the steps but i dunno the answer is correct ma.. LOL.. then went to coffeeshop near marybrown there to eat chicken cutlet.. so regret, i wanna eat ba kut teh.. LOL.. or roti prata..

went to dota, come out, dota again, then meet my ah wern.. LOL.. we r so playful.. kept playing the whole journey to her home.. LOL.. then walk to her house, saw wat suddenly sale.. LOL, so stupid lor.. LOL.. i dunno y n how, she pull me to the mrt station like she was a wonderwoman.. LOl.. ok, so i follow her, then we walk the coconut falling area, then got a place so stinky near the mrt.. then i decided, take bus is better.. ok, we walk to the bus stop.. then we was like its been long since each other and from afternoon till nite.. my whole body was full of her smell.. then alot of ppl look at us.. LOL. ok, then its time for me to meet my dumb frens.. then tis stupid indian roti prata seller drove bus 7 passs me.. asshole, i flag he still drove pass me.. stupid.. so funny.. LOL.. and this panda, is so ticklish.. or ticklelish? LOL.. kept make me laugh.. hahahaha..

ok, board the bus 7, from tt moment i miss my panda lots n worry bout her safety to home.. always dun wanna let me send her home.. why? then went to wat JJ Pub.. damn boring.. yanda flirt a china girl.. so old, as old as his mama.. tommy flirt cindy, tt's wat yanda say.. wee flirt a girl call samantha.. dave flirt the bar girl n was happy.. ah peng n me r lonely boys.. but he was the saddest cus he didnt flirt one.. LOL.. so i sit there, drank a bottle of heiniken.. then chill, till i almost fall asleep.. tis yanda, so ass.. ask the china girl come talk to me.. stupid shit.. i kinda bored her out so she find another person.. LOL.. wat vivian, so disgusting.. pls no more tis shit.. then went dota with tommy.. then went home..

i love my panda faithfully n wholeheartedly..

a family man, wont target other girls n will come home to his wife daily..

i miss u n love u forever my dearest ah wern..

Today is the day when i am a funny guy..

ok, bring lappy to skool.. very heavy..

late for java, standard..

go maths lecture, sleep all the way..

go breadboard eat, then chill at lib..

wait for meiwern, so long lor she.. dunno wat happen..

so stupid, im a clown in the auto cad class..

but im so happy i can see panda today..

so miss her then so love her..

dear dear, i love u forever..

tmr hav maths quiz? how? going to chiong at nite..

happy 2 months to my panda and me..

hahahaa, time flies real fast as we've been together for 2 months.. few down moments for this month, but i guess next coming month or year or decade will be great for us.. i really need her and totally rely on her.. nth can break us up.. i just totally love her so much..

still thinking bout our first meeting and it was quite lame and shy.. hahahahaha.. then 2nd outing was the day when we r officially together.. it was so unforgettable.. hahahahaha.. i love u so much panda.. guess i wasted much time as we should be together earlier.. well, its not too late too and i will work hard on my promises also getting to know more bout my precious u.. hahahaha..

loving u forever and ever..
miss u..

happiness is found only with u my dear.. and i will provide u the best happiness in the world..

ok, today is friday..

went to bedok to meet panda cus i was late.. hahaha.. then she came n saw the queue is as long as a long( "dragon" in chinese) hahahaha.. queue up to the shop lor.. then saw her fren, thinking of finding him to cut queue, but like no use.. then 2 single deck 69 came n the queue is indeed shorter.. than her fren was useful now.. hahahaha.. ok, went to breadboard meet tommy.. chill at there n he follow me to my maths tutorial.. ok, then epdes, team with a china guy, teacher love me, kept calling my name, panda call, go pavillion with her.. then i feel abit confuse.. is like whether i should choose frens or her.. i dunno what should i do.. im sorry if i make u feel anything.. hais.. ok, then pei long to meet his fren.. ok, we sit at the railing.. then they smoke, i never smoke.. then panda n stella came.. i guess they tot i was smoking or something.. but i nv even touch it.. dunno how.. sad..

when to see the saw2.. there's was blood.. ok, very disgusting.. then went to east coast park.. then wanna buy mango yogurt ice blended.. but the queue so long lor.. ok, then went to east coast park.. walking towards the sun, but seems so far away.. then saw a seat, then sit down.. bad choice, cus hav ppl kept running around.. then panda push me, jus nice landed on a cool place.. then she tired.. we chatted.. she wanna em em.. i dig a hole for her.. LOL.. ok, then walk home cus raining.. then she dun wanna me pei her home, i dun understand why? ok, i make panda sad.. i was stupid n idiot to joke bout leaving her.. im sorry n i wont ever leave u ok? i already plan for our future n i love u forever.. i am really sorry to make u feel tis way.. im feeling worthless as i couldnt do anything to lift her up from downfall.. ok, then caught in the rain.. bad luck.. who takes the blame? then sleep..

i promise u every moment i will make u happy n glad..
no more sad no more feeling down..
i love u forever n ever..
missing u always..

today's rap..

i love you,
it is truth,
forever n ever,
always be together..

happy birthday to yanda..

today indeed is not my day.. it just too much to handle for me..

morning, i was blind.. i was force to wear a damn baggy pants cus i cant found any.. then when i going out, my mom found it in my wardrobe.. yes, WTF.. ok, i was bloody late.. then squeeze the bloody mrt.. lousy morning.. but manage to get over it cus panda is my happy potion..

ok, skool sux.. i dunno y my psps project i do with 2 girls.. lousy planning.. but i guess i no need to do.. hahahahaha.. i'll sure be the one to present.. OK, AUTO-CAD SUX.. ITS A SUBJECT TT DRAW SOME SHIT FLOOR PLAN AND IS KILLING ME.. FUCK THE SUBJECT.. ITS TORTURING ME, DEVOURING ME, DISMEMBER ME, ROTTING ME.. WHAT THE HELL.. I AM SICK OF IT.. but manage to get over it with my bros..

but then.. so suddenly.. it happens.. it totall bring me to the ground.. ok, i was shedding my tears.. thinking bout those experience.. it sucks.. but it happen again.. how? what should i do? who takes the blame? maybe i should take the blame.. maybe just maybe.. it really kills me.. all i want is jus pure n simple.. yet somethings jus need to happen.. im tired, im sick.. i wanna go home.. but will you please leave me alone? i mite jus lose myself..

i love you lots.. i miss you lots.. i want you lots.. i need you lots.. dear, can i hug u to sleep every nite? cus im scared..

why why why
sun shine too bright it blind
i am not feeling fine
and all i can do is whine..

i love you forever..
i need you so much rite now..

weekends bored me out..

it sucks to be the only child..

i bored with everything at home..

scv, xbox, computer cant do it..

thinking bout the past..

kinda laugh at it now..

no more shedding tears when thought of it..

feeling happy n enjoying my life with panda now..

life feel so gd with she around..

Yesterday was a wonderful day..

ok, skool's not.. LOL.. went to skool for just 1 tutorial.. 10-11.. only.. then so free go tommy lect with wee.. then went to meet frens at city plaza.. LOL.. okok, we went to eat.. quite nice but there the environment so.. LOL.. saw alot of malaysian.. speaking canto.. hahahaa..

off to grand link.. dota match.. lost 1 win 1.. LOL.. 2nd match was totally ownage.. ok, dota is boring.. N im sorry dear.. i finish at 5pm, n was bout to call her she call me.. ok, so she went to airport again.. so lOL.. then meet her at 6.30pm.. ok, i was too early to reach there.. so i kept waiting for bus36 to see her.. n i feel so nervous.. LOL..

ok, so i call her when it reach 7pm.. LOL, she so late lor hor.. i give u 15 mins grace u also late.. LOL.. she say she was at traffic light, with my pro eyes i saw her.. LOL, so we walk round at around at starbuck.. then we finally walk to city hall.. see museum, mango.. we wanna wait for the mango to drop, then i give up.. LOL.. then i wanna chill n happy, this panda kept pulling me away.. oh ya, i was very hungry, this panda forever not hungry with me.. so strange.. dear, can i hope when u out with me, u dun eat for the whole day till u meet me then we go eat ok? LOL lor.. always not hungry.. then told me she eat wat POPEYE? or watever.. then so crazy the whole thing.. ok, i kept laughing when walking the citylink.. see this girl got tattoo.. so cool.. but panda stop me from looking, okok, i dun look at girls except u ok dear? then my tt stuff kept droping down.. dunno y.. make me so embarrass hav to adjust in the open.. LOL.. oh we saw alot of batman too.. still hav batman underwear.. LOL..

saw my frens at esplanade doing breakdance.. wanna join them but panda was around.. LOL.. ok, we saw alot of food.. but she dun want any.. i wanna buy her cake, but she dun want any.. the whole day i only spend on my cab fare lor.. i draw alot of money out, yet i spend $13.80.. i feel so bad nv spend on her.. ok, we chill at esplanade.. we talk alot.. her hair smell so nice, but she dun wanna tell me the brand.. stupid panda.. nv say earlier hair has oil, make me taste it without knowing.. then alot of ppl come around us to take the merlion.. nv see it before meh? then tis 2 fillipino came n take photo.. so crazy, take so many n so long still haven finish.. then kept smiling at us.. LOL.. then we saw a big fish in the river.. tis panda so stupid say tt it is dead.. LOL.. so surprising to saw such a big fish.. ok, then she dun wanna let me see my legs.. everything she help me do.. LOL.. stupid panda.. then i gave her my snoopy tissue.. cool rite? so nice lor.. the tissue hav snoopy also lor.. then we play around for the whole day.. she say my chinese is pro.. LOL.. fang fu.. LOL.. then i am very deep today.. hahahaha.. such wonderful moment with her.. how i wish tt the time will just stop, n we can enjoy the moment for the rest of my life..

ok, then went home.. this panda really crazy.. ni feng le ok?.. wanna piggy back me.. LOL.. i scared her back bone break.. LOL.. kept trying.. LOL.. so weak tis panda.. then she say wear skirt i cant piggy back her.. since when there's such rule.. LOL.. walk back home, still stop me from seeing her legs.. then walk walk walk, she angry, again say i look at girls.. she ask me to look, then i beg her to let me see her only.. oK, we walk to mrt.. saw her legs, she say she tattoo then got dots dots.. tis panda, always dun wanna take care of herself, injuries everywhere.. LOL.. come, i take care of u ok? ok, then take cab home, tis driver, talk dialect to me.. i talk chinese he dun understand.. then i talk dialect he dunno wat im saying.. so i went to the front seat n point for the whole journey.. LOL.. ok, then sleep..

happy birthday my dear panda..
may ur wishes will be granted..
stay happy always..
happy sweeet 17..

i love u lots lots dear..
love u 1314..
my love for u is just getting deeper n deeper each day..

it has been an angry week lately..

all i have to say is FUCK YOU..

FUCK ALL THE MOTERFUCKERS.. GO AWAY..

DUN COME N DISTURB ME.. YOU UNDERSTAND?

WHY YOU ALL LOVE TO SNATCH MY STUFF?

I GIVE UP OK?

I GAVE UP.. GO AHEAD.. ITS YOURS..

JUST FUCK OFF..

THANK YOU..

i feel troubled..

i feel sad..

i feel confused..

i feel it again..

can i stop it?

it seems difficult..

only i can help myself..

i dun want history to repeat..

i feel like breaking down..

I FEEL LIKE REALITY IS TAKING ME AWAY FROM EVERYTHING..

DAMN YOU SOCIETY.. GOD DAMN YOU..

today's anger is taking all over me..

i wanna hurt nobody
i jus cant take it to be a sadist
tis is not like me, i cant take it
leave me alone, let me get over it..

im angry, i turning green.. no use.. nobody can save me.. it's all bout me.. yes me, im the one.. one n only me.. save myself.. argh..

off to the melody of limp bizkit.. burn my mind n ears.. i leaning on ur voices.. yeah..

FRIDAY

quite stupid day.. went to skool at 11am.. first lab lesson for epdes.. ok, so teacher was funny, cool, lesson ends early.. then went to pavilion do nth, so come back to skool to wait for panda n went to IT skool to have lunch.. so LOL.. after finished our lunch, we stay down there to play around.. there's a group of girls laughing loudly behind us.. then we count to 3 to turn back n look at them.. they all stop laughing n so pai seh n so stun.. LOL.. funny.. then we do alot of funny stuff.. then dave come.. so he trying to disturb me n laugh at me.. then when he sit down, we all go off. hahaahaha, he so pai seh sia.. the look on his face make me laugh like hell.. hahahahahahaa.. ok, then we try it on tommy.. same funny.. hahahaa.. i very worry bout panda for the engine draw.. she seems to hate the subject.. i hope i can help her.. ask me for help ok? i help u draw la ok? come come.. dun sad..

ok, meet panda, then go grandlink play dota.. i can see her boriness, as she sit there do nth.. hmm, ok, then we went to ecp.. walk walk walk n walk n walk the whole day.. LOL.. we saw soldiers marching over there.. we saw alot of things.. especially alot of arrogant n haolian ppl.. LOL.. ok, we r soldiers too.. then we were walking round the ticket machine.. went mac, then this girl say parkway mac is better.. along the way to parkway, we play blind game.. hahahahaa, so funny n so fun.. so nice lor.. lets play again.. then we eat eat.. see the mac tv.. then walk to library busstop cus there is less ppl.. 3rd 31.. she see me home again.. worry bout her.. have lots of fun with her today.. no smoking day, quitting for her.. love her so much..

i love u forever panda..
eugene tan love lim meiwern

Yesterday, was a million miles away..

ok, today when skool at 12pm.. meet my fren, he late.. first time i was earlier than him.. cool.. hahhhahahaa.. went to psps, then this teacher say im liping.. LOL, im a guy, how can i hav a gay name? LOL.. then later i know liping raise up her hand when my name was call.. okOK.. i sit with joanna, LOL.. then do tis group discussion bout some learning style.. LOL.. ok, we were all quiet n looking at each other.. so joanna take the initiative to start the ball rolling.. LOL.. ok, so i present.. ok, very bad.. hahahaha.. ok, break.. eat.. ok, cus no smoking day, went there earlier n maths test.. wow, maths table is helpful, LOL.. ok, not bad n not gd for the quiz.. ok, then go autocad.. stupid lesson teach by china teachers.. LOL, communication problem.. ok, i dint listen to the teacher teaching, n figure out myself how it works.. wow, im so brilliant.. LOL, sorry for hao lian, i feel so pro.. hahahahaha.. ok, then went to meet panda.. oh, very funny.. she say meet at mushroom then i saw her at concourse.. LOL, n again, i saw stella first.. LOL.. ok, i hav alot of frens at tm.. then went to watch emily rose, tis guy block her view, she is scared, the show is boring n abit scary, then we r tired.. we take bus 21, oh alot of ppl.. then malays r singing, thinking hari raya mood is in the bus.. ok, as we all know tt 21 went pass geylang.. ok, nite time.. wow, indeed nite lifestyle is so dirty.. i cant believe it.. we make alot of comments the whole ride.. oh ya, n the 2 gays is so fucking disgusting.. oh, n i dunno y now so many ppl hav bird flu.. LOL.. so she still so naughty dun wan me to send her home.. ok, i puke when i reach home.. dunno y i feel so giddy.. LOL, mus be the stupid cab driver.. ok, i hav a great time with panda again.. i love her really so that much.. she is so sweet n lovely.. love her forever..

ok, today is a step to tmr..

wake up at 5.28am.. LOL.. this panda.. really is something.. i dunno how she can make me love her so much n wake up so early to fetch her.. well, its worth it cus her smile means alot to me.. hahahaha.. ok, we take bus.. very long, see this house in the middle.. then at bedok, saw the stupid jinliang, then sit bus.. saw tis girl.. ap one, last time scold me ask me walk faster.. ok, we wait for a girl.. ok, she came, we still dunno.. so LOL.. ok, then she went study i went home.. LOL.. so tired now.. i feel like sleeping but i scared i overslept.. LOL.. ok, tt's all.. no more..

no rap no nth..
real tired..




love panda forever..
for u, i willing to do all sorts of things..

6 DAYS RECAP..

monday..
skip skool almost the whole day.. tut, lect, lab, u name it, i skip it.. LOl.. dunno y, skool starts to bored me out.. play pool n dota..

tuesday..
attend every lessons, then play pool n dota..

wednesday..
attend every lessons, play pool then go skool.. then meet dear n stella for dinner.. then pei her home.. then i really hav a great time with her.. heavenly hours, i love her so much..

thursday..
tommy the gay bday.. happy 18th birthday gay.. LOL.. ok, i skip lessons for the whole day.. we go k-box, dota n watch movie call doom..

friday..
bullshit day, totally worn out.. basketball under the bright yellow hot sun.. for almost 1hr+.. then when to tp swimming pool, got force out cus no shorts allow.. then we went to safra to swim.. so cool.. LOL, the feeling was great.. then sun tanning.. my skin was freaking red.. ok, i ate chicken cutlet n surprisingly, it last me for the whole day.. i dint feel any hunger.. we went mega pool n yanda is funny as ever.. ok, we saw a cute girl at cold storage, tommy like her but she's a mute.. tt's explain y she dint talk to us n smile at us the whole day.. wasted n life's unfair for her.. we feel sorry for her.. ok, speaking of cute girl, i meet meiwern later.. hahahaha.. ok, im sorry dear.. i was late, cus of yanda idiotic fresh soya milk.. im sorry to let u wait for so long.. sorry sorry da jie.. ok, we went to celebrate kah leong bday.. happy 18 birthday fat ass.. ok, saw some familiar faces, bring panda around.. then when to sit at the sea side.. alot of irritating event happen.. wee was fucking irritating.. then yanda join in, tommy came, dave arrive, carlos went home.. then mofos came, damn, its been long since i see them.. ok, my frens r kind of jackass.. then roaches n rats.. LOL.. ok, so me n panda sat there the whole nite, talking bout stuff.. i wish the time will jus freeze as it was such a great great n unforgetable time tt i spend with her.. i drank vodka, kinda hot.. then i send her home.. everytime, she jus wanna pei me wait for cab n i damn worry bout her u know, late at nite, then i saw tis indian ass seeing her.. i was damn worried tt time, i jus wanted to pei her but she say no.. pls let me send u home next time ok? i jus worried, very worried.. i love u really too much..

saturday..
BORED BORED BORED.. RESTLESS RESTLESS RESTLESS.. tired out cus of friday.. use com n xbox the whole day.. watch tv shows, no parents around.. the whole house was all mine.. LOL.. lying down for most of the time n think bout wat she said.. sometimes i wonder, do she deserve a guy like me? i smoke, i swear, im a jackass, im totally a rotten guy.. ok, so wat am i thinking? ok, i love her lots, so i guess i gonna do a makeover.. time for a new eugene.. change change change.. maybe its difficult, maybe its hard, but i really love u lots.. therefore i gonna try so freaking hard and push to the limits to kill my bad habits.. i feel so sorry everytime i see her face.. i can feel she is disappointing bout me n is feeling sad.. n is like i created alot of sins n i kinda pull her down.. i feel bad n sorry.. i regret tt i learn smoking.. i am sorry meiwern.. forgive me n give me a chance to let me change n give u the best happiness in life.. i totally cant live without u.. u r really too important in my life.. i love u with all my love cells..

ok, tt's all for tis week..

*oh wait.. fuck my democratic frens.. it stinks when doing those voting and yanda with lousy skills in scissors paper stone.. LOL..

someting for today..

reality bites,
life's unfair,
dreams r beautiful,
but fate is in our hands..

thanks for the wake up call.. i love u with all my life, therefore bad habits r outta my life..
i love u forever n ever.. u r my determination..

dafs 

sdfa 

daf 

poster 

merchandising photo. 

ok, today was crazy..

i mean ytd n today.. LOL.. ok, work was like, slack.. LOL.. go around n change poster only.. LOL.. how slack is tt? then when to a crazy girl coffeeshop n chill with my manager.. we at there chat chat chat chat, till time pass so fast.. LOL.. ok, time for me to meet wee.. ok, he seduce me of cuting hair.. so i feel i should cut my hair short, as i tired of the stinky fringe irritate my nose.. LOL..

ok, we go k box.. sing sing sing.. yanda so lol.. ok, we were so happy until the fucking bill.. 90+.. dude, LOL.. ok, we were wrong.. LOL.. so tis fucking wee, wanna go play basketball.. n the whole group only i own 1.. so they went to punggol to play.. ok, we play, at nite.. at midnite.. then at morning.. LOL.. make me stomache.. stupid..

crazy n tired day..
but better than going to pub.. ahhahaa..

i miss my dear so much..
when will she be back?
i love u always..

todays rap..

ok, today no rap.. too tired to think.. LOl.

ok, today is stupid day..

meeting my manager at 1pm at changi airport.. but i left home at 12.55pm.. LOl.. wat the hell.. so i call him n his phone no batt.. LOL.. ok so.. i finally call him say i was late n wait for him at the airport.. so i follow him taking orders n the sky train was slow today.. dunno y.. wait so long then the train arrived.. ok, there's alot of disgusting stuff.. they were all over the place n damn squeezy in the train.. i was suffocating with those smells.. i swear to god tt 1 day, i going to kill all those indians.. ok, today was crazy.. i actually can leave at 6pm.. but my manager keep me till 7pm.. wat the hell.. i was suppose to meet my dudes.. so he drove me to ps and he was crazy.. he kept driving to the wrong lane.. LOL.. hahahaha.. ok, so i bought a shirt while they buy like crazy.. i mean my frens.. n they r so uncles.. those shirts, damn old traditional.. hahahaha, ok, what has happen to them? they changed, they used to be cool.. LOl.. ok, so ripcurl stuff is expensive.. LOl..

ok, we go mac.. then i was waiting for panda call.. oh, she indeed called me.. but i seriously, lost my words as i was too nervous.. "what the hell i nervous for? LOL".. so we chat those stupid stuff and the asshole wee, go use my name to ask my panda buy cig.. he always try to tiao bo.. such a fucker, always like tt.. he jus jealous stella nv call him.. LOl.. ok, so i really miss panda.. the moment she reach causeway, i dint wanna hang up, i wish we can drag till she no need to go malaysia.. LOL, ok, tt's was a selfish tot.. hahaha, but i still want her to enjoy n hav lots of fun in malaysia, as u happy = i happy.. LOL..

dun say bomb n guns so loudly panda, be careful.. LOL..
take care dear..
always loving, missing n waiting for u..

ok, today was cool.. firstly, i went to food court at tampines at 2pm to meet my managers.. then we stay there for awhile then went off to a coffee shop.. ok, so the van cant take 3 ppl, so i sit behind.. wow, it was so cool.. LOL.. the sofa.. damn nice.. LOL.. ok, so i just did 1 coffee shop today n finish work at 3.30pm.. wat the hell.. hahaha..

went to meet meiwern, SHU MEI, siangsiu.. LOL.. i dunno wat i was doing there.. hahahaa.. ok, i saw shu mei.. she really look like angel [my fren stead].. LOl.. ok, then siangsiu was slacking, shu mei was working, i was sleeping, meiwern was boring.. LOL.. ok, i was bit too tired so i fond of sleeping almost every moment.. LOL.. so we play n choose which floor to go.. till stella wanna go flash n splash, liling reach n went meeting her.. n we meet her at the road.. ok, so we again standing there doing nth n thinking where we should go.. so we finally going long john.. ok, due to the embarassment of me eating alone, i decided to help liling buy her food.. LOl, so the chilli is very nice to play.. ok, then went to mrt station.. stand there watching 7-11.. then i wanna rob, cus i carry gun.. then osama came, i test him.. then liling n stella phone rang, they vibrate me so i vibrate too.. ok, then stella try to go crazy saying those se stuff.. then i tired sit down fall asleep n they dunno y wake me up.. LOL.. ok, so we say bye bye to each other n i send panda home as usual..

ok, so i really love her alot n miss her so much.. i send her home.. n i tell her alot of story bout her house there.. ok, then she bring me to tis dark place.. LOL.. stupid lor, so dark n scary.. then bring me to rubbish dump.. LOL.. then walk walk walk, to a mushroom n saw dragon.. LOL.. ok, then she walk me to take a cab.. ok, i cant bear to leave her.. wishing tt moment will freeze.. she seduce me, drug me, flirt me, till im totally addicted to her.. LOL.. oh ya, almost forgot.. i dunno how she learn those old smelly ah lian style calling her frens.. so lian n so funny.. from her appearance doing those things, its funny n hard to imagine.. lol.. so lian lor.. hahahahhaa.. okok, later she angry, no lian ok? very cute.. LOl..

so i take tis cab.. he dunno where is punggol field.. then drive me to geylang, i see alot of se langs.. then he call his fren for help.. he sounds like a hong kong or malaysian.. lol, then he tell me he drive cab whole day very tired n brain cells used up.. lOL, he is trying to kill me lor.. he kept falling asleep while driving.. LOL.. i was terrified..

ok, then i went home, my mom throw this parcel at me.. i tot wat was it.. n i nearly throw it away, then i take a look at it, it was for me.. strange n surprised, i tot it was some gift maybe i got for lucky draw.. but i can hardly think of any lucky draw i participate.. LOl.. ok, i saw this trolley name, thinking my fren try to disturb me.. then i think again, it was meiwern, ok i open up.. im touched.. those things she write, so sweet n touching.. n i feel so small white face as the day i know her, she kept giving me stuff.. LOl.. how? hahaha..

ok, it was 2.45am.. my dad call me.. i tot he trying to play with me so i nv pick up the call.. then i totally found it was annoying, so i picked it up n he ask me to help him open the door.. LOL.. so lOL.. ok tt was today..

my love for meiwern, jus seems deeper each day.. she going to malaysia, tt makes me miss her more n more everyday.. n i will wait for her till she's back, i love her alot lor.. cant bear to see her go.. so love u, u know ma? pig needs panda.. always..

today's rap..

i love u forever
to me, u worth more than any treasure
although u going to malaysia
my heart n soul will always be with u, my dear..

waiting for u
loving u
missing u
take care n enjoy ur trip..

tonite i feel so cool.. wah, so cool man.. LOl.. i ate pizza for dinner man.. wow, i feel so cool.. hahahaha.. i feel like im american.. hahahahha. so cool.. LOl.. ok, im very full.. arh.. so full..

but i really really slim down when i out with panda.. cus i wanted to eat but she always full.. then it feel kinda no gd if im eating n she seeing me eating.. and i hardly spent my money with her.. i dunno y? LOl..

but do u know panda is so cute so lovely so funny? LOL.. have u all ever seen her wiping her face? LOL.. so cute.. so omg.. n so funny.. she looks like a little girl wiping those raindrops on her face.. so cute, no wonder i love her so much.. LOL..

i love her always..
but it jus getting more n more..
everyday i jus wish she was by my side..
i know its impossible, but let's use some imagination..
i love her too much..
its outta limits..
i love u..

ok, lets talk bout today first..

same old same old.. meet my manager at potong pasir.. hahahaha, he is damn funny.. the way he talk.. LOL.. we laugh the whole day n same old same old, go slack.. hahahahaha.. ok today was great day but very boring.. dint go out because i dun like pubs.. jus dun like the atmosphere there.. n im a married man.. coffee shop is better i guess.. but wee love pubs.. cant help it anyway.. so next week i guess i will pull them to coffee shop or jus chill at starbucks man.. ok today is real boring.. at home watch tv.. later going to grab some pizzas.. i wanna try the new shop at punggol plaza.. argh, damn hungry..

ok, lets talk bout yesterday..

ok, meet this manager.. always love to ask me wait in his van n he go take orders.. then he talk to me about his new house at sengkang, i dunno why i nv live in sengkang.. its so convienient.. stupid punggol.. ok, time flies, and he ask me to go home as he say i will be boring touring around with him.. so went meet my dearest panda..

eh, ok.. saw her with this guy.. okok, i admit i was a little bit jealous.. a little bit only.. then imaginations went wild, feel a little bit despair.. well a little bit only.. then then then my innerself says "dude.. what the hell r u thinking man? please dun repeat the same mistakes again.. cmon, relax.. chill.. nth happen.." so i guess i think too much.. ok, so we continue to went out.. happily of course.. she kept talking stupid stuffs to me.. then laugh, then she poke me.. went to buy tickets and the wig is extinct.. im sorry dear.. i know is my fault i feel so guilty.. then ok, we guessing those disgusting stuff watching wat movie then i hav no choice to watch transporter 2.. i wanna watch domino one lor, but she too young.. LOL, or im too old? aiya, watever.. then i wanna play pool she told me no table.. then we walk to heeren.. i searching for my chain tt can turn, then tis stupid panda say wat light.. LOL.. so stupid yet so cute.. so love her.. LOL.. ok, so i really wanna go in to see those stuff but scared not suitable for her n i'll be rite back with my bros next week.. i saw one long sleeve damn attractive at ripcurlz.. dude, im getting it next week no matter how.. ok, so she told me siangsiu n crazy mindy in heerens.. so we search then we walk off.. then i decided to walk back n saw these 2 following behind us.. LOl.. i was shocked.. yea shocked.. ok, so they r trying to be funny, talking on the middle of the road.. then we go watch the stupid transporter 2 n find out tt disgusting stuff choose tt show too.. really no taste.. i was blinded by the car n the movie damn sux.. n i found out 1 thing, my panda indeed dun watch english movie.. all she watch is korean, japanese, chinese movie lor.. LOl.. and she only watch ghost movie.. LOL.. ok, point taken.. so we walk, i told her raining she dun believe me n still go istana park.. LOL. then walk walk walk.. she dun wanna go into shelter lor.. LOl.. ok, then so heavily then went hiding then saw the 2 spies, then ok they talk.. my feet was damn aching n i really cant take it.. LOL.. ok, then we go home.. i send her home n i kept walking n waving n saying bye bye to my dear.. LOL.. so crazy in love.. LOL..

ok, inside the mrt hav those crazy people.. one purple shirt gay, dancing n singing.. i feel like slapping him but i scared he cry.. damn anti-gays.. ok, saw this indian [disgusting stuff] trying to act like he msg someone, kept pressing his phone so actor.. i dunno wat he is thinking.. then saw this fat woman, kept scratching her butt.. so disgusting n man, its public.. ok, i went to take the lift.. saw this woman, follow her into the lift and please i was just going home.. and she shocked n scream thinking tt i was a rapist or watever.. please, do i look like one? such stupidity thoughts.. LOL.. ok, tt's was yesterday..

today's rap..

jealousy is jus an illusion
causing u questioning bout one's devotion
treat it as a brain malfunction
and hav faith in ur affection..

sickening friday..

crying alone.. this week is not my week.. i cry like hell today.. although as a man i shouldnt cry, i jus cant take it anymore.. damn foul luck.. it can really kill me.. i feel so frustrated.. damn it..

today was hell..
woke up at 8.30am.. bloody hell.. 8.30am, i was so damn tired.. woke up so early cus my manager call me and ask me to meet him at potong pasir at 1.. he also say sorry to wake me up.. then i cant sleep back.. my running nose is killing me..

so the whole morning i feel damn difficult n frustrated hav to blow my nose everytime.. i guess my nose is swollen now.. LOl.. on my way to work was the worst one.. feel quite giddy and feel so weak.. i wanted to ask for off day but was trying my luck see if today hav any work for me.. sitting in the van was bloody giddy.. especially it goes over the bump.. wah, bloody hell.. my head was so pain.. n my vision was blur..

today suppose to meet my panda.. i totally blown it.. i miss her so much.. 2 weeks already, haven even see her once.. hais.. so bored staying at home.. whole day tv.. nth much.. god damn it, stupid flu.. totally ruin my bloody friday.. ahhhhhhhhh, shit.. i waited so long for tis day to come in the end i blown it.. it feels so terrible..

went to see a doctor.. and a kid was at a mat playing with some toys at the clinic.. then he started to shit on the letter "g" mat.. hahahahha, it was funny n digusting.. n the shape of the shit quite nice.. square somemore.. LOL.. n then i know, im not alone there's alot of ppl having flu.. guess they blow their whole friday with me.. LOL..

ok, so everything was much ok so far.. then tis shit happen.. i felt something itchy near back of my feet.. well, pretty much at the ankle there.. it bleed like hell.. i was shock.. wah, then i clean my wound.. is the worst thing i ever feel today.. it even worst than my flu.. and the skin peeled off.. shit, damn digusting.. what the hell happen to me today.. why im such ill luck.. as i recover i hit on to something n dint know it turn out to be like tis.. well, life is up and down.. this week is sure down to the bottom.. i jus hope everything will turn normal again..

i cry like a baby
as i nv feel so badly
this week sucks, really
its jus killing me totally

meiwern, i love u.. more than anything in the world.. so i shouldnt make u worry.. just be happy.. you happy = i happy..

shumei, says so..

hahahahahahahaha..

tuesday was fun.. i suppose to work from 1pm to 6pm.. but i dint work or even do anything.. jus siting at the cafe chatting with my manager n he put me to nearest mrt station at 3pm n told me i could go off.. LOL.. this job is so crazy.. im totally a get paid slacker.. i think my teachers is wrong, cus theres indeed a job tt u no need to do anything n get paid.. hahahahaha.. so so crazy..

ok, then i went to wee house.. and we went to meet those little bastard at ps.. all late except me n wee n yanda.. hahahaha, then we went to pool.. n yanda is so fucker.. he was telling us bout his plan to save money n we punish him to punch the table.. LOL.. ok, pool is boring about few minutes.. then password is password call us.. told us tt he hav booked com for us.. so we went to dota.. hahahahahaha.. first match me n wee sux.. totally own by tommy n yanda.. then 2nd one was totally ownage.. tommy team totally stinks.. hahahaha, then 1 on 1 with tommy, fucking asshole.. always backstab.. bloody hell.. stinko.. then cs.. wow, cs is so bloody fun.. with yanda the joker.. he kept make us laugh the whole game.. then act pro, wat surprise attack.. and he bloody got rape.. hahahahahahahhahhahaha.. he is a damn funny guy..

ok, then carlos 1 on 1 with dave.. wat a shithead.. carlos lost.. so lousy, so noob.. then wee lost to yanda.. it was so shocking.. wee is such a disappointment.. yanda is jus a fucking noob.. LOL.. then the whole day yanda act humble n kept making us laugh again.. ok, finish our ljs then we go sit down n chat.. then play with yanda slipper.. laugh here n there..

then go home..

i miss my panda so much.. waiting for friday to come..

friends..
just what we need in life..
love..
just what we miss in life..
money..
just what we want in life..

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Where every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure
Don't want to close my eyes
I don't want to fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you babe
And I don't want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you babe
And I don't want to miss a thing
Lying close to you feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes
And thank God we're together
I just want to stay with you in this moment forever
Forever and ever
I don't want to close my eyes
I don't want to fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you babe
And I don't want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you babe
And I don't want to miss a thing
I don't want to miss one smile
I don't want to miss one kiss
I just want to be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just want to hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time
I don't want to close my eyes
I don't want to fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you babe
And I don't want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you babe
And I don't want to miss a thing

all these phrases is how i feel for u.. my dearest panda.. i love u so much cus u let me know, wat's happiness.. i love you..

happy FRiday..

FRIDAY

it suppose to mean pool and dota and starbucks.. and wat the hell.. now they crazy bout pub.. LOL.. so we went, the flare bar at meridien.. btw, its only fucking 7pm.. since when ppl go there so early?.. LOL.. nvm, so we drink, talk, play some poker.. i was totally bored out, as there's nth to do pretty much over there.. then talk bout those bartenders.. 1 of them came n join our table.. kinda like socializing with customers.. so she came n go, came n go.. then those idiots kept ask her come over.. especially tommy, i dunno wat the hell he was doing all day long.. LOL..

ok, so we play the number game again.. i do 10+15+20+25 = 70 pushups.. omg.. so crazy.. and wee do same as me.. dave n weikun n tommy sux.. all nv did standard pushups.. yanda even worst.. it was last round, so we bet 50 pushups.. and he damn sway, he lost and cant do 50.. so he take off his pants for 5 secs.. LOL.. bloody hell, he like stripper always.. n then so the bartenders came over.. then weikun ask her if its alrite to kiss him, it was a dare by tw.. ok, so she kiss, then dave also want.. then tw also want.. then tommy also want.. bloody hell, like a bunch of se langs.. omfg, i cant believe it.. n they like addicted to the kissing stuff, kept wanting it.. n worst, dave say kiss lips by lips..

ok, so i say lets go play dota, then bloody hell.. those crazy idiots, play so long.. very bored.. then we sit outside waiting, saw 1 of my sec skool fren, he also rebond his hair.. ok, but he dun hav the gay look, only tommy.. so fucking fucking gay.. so yanda say he was hungry, n he bought korean food up.. and he eat on the floor.. wat the hell, i dunno y he wanna eat on the floor.. LOL.. so we sick of waiting we go home..

actually, i wanna date panda.. but she, lOL... cant get my hints.. hahahahaha..

emotion..
there's no satisfaction
it turns to seperation
and leads to desperation
searching for some sensation..

hahA.hahaA.

yes, at last.. i hav succeed to customise my wonderful blog.. hahahhaa, so nice.. i love it damn much.. although my blog is abit explict in contents, well, alot actually, but aiya, is my way of talking.. but i will always be gentle with my panda.. LOL.. so happy to hav my blog done the way i like it.. is it very nice? hahahahaha..

hmm, update awhile.. im currently married to a sweet panda.. she's the girl tt i met in giant.. hahahaha, cant believe that she's my gf.. and so funny that me and wee all find gf in giant.. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAA.. my panda is so sweet.. so love her.. love to see her smiles, see her does everything especially she fold her hand.. hahahahahaha, so funny lor panda.. LOL.. i does anything to see her smile and happy.. even the most stupidest thing i will do it.. cus i love my panda so much.. more than food.. no food, i can die.. but no panda, i sure die lor.. LOL..

maybe i should date her out.. is quite sometimes since our last outing.. LOL, but friday is happy brothers day.. mus plan again.. so tired.. but its all worth it for my panda.. i wish we can put our portrait over here.. hmm, maybe.. i'll make her take pics with me.. hahahahahaa..

dota dota..
tt's all folks..
my love for u has will nv hav fullstop
love u to the fullest

09/09/2005

it is such a fantastic day... i cant believe it.. hahahhahahhaa..

hi guys.. LOL.. i have a date with meiwern sia... hahahaha.. first date lor.. hahahahaa.. meet her becus of the gay ass tommy, go rebond his fucked up hair.. then feel so bored as pool is not fun for me anymore.. dota, yes dota.. hahahhaha.. so i sms my panda asking her where she is.. then went to meet up with her and see where we can go... hahahaha.. then saw her with her fav "W" classmates.. quite cute actually, well, my fren like her.. hahahaha.. kinda popular.. so she went off leavin me n meiwern behind.. hahahaha, actually tis is my opportunity.. but i dunno where to go sia..

we walk n walk n walk.. till meridien, then i think of dota n uncle.. but meiwern not playing then we walk again to ps.. then i got an idea of watching the maid.. so we when to see the time of the show.. jus in luck, it was a non-waiting show as the show time is jus 30mins away.. so we were deciding at there whether to watch the movie.. i was afraid tt panda mite wanna be home early so i was thinking bout her.. then we came to a decision and we watch the show.. hahahaha, it was scary bloody scary.. alot of sudden shock.. haahhahahahahaa, panda was holding on to me.. LOL, she looks so bloody scared.. hahahahaha..

after the show, we walk the whole orchard lor.. so lame, so tired, so hot, so sweaty.. hahahah, then i ask her to go with my frens to play dota.. she dint want cus she was a shy panda, as i wait for her to board the bus.. it was a fantastic day... seriously.. i hav a wonderful time with her and no words can describe it..

after the outing when to meet up with my bros and the gay ass tommy look like wee's gf.. ahahahahahhaa.. fucking gay.. we went to carrefour to buy drinks and chat awhile and went home.. wow, food.. there's food when i went home.. so dead hungry.. hahahahaha.. ok, gtg watch tv.. bye bye.. take care..

info: panda is meiwern, meiwern is panda..

hahahahaha.

hi everybody.
hahaha, see some changes of my blog? lOl, learn some stupid html shit and now i applying on it. hahahahaha. cool? LOL.. been crazy tis week. saving money, working while studying. busy like hell, test coming. skipping some of my lectures, hahahahahaha. know new frens, happy lately. but flashback do happens sometimes, well, what can i say, those memories are tattooed into my mind. hahahahaha, gd day everybody.

god bless the bunch of hardworking ones. not u.
well, maybe la. hahahaha.
bye n take care.

wow

hello. i feel like tis is an abandon webby or something. it's been so damn long i hav ever update.

yes, i'm a totally regonised tp student. hahahaha. my class is united n fun. well, i can say is better than 5b but i still miss my frens. jian hui in tp, bloody sunshine in tp, tian wee in tp, tommy in tp, louis in tp, tiffany in tp. maybe there's some more ppl for me to find out in tp. well, poly life is really different from wat i experience in sec. studies is difficult, skool is big, life is fun or boring, lecture can skip, tutorial cant runaway and it's all fun.

life's fun in tp. well, update next time. gonna start simpson soon. bye.

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jus wanna put something on the ghost webpage, is like everything is cover with spider web and no wonder is call webpage.... okok, not really tt funny...

hi, my name is milk.chocolate. i am half white half black. this is because i am a chinese but having a nigga accent... hahahaa, what the fuck... okok, tt's all. bye...

happy chinese new year..

fReeDOm iS pOWeR

hi yo, all of you outta there...... hahahahaha, now then i know what's the meaning of my title here..... freedom is indeed powerful..... so does freedom in love.... now i much open now, and optimistic..... i am tired of trying or chasing girls for love cuz is so painstaking.. that's y is best to stay single and thinking bout the one that i like always....

by the way, a great happy chinese new year and i am 18... so damn happy sia, i can drink buy drink and buy alot of great stuffs... hahahahaha, er, heneiken is great stuff rite? hahahaa.. and lastly, bullshit to all those gays, they sux.... hahahaha

you will always stays in my mind and my heart..........

2005 brand new year

hello, its been so long tt i have blog.. damn fucking busy lately.. hahahahha....

i feel sad.. and to all the victims of the tsunami waves, GOD BLESS YOU ALL..... hope that they will all be save and sound.. i am too, share the grief of the victims.. if peeps outta there haven make a donation, please at least donate a few bucks.. thanks you..

bEEn real busy lately.. i love my job.. quite tough but quite fun.. i began to have affection of a sweet promoter.. hahahha, she add me in msn, i'm glad.. hahahahaha.. i pledge tt i will get her number at the end of the month no matter wat.. must grab hold of the opportunity or else, jus like my last encounter i left with regrets.. i will try my best at least to be her fren.. hahaha, but i dun really love her yet, but jus admire her... the best is get to know her more.. and the fucking situation now sux.. i dun even dare to talk to her.. so sad, so close yet so far... ahhahahahahaa.... but one day, my bravery will enlarge and i will get to hear her voice after all.. she said "bye" to me and my heart was dropping out.. LOl, pretty much........ hahahaha... maybe is the time or the season of love..

still there's someone tt living in my heart.. tommy told me something tt slap me awake.. but i still cant let tt go.. why? cant i just forget? or maybe stop thinking? anyway, take care peeps.. a brand new year, live it without the need of shedding tears.......

"grab hold of any opportunity cause it is appears once in a lifetime."